@VeroniqueB99 I could use a hug. I was crying writing that thinking that even my own father did that to me. He couldn't handle how my words cut through like a knife. So he hurt me until I went insane and then made it all look like it was my fault, and called me violent when he's hit me more […]

The hardest part about #tourettes these days isn't people not knowing what it is now. It's their pride. Every time I've had an issue at a shelter, hospital or otherwise it was not that they didn't understand outbursts when distressed. It is choosing to simply punish me as they did not want to […]

Something I always wondered about people with #tourettes and #ticdisorders: We're almost always empaths. The part of our brain - the #prefrontalcortex - responsible for #empathy is slightly larger than usual while the part of our brain in our #basalganglia regulating motor planning/control […]

Even the #law around #food nutritional info is messed up in the #usa and has loopholes. I find this "sparkling water" to be very sneaky. The law allows you to NOT MENTION something is in something if there is an arbitrary "miniscule" amount, which is […] [Original post on mastodon.social]

Is there ever a more satisfying moment in a multiplayer RPg #gaming journey than cheesing a mechanic so hard that you're better at the game than someone who has every hack they can find? I don't think there is. Especially when they literally send you a death threat afterwards. Realize that if […]

#shoes are important in #fitness or #health and a really good way to have a really bad day is to have awful shoes, or shoes that don't fit to what you're trying to do. Someone gave me a pair of shoes they bought in Australia that were too large, and my size. Salkin in the brand and they're […]

#nature be like- "Oh you humans think you're cool cuz I gave you a giant brain and prehensile thumbs? F**k that s**t I made an INSECT with a prehensile FACE that is basically a helicopter with a radar system, has a hunting kill rate of 99% and you called it a dragonfly, I called it death […]

You want to know how absolutely awful the #uspol situation is ATM? I have recently been having some tests that suggest I may have low level #autism. I looked at the doctor and just said "well this is all fine and good, but I think I'll leave it to guess work for now because I hear there's an […]

I've been thinking for a while why #symbolism #metaphors and #history are so important to me. Whether it's an antique or a coat I've had so long I've named, whether it's a nickname or joke with a story, whether it's an action or eloquent statement meant simply to make a point: I think it's […]

Yesterday I had a gigantic amount of energy. More so than usual which is saying something. I didn't really know why but I went for a hike and walked a total of about 25 miles super quickly. I wanted to explore and was hyper as could be. I don't often notice a big difference between weed […]

#craiglist has been useful for me in the past with finding random gigs to do. Which I did pull off and I'll be going and helping someone set up and carry a bunch of equipment for #naturephotography and time lapses overnight. I'm basically getting paid 400 […] [Original post on mastodon.social]

I have a question - Should someone who can barely talk coherently and can be defeated by a broken escalator be allowed to decide what the nation with the MOST NUCLEAR WEAPONS and WEAPONS IN GENERAL does? No? Then why the hell is that the case ? I'm so confused, I've given up on arguing with […]

I now live in a 2 million dollar house in a very fancy, rather calm neighborhood in the upper #sanfernandovalley. It's somewhat of a privileged house for people part of Full Service Partnership who don't constantly mess up, and after the disaster at the first place they put me, they tried me […]

Someone accidentally gave me a gigantic compliment that I had never received before. Full Service Partnership - my #mentalhealth case management service - is starting a #cooking group and wanted some volunteer hosts. What they said can be paraphrased as "Hey you're fit so you probably know […]

There is no dumber #sport that's legal than #slapfighting because you're essentially speed running #braindamage from chronic, repeated head injuries. If you know anything about #martialarts then you know they aren't really slaps either. They're wrist strikes most of the time, which can mess you […]

Drunk people have a hilarious tendency to climb on top of stuff and then start shouting at the top of their lungs. I guess the inner monkey brain takes over and gates, tables, counters, cars, balconies, ledges and any other man made object start looking a lot like a tree, and we are now singing […]

You can definitely tell with some big businesses they never anticipated it really working out based on the name. Or they had questionable English skills. Maybe both. Like the market near my home: Super King Market which is like any other large grocery store but Armenian. What the hell does […]

Happy birthday to me! I sure do love weed! My friend gave me edibles, I'll be high as a tree :D #writing #humor #420blazeit #weed

Don't use other people's consumables if you live in a group setting. They notice even if you think they don't, and some will get really sarcastic about how they handle it. I had a roommate who filled his shampoo up partially with pee, and partly with shampoo. Then checked again a couple weeks […]

My #writing for today - #migraines are the creation of The Devil himself and are routinely more painful in bursts that healing from hip surgery was. I have to wonder what the evolutionary purpose of the left half of your entire head and neck experiencing a very unique, and very awful kind of […]

The #maga movement running the #usa is honestly run by sociopaths. My logic- If I was told I could be a billionaire right now but I had to make a country of 350 million people suffer, I would say no because the shame and guilt would never leave my mind. I would never have peace again as I […]

It occurred to me that I now live at a house that doesn't care if I smoke weed, and forgot that I am allowed to have #weed delivered straight to my house. Which is great because I'm a cheap bastard and the best deals are always with delivery. Who needs a guy in an alley when I can buy half an […]

I've been writing a lot about my mom lately. I'm together stories into a novel to share my story and hers of the #horror we went through in real life. No film has ever scared me more. It's hard though. Her story is the saddest I've ever thought about. To be one of the most loving, intelligent […]

I have figured out a surefire way to get amazing, not mushy rice 100% of the time without a rice cooker. I despise mushy rice, yet absolutely love firm rice. I sucked at making it until now! Using basmati rice: -Rinse dry rice -Have a ratio of just over 1.5 to 1 water to rice -Add a pinch of […]

I have found myself in a demographic where it is now impossible for me to avoid hate almost anywhere I go online. I'm from the #usa so I have noticed a sharp rise in people assuming I'm some braindead lunatic and assume they know what I believe after 1 comment. Then I'm also #disabled so I get […]

Traveling between four states and going to progressively larger places has entirely changed my perspective of distance over the last few years. I used to think #boise was pretty big, but they also had no bus system so five miles was a lot more significant than it was in #losangeles #portland or […]

Sometimes I challenge myself to come up with as many random words as I possibly can just for fun. There is no point. I'm bored and my mouth needs to move so I come up with gibberish. Today's longest string - "Why don't you biscuit your mayonnaise unicorn why spoon in a star fort flying fig […]

I live with an everyday #horror that would be hard to handle for most, and I go to #therapy. It's hard to describe a powerful motor #tic with #tourettes. Most of the time I am willingly responding to an urge/sensation I want to relieve - like constantly stretching - but seldomly they're […]

I will be 32 on the 23rd of this month. I have officially upgraded operating systems and I am now 32 bit. Does that mean I actually have to adult and apply my capacity to something useful for once? Or do I just have double the processing power to waste now? #adhd is really good at […]

If you cut it down to essentials and take #religion out of the picture, #life is 100% a naturally occurring set of extremely complicated runaway chemical reactions that haven't stopped getting more complicated yet, and has now become self aware. That is far more wild and amazing to me than any […]

Incels in a nutshell: "NOBODY LIKES ME AND I NEVER GET LAID, I CAN'T FIGURE OUT WHY!!!" *Proceeds to be nothing but an indiscriminate asshole towards every single demographic* "WOMEN ARE THE PROBLEM!" *Goes on Reddit and messages every single girl sexually explicit messages* "They ONLY LIKE […]

In a way part of me has given up on certain things that used to matter deeply to me. I had dreams of having a comfortable life with a respectable job, and a permanent home I owed nobody for. I don't think I'll ever have that home unless things change. It's freeing however, hate for owing […]

I wonder if we're at the end of the epoch in #history where the commoner had a reasonable chance of prosperity. Most of history the vast majority of people were essentially expendable slaves, and they still are in much of the world. With #tech and food security, class mobility became mostly […]

I had a dream the other night that reminded me of The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy - With recent debate about whether the Standard Model of The Universe is correct and we endlessly expand into nothing, or dark energy weakens to zero and we crunch back together into a cycle, I dreamed that I […]

From time to time I'll have a #luciddream that while rare, will always stick with me. They go between being absolutely horrifying when I realize it's a dream during what was already a nightmare, or very strange as I get absolutely no control. I'm simply aware how strange everything is. Inthe […]

I have discovered everyone at my case management & #mentalhealth service loves me. I mentioned to my case manager that I was considering getting an associates degree, specifically one relating to mental health. I mentioned a worry about the job market being crap, and she said "Just apply here […]

I have to wonder if some of the men I stay with in communal living settings had moms. Because they know absolutely nothing about cleaning or cooking sometimes. I never imagined I'd have to explain to someone how to make ramen, then watch them still screw it up when they forgot about it and […]

I've officially decided to be #vegetarian since most of my cheap ass diet consists of a lot of rice, legumes, fruits, grains and homemade protein shakes anyway since meat prices are HORRIFIC. Just as an experiment to see how far I get and what changes happen with my body/energy levels. I still […]

I knew at the beginning of my adulthood that I had survived something awful. Nobody I knew shared most of the experiences I had as a kid unless their family was horrible, but I didn't think it affected me much at first, even doing better than most as a young adult income wise. However #trauma […]

If we had a pill to make a #sociopath or someone with a disorder that causes them to lack empathy/guilt/shame, I don't think anyone would take it. Think about it: If someone has had no empathy for 30 years, they'll do a bunch of messed up stuff carelessly. Now they have to feel guilty for the […]

My mind has been messy the last few days. Not in a bad way, I've had quite a lot to do lately relating to fixing my life. Lots of appointments, lots of paperwork and meeting with people. It's strange to feel confident my life is going somewhere good for once. My mind doesn't know what to do […]

We all have moments in our lives that we decide some things need to change. That moment for me before my last hospitalization was a pretty simple thought. I got off the train to go home after walking around for six hours after having an issue with staff at Soul Housing. I walked through a […]

If I had to explain to aliens why humans deserved to live, I dunno what to say. We claim to love kindness but they'd probably be like "So why'd you guys make boats that could shoot rounds as heavy as vehicles, kill several million innocent people and then unleash the sun on that Island twice?" […]

Well #google managed to make my patched version with Revanced Manager no longer able to play music. Buuuut... ... Now I am using #deezer as a random radio for new music searching, and I can still search music on #youtube music, see my library and get the share link. Which I then use to […]

Anyone else actually gag when they saw the #trump and #epstein letter? Dude literally drew a figure of a naked little girl and made a letter I'd expect a 13 year old to write in a weird gossip circle, not a grown ass man. I think it's funny that we tried to impeach Bill Clinton for a blow job […]

#cptsd be like: *Hears wild yelling, shouting and stuff breaking in the other room* "OH SHIT MY ROOMMATES ARE FIGHTING BETTER GO CHECK IT OUT BEFORE SOMEONE DIES" *Bolts up, runs into the living room...* "Oh... It was a TV" #writing #humor #mentalhealth #ptsd

I like to think #life is the #universe trying to see itself for the first time. I am quite spiritual, and believe my soul is a piece of energy trapped inside a body, with a strange connection to the universe. All we seek to do is understand it. Understand ourselves. When I die my soul will be […]

I witnessed the laziest thing I've ever seen. At the sober living house I stay, we are assigned chores that we have to do because the manager can only clean so much when there are 10 tenants in a large house. A new guy who kinda just smokes #weed all day and stares at his laptop offered […]

I think about how bad my week would be if I suddenly didn't have my meds. You develop a dependence on most, which makes a sudden stop worse. So I would have to deal with; 1. Runny/blocked nose cuz no nose spray. 2. I wouldn't be able to breathe well cuz asthma. 3. My tics would be so bad I […]

I found a mug at a thrift store large enough to feed me summer iced #coffee addiction! I think I have a problem when I'm using Viking sized beer mugs for my coffee. #humor #goodmorning