hihi moots!!! sorry i disappeared i tried to kms and like failed so ive been sick the past few days but i’m hopefully? back? we’ll see

left the gym with my housemate (i cant drive so we go together) and she went ‘you look slimmer’

i love my little baby sm <3

i think these next few days i’m gonna be middling around 1.5k-2k cals T^T but! my housemate will be out saturday and potentially friday so i might fast or liquid diet for those two days

my sisters visiting until weds evening and shes wanting to eat three whole meals a day with me i feel like im going insane so i havent weighed in bc i feel like ive lost all my progress this year alr :( she’s only been here three days and she’ll be here four more

considering ive maintained like… after both binges which counting back were both over 2k cals i must be insanely fat 😭 anyway im not gonna tempt fate and binge three days in a row bc i’m sure i’ll gain this time

my coworkers gonna think im a freak but lunch for the rest of the week is gonna be uh seaweed thins and a fibre one brownie 😀👍 bc ill like average to be under 800c daily no matter what my housemate makes us for dinner so long i dont binge or snack on random shit after work

tell me why i binged today after yesterday oh my mf god

most criminal part of yesterdays binge - why am i waking up 0.2lbs lighter than last morning after i was starting to plateu 😭 i mean ig i can call it a metab day then jeez

work dinner was horrific ive like messed up all my progress in the span of three hours from 6pm-9pm i - drank like 1000 cals of alcoholic drinks - ate a three course meal - ATE A WHOLE BAG OF 24 CHICKEN NUGGETS WHEN I GOT HOME BEFORE HAVING A NAP its now like midnight and i feel so shit

i feel like im abt to have a nosebleed :(( anyway just finished making my lunch for tmrw which is a 200c salad hehe

doing a weight log for feb is putting the pressure on bc do i rly want yall to watch me jump between the same three pounds the whole month? no.

i haven’t binged today but i’ve definitely eaten more than i wanted to as i had breakfast lunch and dinner with my housemate

「feb weight log」

hugs and kisses to my moots <3 im currently looking at themed diets to do next week ehe

「important」

todays rings and workouts ^^ it’s past midnight which is why i don’t have the usual screenshot oops - i have hope that i’ll lose a little today but if i don’t its likely water retention or food weight

tell me why i gagged so hard earlier that like something moved in my chest and it still hurts omfg its been like half an hour 🥲

i hope you’re all doing okay moots <3

after the binge i gained but i’m back down to what i was pre-binge now which feels very good lmfao

first binge of the year :/ i binged on 10 king size reeses cups which is 1. insane bc wtf and 2. has skyrocketed my bloodsugars and my heart rate and im still allergic to peanuts so ive had to like take my out of date meds that i haven’t needed for half a decade bc i’ve avoided peanuts

oh yeah if i’m moots with you and you repost uncensored sh i’ll have to soft block you 😭 just bc i’m trying to recover from sh after doing it for more than a decade and idek whats triggering to me atp

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i think its now time to make my pinned thread hmm and remake my intro for this layout

ive maintained the past few days but considering i thought i’d gained its not actually bad

my cut from my last sh relapse literally last year still hasn’t healed yet - like wheres my healing gone

apparently i might be alone for four days in the middle of feb so i might get to do a liquid diet then? or water fast until it harms my productivity at work hmm

i feel so fat and terrible today i didn’t even close my rings :( def going to the gym for a bit before once again meeting my family for a meal (my mum and siblings this time rather than my dad and siblings)

oh also i’m gonna do a quick layout change i think

gm mootsssss i maintained today which is fine it cant always be a weight loss day but i’m def going to restrict a bit harder today as my mum wants to go out to eat as a family with my siblings tmrw

i think ive eaten too much today :( i’m probs gonna gain

todays rings - might go to the gym tmrw? definitely going to go on sunday

i keep volunteering to go get supplies for work just to get like an extra thousand steps in lmfao

gm moots! i’ve now lost 7lbs this year which tbf isn’t much compared to some people but i’m at least getting somewhere

todays rings and workout - i still feel like i overate and like im gonna gain tmrw 🫠

i want to binge so bad but i think im just gonna c/s then chug water to simulate being full from binging? might gain water weight and salt weight but its better than binging outright

morning moots! i think i’ve maintained today which is eh but i feel kinda sick so hopefully that reduces my appetite - i still haven’t had a big binge this year which feels amazing

rings for today are sad but 5k steps and 30 mins exercise are better than nothing! ended up napping instead of the gym bc i felt exhausted

might go to the gym tonight - my rings r gonna be even more ass than usual bc i forgot to charge my watch last night and had to wait until i got into work to charge it 🥲

i’m officially down 6 bmi points as of today but i’m like,,, still in the obese category (by half a point) im so close to being ‘just’ overweight

leaving my cat to go to work feels so evil but i’ve got to make money 🥲

literally me huh

i feel like i overate sm today but its fine. tmrws another day and it was in like meals rather than mindless binging

oh another positive thing from the work meeting today is that i no longer have to work late thursdays!!! which means i’ll be so less drained

rings for today (21/01/25) - no workout but i had meeting with my bosses and wasn’t fired soooo intake probably 1.5kish

i think i’m the worst combo of self destruction i can be - failure makes me want to hurt myself but i can’t get the energy to do things so i don’t fail

im not dropping loads and loads of weight but 0.4-0.6lbs a day means its still going good bc i’m still more of focusing on not binging than especially restricting

rings + workout for today (20/01/25) - intake probs 1.5kish