going to see Ir0n Lüng next week :3 ill have to travel to my friends city so im praying i got better about trains by now 🤞🤞

ok im ending f4st rn and ill try to eat a bit more today bcs i feel. So awful its like I'm going to pass out I'll ⭐️ve for longer tmmr

at the point where i get winded from just walking 😍😍

also it makes me so slow & geniuenly stupid if i had any aspirations in life id truly be cooked

this ëd is so ass i want a sweet treat rn but it won't let me eat more than once a day now that im used to om4ds so i have to use all my braincells coming up with nutritious meals AND a sweet so i don't go crazy 😒😒

evening weakness will be my demise, what is it about that time of the day that makes my body want to give out completely 😭😭 im only halfway into my f4st atm what are we doing

got a peek of my coworkers 2026 vision board and the sheet amount of th1nsp0 pics and quotes caught me off guard 😭😭 told her shes relatable as fuck for that though

had the biggest nap, woke up right in time for class lol

actually it's a little scary that i had some pastries that were outside of the usual and my body took them for om4d....i did not spend sm money for my stomach to feel this energized after a damn cherry tart 🤨🤨

i think i need to 2m4d today unfortunately, there's so much work to do and I need energy ://

good morning!!! woke up still exhausted blehhh i hope today will be a good day tho 🩷🩷🩷

good morning!!! mb for crashing out last night i did not have a good weekend mentally 😭😭 anyway i hope this day goes much better and i wish you all a great one as well 🩷🩷

REALLY banking on this stupid ëd taking me out asap bcs im sure ill fail if i try it myself 😍😍

im going to d1e never having tried anything out because im so afraid of getting out of my comfort zone im not even that comfortable in either d34th literally sounds easier than trying to have a good life im not cut out for anything substantial less alone living

experiencing anxiety levels of my middle school self atm 😍😍

good morning!!!! im gonna try my best to have a better day than yesterday lol im dyeing my hair atm and later i might do some reading or cleaning!!!

idk what is in the air recently but im so discouraged at the progress im making yet i don't wanna r3c0ver bcs a life where i have f00d freedom isn't all sunshine & flowers either

been feeling hopeless all day 😍😍

om4ding breakfast bcs i can't think anymore

feeling awfully faint rn even tho i had an extra apple an hour ago 😭😭

reached my hydration goal for the second day today - lets keep this up 🥳🥳

early om4d def helped me get through this nightmare of a day 😭😭 this week is really something else yeesh

love having my body commented on at 5 in the fucking morning 😍😍

decided to have a cup of soup bcs i was geniuenly feeling horrible lol

it's got to a point where even slow walks have me winded lol is it the ⭐️ving or 5+ years of sm0king?? we shall never know

got myself a set of wl supplements for surviving this shitty day 🩷

had a 5 minute crying sesh in the office bathroom bcs there's so much shit to do all the time i haven't been able to catch up on it since early december 😀😀

nvm i got my period and i want to d1e

goo morning :3 its SNOWING today!!!! absolute bullshit weather to wake up to but it's better than freezing ig 🤨🤨 i hope everyone has a wonderful day 🩷🩷

forgot my classes are starting up again tmmr so i had to switch up the meal schedule a bit but ill be back to my regular 20+ hr f4sts by afternoon :3

nap for dinner so tmmrs om4d can be sweet 🩷🩷

feeling sick as a dog so im not even tempted by the scent of fresh apple fritters wafting into my room rn

unfortunately ending my f4st only 17 hrs in but i need the energy to focus on work & ive been moving around sm im at my limit ://

one of those days where im praying this fuckass dis0rder takes me out

if ⭐️ving bad why immune system the best it's ever been???? 🤨🤨

i literally do not take recovery into account as long as i live here bcs other people in this house read nutrition labels OUT LOUD and tell me how many c4ls, sugar etc is in something and i should just throw it away 😃😃 what the fuck is wrong with these people

every other day i get a comment from my family about my food habits and it never fails to pmo just because they don't eat sugar and are all on fucking keto doesn't mean i have to be, leave me aloooooone 😒😒

i also need to get serious about drinking more water/liquids in general bcs some days i don't even break a litre :// im only on my second 500ml mug of tea today, hoping ill drink another one before i go to bed at least

praying my body stops fucking around and i either get my period or it quits baiting me every day since Wednesday 😒😒

how tf have i been om4ding and still g41ned 🫠🫠 is my body confused or smth i was supposed to get my period this week, i didn't sooooo is it water and i should just wait until next weekend or can i lose my shit now 😭😭

im almost convinced that i skipped my period this month 🥳🥳

ill buy something rn yo make me feel better

i Hope this dis0r3r k1lls me so i don't have to deal with anything anymore. im romantically undesirable and I'll never be loved that way and i hate that it makes me so sad sometimes.

i hate dr1nking sometimes bcs rn i wish i had someone to cuddle with 😭😭😭 im so touch deprived and yet so against any relationships it's hell to deal with

nvmmm im bored ill drink more 😋😋😋

ending my night with a nice little pr3gabalin3 washed down with whatever alc0hol i had in my wardrobe 🩷🩷

the more jokes my mom makes about how small and frail i am the more motivated i get 😌😌

my hands are so incredibly dry and red recently 😭😭 nothing's helping them smh

might have some spiced wine in a bit to warm up 😌😌

even after om4d the brain fog and downright lack of coherence and focus is getting my ass BADDDDD