my personality is really disordering in a borderline way rn

something something changing my name from something meaning belong to god to the name of a god something something religious trauma something something

Love language

i actually cannot explain how excited I am to put together furniture while my girlfriend sits next to me looking pretty and handing me tools butches im coming for your brand

ikea having a sale just as i’m moving ?? it’s literally so hard being the universe’s favourite but someone has to do it i guess

when whoever said beauty is pain said that they were actually talking about getting tattoos

omg do not get a huge fully shaded stomach tattoo that shit hurt so bad

finally getting a stomach tattoo i will not apologise for the slut i become after this

my gf is one clothing size larger than me and whenever she says she also likes an item of clothing i’m going to get i’ll get it in her size instead so she can steal it ladies if he wanted to he would

literally name one thing a big bowl of daal wouldn’t fix or at least make better

kept getting distracted in a discord call with my gf by my own biceps oops

START HRT. YOUR FAMILY IS ALREADY DISAPPOINTED.

whole phandom moved on but i’m still stuck on “do you forgive me?” “i don’t think i need to forgive you”

amazing what hrt and top surgery and going to the gym every day can do for a guy

i’m pretty sure dwp brown envelopes aren’t different to any other brown envelopes but they come with such an evil aura you can immediately tell the contents will inflict emotional damage

amazing what hrt and top surgery and going to the gym every day can do for a guy

i hate that cis people have made gender affirming care into this big scary controversial thing bc it’s actually cool as fuck that you can be like “actually i’d prefer different genitalia” and they can just DO THAT

in a weird way my mum has actually been very motivational for my ED recovery bc i will not get to 50 years old and still be as obsessed with losing weight as she is that’s so sad it cannot be me

what if instead of 2000 words on how i think cbt could help this client i just say “i wouldn’t recommend cbt” and leave it at that

i think a lot of the time trans infighting comes from a desire to have a “safe” target to be angry at, you KNOW another trans person likely won’t have the societal power to enact any real consequences for you so that feels a lot easier then directing it at ciis people who can

what are the ethical implications of me giving my bell pepper an abortion

got to do domestic admin and errands with my gf today (choosing an internet provider, going to mattress and sofa shops to see what we like) and omg i can’t wait to spend my whole life doing mundane tasks with her

i swear 99% of therapy takes online are just “i had a bad experience with this modality so it’s inherently bad and you should avoid it” or “i had a good experience with this modality so it’s inherently good and everyone should do it” but idk man i think it depends

i’m fairly isolated rn at least irl and unemployed so i hardly ever have to mask and omg i forgot how much it drains me and why this is the reason i can’t work i feel like ive just run a marathon after having to be Professional and Polite a few times yesterday

phil lester words to live by

the dwp sending the “we’ve started your pip review” text just as i was talking to my gf about how anxious i am about my pip review i know they planned this i just can’t prove it

i have thoughts on “testosterone makes you gross and stinky” and hygiene as a gendered and racialised experience but i will not be elaborating at this time

the tenant application form defaulting to mr as the title for the first tenant

i love that it now always takes me 200000 years to find somewhere to do body weight or even just standing exercises bc my gym decided a functional training area is a waste of space

“i don’t like the word transsexual bc you can’t change your sex” first of all, skill issue YOU might not be able to change your sex but i can

me as soon as i’ve had my t shot

Anyways.

did you know in a healthy relationship if something is bothering you you can just talk about it? even when no one is actually doing anything wrong? and they’ll be happy to find things that work better for both of you? and no one gets mad? woah

didn’t realise my earphones unpaired from my phone and accidentally played laura les saying “hey little piss baby” out loud in the gym 😭

the most annoying masc you’ll ever know looks like this

my coach keeps posting about “keeping things simple” while putting exercises no one has ever thought of before on my plan ???

i look like this now btw and spend all my time in the gym

guy who’s finally escaping his family forever in two weeks (me) 🎉🎉

first uni lecture and over half my tutor group work for the police and my tutor is a jkr fan aaaaaaaaaaa

the sci show said horse estrogen is prescribed to trans women and hormone blockers without hrt is a good option for nonbinary people and then doubled down (there are quite a few more errors in the video, far less egregious than those two though)

god bless the butch at the gym who always asks if i need a spot (i don’t) (i say yes anyway)

calling me a dyke while point at my keyring that says “dyke princess” is so funny well done on learning to read??

the gym when you’re a week late on your t shot will be the most humbling experience of your life

not been here for a while the updates are - went to york and saw a lot of gorgeous trans women - saw chase petra - started learning how to do chain maille (pictured below) - my gf and i are very cute (also pictured below)

strapping update of anyone cares: strapless straps are such a game changer omg

i do have a sense of superiority that while everyone is figuring out what other subscription streaming service they should use bc spotify is bad i am creating my own media server and moving away from subscriptions all together sorry /lh

i hate a “bottom growth is icky” guy that’s the best change what are you talking about

27 years ago i graced this earth with my presence and everything has been downhill since then

using pole grip for dead hangs :ooo i’ve cracked the code

you simply cannot make me care about fraudulent welfare claims, 90% of claims could be fraudulent and i still wouldn’t think it’s justified to impose cuts that kill the other 10% but especially when the actual rate is close to 0% for both UC and PIP