sorry I'm not a cool weird doesn't get embarrassed autistic masking was crucial to my survival so i studied and memorised social norms and etiquette and have a hard time letting go of those now and will get annoyed if you don't follow the rules even if i don't understand them

very funny and interesting to me that literally everyone is shocked i enjoy exercise when I've literally always been very sporty and into fitness? there's been very few points in my life I haven't been involved in some kind of sport or exercise thing

no offence but if you're in the phallo just looks bad camp but the only results you've seen werent fully healed and done 10+ years ago you should probably do more research

men in the gym are always finding new ways to piss me off true innovation

my main issue with feminist "sex work is bad" takes is why does it matter? yh maybe in an ideal world where patriarchy and misogyny don't exist sex work wouldn't either but we don't live in that world and we know any attempt to ban it just puts women in danger so that's not the feminist argument now

she's perfect actually 😌

i love when the butchfemme couple has the femme in flat shoes and the butch in the biggest platforms ever so they're the same height

very glad i have a non exercise-y gf who can tell me to not go too hard bc she already thinks the amount i do is too much so i definitely shouldn't add another sport or class

as much as i agree people don't talk about binge eating disorder enough in ED conversations it's often not the gotcha people try to make it bc BED also often presents with patterns of restriction and negative body image so a lot of general ED stuff still applies

i will not overproof my sourdough today bc i am pure of heart 😌

if i pay entry for a 10k race then i have to run to not waste money and this is how i will motivate myself

the only good part of the 4th of July is when Americans realise it's kinda hard to make food red and accidentally make a bunch of trans pride treats

every time there's a weird reel on my feed a trans woman has put it there (/pos)

on my computer searching how to stop being jealous of people who got peri top surgery

Dan said wet wednesday on this week's pod ugh my influence 😌

not to say touch grass but genuinely if you talk to trans people in real life they're just not like that lol i can talk about trans masc issues with trans women and be listened to, they can talk about trans fem issues and be listened to, we can even go "oh that happens to us too" and it's fine

trans infighting discourse becomes a lot easier to ignore when you remember people with monetised social media are paid to start arguments

sprinkling a "people who menstruate" into my assignment when the material said women to soft launch being woke

increasing my annoying person metrics by getting into running

his name isn't even on my birth certificate why did i need it to order one?? i hate the patriarchy actually

do not give me a t shirt it will immediately become a victim of my fabric scissors

i find it very funny that the PTs i know that are the like typical elitist gym rat types are constantly advertising that they have space for new clients but the ones that are very chill and supportive have waiting lists of people begging to work with them

it really annoys me when people act like the dsm is the be all and end all of mental health knowledge like even if you ignore the issues with categorisation and pathology it is meant to have a limited scope anyway, it's not meant to encompass everything we know about mental health

i actually do recommend touching grass

sometimes i let myself get into a little internet argument, as a treat

oh lord doing my first strength session in a week then day before a hike was a bad idea it was legs focused too 😭

i got Dan and Phil tour tickets bc i am pure of heart 😌

my gf is in a meeting about her PhD but I'm trying to get Dan and Phil tickets so i think I'm having a much more stressful time tbh

experiencing levels of anxiety never seen before in this digital queue rn

i will get Dan and Phil tour tickets bc I'm pure of heart 😌

i love pissing off transmeds by lifting more than them 🥰

forever grateful i found the one normal coach who told me to not do shit this week so o didn't trigger a migraine attack while so many are shaming people for not training in this heat

got into sourdough so now my Instagram feed is all tradwife content how do i tell the algorithm i bake in a cool queer boywife kind of way not a ahistorical reaction of 1950s nuclear family misogyny kind of way

i keep remembering trauma things and it's actually too hot for that I'm already overstimulated aaaa

for some psych ward friendly ways to stay cool(er): - keep asking for water, don't let staff guilt you into not asking - wet a flannel/towel/any material and lay it over you or wet your skin - wear thin light clothing (the NHS scrubs/pyjamas work p well for this you might be able to ask for them)

I'm not in a psych ward rn so idk how it is rn but in past summers on wards it's been hell, they don't have aircon and often not even fans, whether we got water was up to staff and they'd usually say to wait til the next meal or complain we were asking too often, showers don't change temperature

meanwhile my coach sent round a message saying don't push yourself to train while it's this hot like a normal person who actually cares about their clients

my gym is woman and queer owned but the social media is run by the only two cis men working there and they just give it such a weird vibe like it's actually really chill and nice and fun but their ig posts are like "only weaklings don't work out in a heat wave 😤💪"

it's annoying that the heatwave is making us spend more on food bc our closest supermarket is expensive and i can't make it to any of the cheaper ones rn :((

lmao i completely missed my t anniversary but also it's pretty cool that it's been so long i can forget that like being on t is just so normal for me now the start date doesn't even feel significant anymore

found out on father's day i can't order a copy of my birth certificate (which i need) without my father's full name (which i do not know) yippeeee

sometimes i get really sad there's no Before Trauma for me i never got a chance to see what i could be like if i wasn't traumatised

"i think personal trainers should be in shape" well i think personal trainers should know enough about health and fitness to know body shape/size isn't an indicator of health or how well someone can do/instruct on exercises but that's just me 🤷

‼️trans/kt tape binding tips and safety‼️ from someone who used to bind with tape as their primary method for 2-3 years

i love watching ableds find out strangers just grabbing your mobility aid randomly is a regular occurrence yes it is weird yes it does happen all the time

huge fan of the part of getting ready where i decide I'm actually a hideous creature who should never see the light of day (i haven't had breakfast yet i just need food to be normal)

i get so many videos of terrible PTs on my feeds now and i feel so bad for my girlfriend who has to listen to me complain about every single one of them when she has no idea what I'm on about

i love living somewhere where every other person looks exactly the same as me i haven't had a man go "i just never see people who look like you" in 2 months it's beautiful

why is it powerBI? what about powerLESBIAN? powerTRANS? huh?

i will hit a PB just bc i can't be bothered to unload the bar