i ended up documenting my work misery here so far, that's sad KSJDHAJ Im determined to draw today so I've been drawing these three through tears LMAO we never stop brainrotting actually

feeling very "im too weak to survive in this world" right now. like people are looking at me and going "cringe" or "skill issue" because I can't get over someone saying a couple of mean things to me. I can't regulate my emotions and I keep crying on and off over and over again

i think bc of whats been happening in my job, my emotions are all wack and all over the place. like right now I have this urge to cry even though nothing is really happening. I'm embarrassed that I've cried in front of two coworkers now bc I can't control myself.

I feel like crying so bad but im in the middle of hosting a session. I barely understand whats going on. I hope when i talk my voice wont wobble when i have to close it. Im having such a bad time at work it's insane

This job makes me feel so stupid and weak. Like the things i thought were fine arent... and the things i know are wrong are practiced here. Ive cried so much this week and it's only my second week here.

Im a little scared because the guy is genuinely picking a fight now and idk what to do. Theyre so aggressive 🥹 how can people work in these conditions 😭

im so worked up right now. i saw a message and then got worked up. but i did breathing exercises and i feel more or less normal LOL time for me to go back to drawing for fun!

A girl....can be a shota....guh(falls to my knees

i looked at myself in the mirror and yeesh... my eyes are dark and swollen asdkjhfjasd

silly thought: It's good that i'm experiencing overtime and insane hours bc then when I get my fixed 8 hour schedule, it will feel good. This is character building for me bc I've been too unemployed this year lol

I can do this!!! I can survive work!!! I'm going to have a few hours of fun!!! and I'm gonna go out to eat something!!!

i finished my shift... i can.. relax now... tomorrow my shift starts at 2pm so i have the chunk of the day to relax for a bit...

I really want this job to work out... it's probably why im so upset too... working with students and coaching their art looks so fun, and recently ive started critiquing students' works which I enjoy. I like sitting in the manga mentoring sessions because i end up learning something

I dont know why im sobbing about it this hard. I dont like how i was cornered and I did something regrettable. I dont like how my earnest attempt in sharing about myself was trampled on. I feel like there's no one I can go to thats reliable.

Man i just finished work and i cant stop crying again. I wanna talk to my friends to tell them what happened to feel better but i have to wake up again and clock in at 7am. I feel so uncared for in this job it's insane

I cried bc of work lol im not ok but im trying to be

Suddenly remembering i used to think I had a sweet tooth but it was rly just me liking the taste of cream. Yknow. The thing thats just barely sweet.

ordered a level 10 spicy cocoichi curry and I feel invigorated

My head hurt and i was spacing out too much that I didnt work effectively today 😞 now i have piled up stuff...

As if my sched cant get any crazier, it does. Yesterday i clocked out at 11pm and then they changed my sched to 7am to 4pm today... aauughgh another 9 hr shift... i work, sleep, and work again

How to tell my workplace i'll be running a little late bc im shitting my brains out

I realized it's probably bc i ate smthin carb heavy and did not drink my diabetes meds bc im out of it. Luckily another branch has it i'll drink as soon as i can... idk if i can get rid of the sleepiness tho aaughh

My diabetes meds out of stock in my usual pharmacy and my shift starts in less than 2 hours NOOOOOOO

kim iwol is me

I feel like this is my third time typing down a whole ass thread about Yukimasa and then i ended up deleting and not posting bc i end up being "wtf am i saying" skdfhjjs

i was gonna yap about how I relate to Yukimasa but I couldn't articulate myself in a way that would make me not look insane AKSDHASJ one day...

this is just me being weird and there's no one out there that's making me feel this way but i sometimes feel too self-conscious about being aro-ace and then participating in liking ships hahaha

drew for fun today ^^ for some reason kim iwol's hair is not that easy to draw?? idk sdkfjhs

i think my breakthrough in therapy was learning that I'm inside a body has its default reactions and how my actual thoughts/what i want/stand for can be separate from it

Need to eat smthin today... thinking of sandwiches 🤔 imma go out and then i'll try doing something fun!

Slept for a long ass time ajdidkw today i decided to inform my part time that Im resigning

i was weeping to a friend how miserable i was and wondering if i'm just too weak for full time jobs now and then she pointed out that I worked 18 hours the other day and that most people dont have two job, much less three

Bruh

i don't like the feeling like I'm dreading to go to work :( I'm not built mentally to feel cornered like this... it makes me suicidal lol 😭

Going home from da hopital if my lab results dont turn out great/theres an increase im quitting my part time

Im dying from work aheudiks the new work i have isnt hard rn, it's me trying to do the impossible task of juggling 3 jobs HAHAHA

i need to learn how to not be upset for long periods of time bc it makes my head hurt and it's gonna make it hard for me to work later 😭

i wanted the job so bad but my first day ended up being kinda dookie and I'm embarrassed to admit it but also I worked well with other people for 6 years so I know it's not all on me

my rice coagulated to the perfect consistency maybe i'll do this often HAHAHAHA (<- likes rice when it's sticky and clumpy)

watching the first ep of gastronauts on dropout and I'm on oscar with this one. How is everyone making food in 30 mins 😭 I feel like thats just prep time for me, but these ppl are like making bread and shit wtf

I MESSED UP COOKING RICE. HOW. HOW. HOW. im. i dont deserve to be alive

Ngl i dont think i can get into the fandoms of transmigration type stories anymore. The main character - og body owner discourse i experienced changed something in my brain for the worse

Im trying out a overnight mask rn bc i got it for free. I hope this doesnt fuck up my pillow case?? My face is sticky

bro what is this AI slop of a summary it's all WRONG you're representing my kim iwol novel all WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Naver you dumb mf I want to give you fucking MONEY and you dont want it "suspicious network" and it's literally just a network that's not in Korea WHY DO YOU LET NON-KR SIGN UP THEN?????

gotta finish at least lining one of my zine stuff today or i die trying

i dont know how to be on two socmeds much less one im a social failure

Soothing music for my headache 😌 youtu.be/ow5XgHDkPOQ?...

watch me try and juggle three jobs (im quitting the part time job when i get my laptop i just really need a new laptop)