I was racing the sun setting so i couldn’t let the cigar cool down. Go to 0:35 to skip me sat there waiting with it on my tongue. #GayCigar #CigarPig #HumanAshtray

Just starting. I’ll update later. #CigarPig #GayCigar #CigarTraining

Canadapoppers.is was a flop, literally no effect. Poppers-online.ch got caught at customs but maybe because i order 6x small bottles? So now im trying poppers-now.com with just 2 bottles to see if this gets through customs. Any #FFun West Coast Canadian’s have any intel on local poppers? DM me?

I FUCKING LOVE these weighted clover nipple clamps from @toppedtoys.com

I feel like it’s been a while. Sometimes life weeks flash by! Where is the quiet season now?! Had a lovely evening with Daddy & my brother last weekend. I took my new @regulation.store #Rubber hood to show him and try out. I was bound whilst my brother got fisted. #GayBDSM #GayRubber #CBT #TT

I am so madly in love with this. I’m going to be showing it off for weeks!

Why do we have to work?! Back the office today. I had a great night last night playing with my hole. Still learning how my body works so it wasn’t straight forward but still enjoyed it. Used my new #FFausten ‘The Lube’. And finally got hold of some poppers too 💜😈 Also.. new tattoo on Thurs!

I feel like a huge thank you should go out to @blindjaw.bsky.social I found this illustrated guide to douching years ago and it helped me no end. No one teaches you and it’s a shit job to do. It’s in so many languages on their profile. #GaySex #Douching #FFun

Housework day. Used the carpet cleaner on sofa, ottoman, and both rugs. Cleaned the shower, vacuumed, did laundry, made breakfast bars, fertilised the plants. #Leather made it bearable. My rubber suit mishap will be sorted next week when Regulation reopens to custom orders. Then 4 wks to make.

I can’t figure out if i need a kiss and a cuddle, or to be used hard.

I vividly remember the 1st time Daddy fisted me. Right after I started my serious hole training and loved it! Then my gut problems started. I’m trying again. Poppers should arrive tomorrow! And new #ToppedToys are already here. Here’s a video from a year ago. #FFun #Fisting #Xlube #DaddysCunt

Can anyone else not upload a video? I have the Photo Album Icon, Camera Icon, and the GIF Icon. This is like.. super urgent!! I need to upload an old hole training video where I took the @toppedtoys.bsky.social Grip 96.

Sat in the sun enjoying lunch. In a previous life i do believe i was a lizard. Explains the S.A.D as well. Undercover #CigarPig. I love that at home or away I’m eating ash and drinking piss, I’m always #locked, and DADDY always has the key. But here i am looking trying to act like a professional.

Spent the weekend trying to figure out if I’m just down & feeling stupid because I bought a $500 rubber suit that doesn’t fit me, and realising I’m 2” taller than I thought… Or, if it’s the start of S.A.D and I need to start upping medication to avoid a repeat of last year. Keeping a close eye!

I’m 5ft 9” Wtf ??!! I always thought I was 5ft 7” Photo just because

Looks like this is actually too small to make work. Upset, & expensive mistake to make, but we live and learn! Waiting on Regulation to open up their orders again and then I’ll order again. It’s for sale on Second Skin if anyone is looking for a XL (Extra Short) suit #RubberFetish #Gimp #GayRubber

My suit & hood arrived! It’s absolutely gorgeous and such good quality!! Think i got some measurement wrong with my torso as it’s probably an inch too short but my nipples still just poke out the top of nipple zips, and it’s comfortable. Hood is gagged, pin hole eyes, & zip/lace back. #GayGimp

Put on my #GayRubber jock (a little tight but keeps my cage secure and hidden away), my restraints and collar and got to eating the ash I’ve saved up recently. This is the 1st boot (more to come). Gagged a few times but I’m determined to become the best #CigarPig #AshHole #HumanAshray there is.

I still can’t believe the feeling I get when smoking a cigar. I get so horny! I love the way i look smoking! And I fucking love the taste and smell! Fall is coming and the daylight is disappearing not sure where I will smoke then. Needing to explore #RubberGimp and #CigarPig more and more.

Got my big hairy chest out and having a good tug on my tits whilst smoking a cigar. Video to come. #CigarPig #GayCigar #HairyMen #GayBear

Applied for another job today. I’m trying to keep positive and just think of it as the world waiting for the perfect fit. This job suits me perfectly and is good pay so fingers crossed! Need to smoke a cigar, maybe I’ll stop by the shop on my way home. Sorry folks for the lacking posts/content.

MY @regulation.store RUBBER IS COMING. MY RUBBER IS COMING!! MY RUBBER IS COMING!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Really enjoyed the newest Padded Cell Podcast episode, after their short break. A big section on Forensic Aftercare which was insightful. Love these two! Always some “weird, sexy and outrageous” stuff mixed in with educational. youtu.be/k5SEbPw9jAQ?... #kink #Fetish #BDSM

Applying for 2 more Vancouver jobs, so doing it in Leather gear with a couple of rubber restraints and collar. Would rather be smoking the cigar i can see in the corner… or anything really, this job search sucks ass in the worst way possible!! #GayLeather #GayRubber #GayFetish

Woke up this morning to my cage straining. The joys of being #Locked #GayBDSM #GayLocked #TeamLocked

I had another lovely weekend in Vancouver. Every visit reinforces my desire to move back. I will miss the Summer ferry rides though!

Dear universe. I don’t need muscles or brains, I just need to know when to kiss someone on the lips or cheeks, or hug them, or shake their hand. It’s a simple request.

Flash back to the day I got my first rubber. And then the Gimpulses started. #GayRubber #Rubber #Fetish #Kink

#Gimp #Sub #Submissive What things keep you awake at night and your #Locked #Chastity cages straining? I’ll go 1st. In no order 1. #Rimming a sweaty ass until their scent is everywhere. Same goes for #PitWorship. 2. Achieving meaningful and total submission 3. Being used regularly as a #CigarPig

Spending money I don’t have but at this point it’s really a need more than a want. Gimps need proper attire.. right!! Wait time approx 4 weeks so I’m almost half way. Glad I got the tall neck, nipple zips & lockable zipper. @regulation.store can I buy additional gags for the hood? #GayGimp

Dear DeSantis. You are a pathetic excuse for human. You are the lowest of the low. I wouldn’t piss on you if you were on fire. I hope I get to shit on your grave one day. You nasty cunt. I hope when you meet your god he sentences you to eternal buggery. When you’re old I hope you rot alone! FUCK YOU

A question for fellow masochists. Did you slowly build up to realising where your limit was or did one intense & consensual experience prove enlightening enough, and you’ve grown from there? Also, do you need to be taken to your limit and/or kept there to enjoy a session? #BDSM #Gay #Kink

I may have got a little horny as the sunset. I had a bit of buzz going and was enjoying every second of this cigar. Exactly what i needed yesterday. #GayCigar #CigarPig #CigarTraining #GayLeather #TT

@lthrcigarbear.bsky.social Hey. Thanks for ‘hug’ today hehe. Do you have another piggy idea for eating today’s ash? Hope the weeks going well.

This!!!!! But this cigar is putting everything right. I’ll post video later . #GayCigar #CigarPig

Almost cried this morning. Went out of my way to behave food wise over the weekend & this morning things went south again! If I was a top or straight it would be a non issue but this fills me with so much anxiety. I hate it! Even after managing some solo toy play I’m so anxious! I need a cigar!

I’m not feeling upset or angry today but there is a definite sense of frustration and unease. It’s becoming very clear the job market in Van is crazy and wages are stupidly low. I don’t know how a single person can live on these wages without sharing an apartment and sacrificing other things.

Played with my hole again. Poppers are still in the mail so had to take it slowly. Lots of @xlube.com and the @toppedtoys.com Artemis 80. Then i took my sweet time stretching over Deep Space 90. 1st time inside me and WOW!! Then finally filled my hole with the Gape Keeper 93 which felt amazing.

I commented (maybe wrote an essay) under someone’s post earlier. Then I deleted it even before someone had an opinion. Here I am posting photos of my face, my hole, videos of me eating cigar ash, fetish heavy postings… but I can’t post my actual opinions without getting anxious. Go figure.

Back when I could only smoke not even a 1/3 of a cigar each time. I enjoyed this Neya F8 ‘Big Jack’ a little too much until the nicotine hit & I vomited everywhere & then my head started spinning. If it was inflicted upon me, it might actually have been hot. #CigarTraining #GayCigar #CigarPig

Something something.. tired.. something something.. send hugs.. please..

🤣 🤣 not my profile saying I’m a Sadist! No idea how that ended up there. The only way I would know how to inflict pain on someone would be by playing them my favourite Eurovision playlist.

“Mr, DeMille, I’m ready for my close” Work picture day today. I have loved this job and still do but I hope this is my last picture. So desperately needing to get back to the city.

I have the strongest urge to get beaten & used hard today. Like I can’t focus at work, kinda urges!! Thank God I’m #Locked I feel like I still haven’t found my limit & played around that level for an extended period. Then store me away for a few hours to process?! #GayBDSM #GayLocked #TeamLocked

I have a huge bottle of @xlube.com ready, brand new @toppedtoys.com to test out, and a cigar to smoke…. And I’m cooking dinner and applying for jobs. Karma?! You listening?! You owe me!! No #GayCigar No #CigarTraining No #FuckHoleTraining

My rubber smells like a barn yard and not in a good way. Tried cleaning it and polishing it.. nope. Tried dishwashing detergent.. nope. Tried airing it out… nope. Now trying baking soda… closed or open bag? Any experienced rubber folk have any suggestions. #GayRubber #RubberFetish #RubberCare

The world is burning so I’m cooking risotto and emptying the whole Parmesan container into it. I’m going out well fed, and with a smile… but probably shitting.

I honestly believe I fell into a time vortex this week. It’s Sunday?! Really?!

Second job I really wanted and didn’t get. I need to get back to Vancouver and I will not give up. On a + note, I’m playing with my hole again & it feels really good. Some new @toppedtoys.com are in the mail so I can retire my old toys (Doc J and Fort Troff I think) Here’s a cigar photo because 🖤

I don’t think I’ve reposted anything… but if this isn’t heaven?! FUCK. My cage is straining at my work desk!