it’s not a bad life, it’s just a bad day. it’s not a bad life, it’s just a bad day. it’s not a bad life, it’s just a bad day.

this morning when i was bright eyed & happy, i said i would cook dinner. now that the day got its fangs into me, i rather just go home and sleep. 🫠

i have never, not once in my life, cried over how an employer has treated me. however - today might be that day. getting blamed for other people’s mistakes even tho i have receipts is wild. the gaslighting is unreal.

having one of those days where i don’t want to talk to anyone or do anything.

boss: cutting hours do you won’t work on mondays me: okay cool boss: oh but i need you in for the next two mondays ❓❓❓❓❓❓❓❓

made 11% of my goal during my bday stream. incredibly grateful for my little community. been super emotional all morning but trying to get it together so i could stream again at some point today. 💗

just got to my blood draw appointment & they’re an hour behind schedule 😭

i don’t ask - i usually just figure it out myself but with a 10 day turn around, i figured i’d throw this into the universe. tldr: struggling with thyroid, need RIU test, ins will cover 30% & i need to cover the rest by 7/13 or I’ll need to reschedule. 🫠 ty for reading. ko-fi.com/lilamberrr/g...

work gave my the day off (perk of being born today, i guess?) should I stream?

10:15am on a Tuesday morning & im debating a career switch.

getting old is fun - come celebrate & win vbucks?

thought i needed to save up for a biopsy for december but instead my dr wants an radioactive iodine uptake test next month. $1,580 🥲 happy birthday to me.

i just realized my birthday is next Thursday. 🫠

today’s goal: make it through the day.

today has been the worst.

my oldest told me happy Father’s Day when I suggested to him he should text his dad. he said “i just told you HFD so technically i did”. I’ve raised this kid on my own for 17 years. he hugged me, told me he loved me, then took the corn dogs i made for myself 😂 so i guess HFD to me.

walking on eggshells has never been my strong suit.

day two of being the only person in the office 🤭

working from home is great until you have an internet outage for an estimate of 3 hours…

after 6 months of waiting, im finally scheduled to see an endocrinologist for my thyroid. im not looking forward to another medical bill but i need answers.

Who agrees?😅

life is really kickin me in the shins, man.

having to step away from my safe place to stop feeling emotionally smothered (even for a couple days) is wild to me.

auto shop closes at 5:30. it’ll take me 30-40 min to get there via uber. they haven’t called about my car & the status yet. im getting nervous i won’t have it back until tomorrow or even Thursday. 🫠

i need a gd break bro.

coming back to work after a few days of bereavement is rough. i would like to go home now.

spent the morning and afternoon with my mom and my boys. wandering stores, collecting little toys, lunch, and time at the park. she’s having a hard time since losing her mom, so she’s been holding onto the boys a little tighter. it's been a rough week.

life sure does know where to aim it’s lemons. right at my heart, man.

okay - got my boxes, grabbed some lunch, now it's time to ignore the rest of my chores for the weekend and play some games. 😋

i really don’t want to go to the store for shipping boxes. i want to sell my books & have them magically ship themselves.

i just want to scream but my problems are literally small potatoes compared to others so i feel like i don’t have the right to be frustrated. 😣

accidentally bought a book. it just jumped into my cart... i swearr...

debating on twinkle lights for my room or if that’s too silly

three hours to go. 🥱

had my first stream back from my little hiatus today. 🥹 felt nice. i forgot how much better everyone makes me feel.

sigh.

I think I have finally narrowed down my search for a new place closer to work. 💛 I hate moving but I’ve been commuting 2 hours+ a day for almost a year now. I am tired.

three kids under 5, a migraine & an indoor trampoline birthday party. i don’t know how im standing right now.

running on less than four hours of sleep today. 🫠

exhausted mentally & physically. surprised i made it through stream without breaking down & crying😌

i need better boundaries for myself.

trying to be better about cutting people off when i get overstimulated… but sometimes i just crave being alone.

we made it to friday ✨

also, happy wednesday. we made it this far 🎉

finishing up my third read of the month. i need something short to read next. after i finish this current read, I’ll be sitting at a little over 2,200 pages read. 🫠 i just love fantasy books 🤭

it’s raining & if that doesn’t perfectly describe my mood…

it’s going to be a good day. it’s going to be a good day. it’s going to be a good day. ✨

what a flippin’ DAYYYYYY.

woke up feeling great.. then sprayed hairspray into my eye. so yeah, that’s how my Monday is going 🤭

100/10 soundtrack. plays B E A U T I F U L L Y on vinyl. grateful 🥹