There is a doc called ASIA but my dumbass was like "what's A Sia?"

focused and worked all day on one project and feel GOOD, not stressed/overwhelmed/frustrated (a little frustrated I didn't do this sooner - the project and the focus)

I neglected to set the coffee to auto brew 😭

Playing that game: is it the time change, is it depression, or is it another thing causing my exhaustion this week? so far my answer is "yes" Thank God I have a tiny (easy to pin down) snuggly dog to nap with 🙏

anyone want to chat about migraine summit sessions? #migrainechat just started the Gut Health session, free for the next 24 hours: migraineworldsummit.com/talk/what-ev...

i have no idea what i'm supposed to update the boss on for this exec meeting but also do not care...thank god most insane is taking most of the time.

I'm so depressed that I'm making plans for mid July just to have something to look forward to

I'm so brutally tired. I wish Mat wasn't recovering from nerve ablation because I want to be fed.

Sometimes I think "I should have a baby" but then I think about how you have to take care of it like all the time and I'm like hahaha no ty

There is another silver Tacoma in the way of where I need to be to pick up mt man from outpatient

Men making jokes about escort services in public places in a rich bitch resort town sure is something 🗡️

Meta is really dredging up the past to get me to engage. Today's throwback is the 40 yr old virgin I gave a bunch of my ex's stuff to

we need help period but the more this mediocre white guy 'contributes' the more i'm thinking "...not like that..."

My feet hurt so bad now but at least it gave me the oppty to be more specific for podiatrist

New hobby, getting really stoned and using the massage gun.

My favorite part of the silent disco was when they played Dolly's 9-5. My second favorite was dancing very silly and getting boys to change to my station. My third favorite was dancing nonstop for 2+ hours. I love to dance! ❤️✌️💃

Its 3:30, I've been up since 7, primarily horizontal, scrolling, but I just came up with a single, impactful, chore mt man and I can accomplish so I feel useful (taking out the trash, it's a little off in here👃), to be accomplished some time before we go to dance party, which will hopefully

I'm stoned but think I just came up with a brilliant plan/life pivot 🙏

Me: what if i said I wanted a lot of bubbles at our 👰‍♀️? Mt man: bubbles? For what? Me: ✨ambiance✨

Ok I unpacked one element of my depression spiral is about who has NOT rsvp'd to the 👰‍♀️ yet and I know it's still early and travel is expensive and we kind of chose the weekend knowing it wouldn't work for all... but then I started sending invites and imagining people there that might not be.

I'm not saying I want to do less hiking this summer, I just want to do more sitting and being in beautiful places. So like, instead of 5 miles let's do 2 and sit by the river for 2 hours before we head back.

We got a nice big snow dump Wednesday into Thursday and (at my elevation) it's already melted

Tell me if I'm crazy (i am): I told my dr how brutally depressed I've been because 🌎🔥 so she did some lab work but nothing came back low, ferritin came back high - i don't get a period anymore but sometimes have some spotting and she had previously suggested I take a week off BC and flush out my ute

I love my primary care provider but not going to be able to stop wondering how her ai assistant transcribed my depression

Tonight mt man indulged me wanting to wallow by eating feelings, snuggling on the couch, using the massage gun, and deep stretches, ft weed lemonade. Tomorrow maybe I'll do a chore before the silent disco/pray for snow party

downstairs kiddo is running back and forth back and forth but its early on a Friday night, party on kid

Pro: my boss is concerned about me Con: my depression spiral is palpable and causing concern

Got my annual physical today and my top concerns are: so depressed I can't even cry No sex drive RLS Still believe I'm living my best life tho

Seeing an ex on Instagram and being so so thankful for the life I didn't end up with 🤣

I'm hungry but mt man is asleep. Keep snacking I guess?

I love Beavis

I'm going to a silent disco on Saturday and plan to do a lot of drugs

Left a little later than planned and saw a moose ❤️🙏

Checked in with my parents yesterday, east coast liberal elites aka Baltimore born and raised liberal working folk, who expressed hope in democrats turning things around and I was like yeah...i got no faith in them; I think I agree with T and the whole system needs to be burned down 🙃

A lot less stomping last night 🙏❤️

He died on Monday. I'm glad I tried. I am processing everything I learned from him.

mt man smooched me in the middle of a zoom call because he dumb dumb. 🥰😊

neighbors came home stomping again last night... i know we work opposite shifts but i don't think that gives you an excuse to be loud at 1am...

It's all old hunched over people and mt man at the pain clinic.

ok back on this need to have real talk: 1. how "slow" is slow when it comes to ramping up? since posting this I have been ramping up a little each week in terms of daily so like: week 1: 1 mag l-th pill week 2: ^ + 1 mag glyc pill week 3: 2 mag l-th + 1 mag g week 4: 2 mag l-th + 2 mag g

I tried to make some chia seed pudding but I think I fucked up. Tbd

JT definitely cried when getting pulled over, I'm sure of it

I didn't use AI today and it feels good. Might use my brain more often. tbd

i have no idea what most annoying is talking about. i lost her train of thought at least 20 mins ago.

I have been lifting weights on Sunday, and doing Pilates on Monday, and while everything still sucks I think my attitude is slightly improved.

The stomping around from neighbors below reached its peak between 1-2am last night which mt man believes points to tweakers, which is an extra bummer since there's also a kid down there. I am trying to give them grace, it's a hard town to live and work in...

TMI my farts have been extra special rank lately. I don't think I greatly changed my eating habits, why so stank?

Does someone want to map out/plan a pacific coast highway honeymoon for me in Sept? thx

Treated myself to $30 shower steamers. I'm worth it

Tried to visit my dying friend but he was sleeping. I truly believe he would encourage me to enjoy this beautiful day while I can. And i feel guilty about that still