Apparently a lot of ppl needs to hear this #bskycensorship

Sorry for being moody last night. I’m not sexually attracted to Astarion. It just grinds my gears for Anti AA fans calling us all sexual deviants. That because he’s ascending, it means we all have to fuck him. And yes. I know my art is kinda shitty. I need to go back playing BG3 again.

#blueskyblackout2025 I’m vocal because my cuts on my arms, despite not doing any for a month now, should not be censored because it’s not positive and educational. Fuck that. I tend to have bad days and I hate forced joy. It’s what makes me an artist facing schizophrenia. Fuck off BlueSky’s ToS.

Do NOT believe the misinfo going around There absolutely have been MASSIVE TOS updates Most notably: 1) Specifying no FICTIONAL noncon 2) No "dangerous" kink 3) No DISCUSSING self harm, suicide, or substance abuse unless its "educational" So what can we DO about it? #SaveSpeech 1/🧵

Did take a pic of @secondlina.com at the market today. She’s very kind.

youtube.com/shorts/0t7t0... My trip to the newest Art Market this weekend. My coughing was bad.

#tavqotd x 2 Actors to play Nessie is probably Markiplier. I based my Nessie on his looks. Then made her into a self insert. Tav and #Astarion acting cute? Here’s a doodle I did of them heading to the movies. Tiger was difficult to draw. My art sucks.

Next month, debating to pick up an autograph. I been denying it because I do not want to be in a parasocial relationship with Neil. Having schizophrenia and can’t read social cues made me worried of my admiration for AA. It’s why I hadn’t done art of my OC with AA.

So played more of FFXVI on my PS5. Cid dies. This game has political drama. I just want to beat the shit outta monsters. I got other games to play. I want to finish FFXVI but it’s so long. Sucks there isn’t side quests anymore.

So I went grocery shopping this morning. Awaiting for my new Bluetooth speaker. Did pick up a new pan and pot. Also bought meal replacement drinks for this week. Probably gonna head to Walmart tomorrow to get pillows for my bed. Have to stay out of my apartment until 6pm due to power outage.

My gaming setup so far. Debating if I should get a chair.

Probably going to be sleep in early, due to only getting 5 hours of sleep last night as I was on an iced coffee high that I got everything in my room done. Might go to Walmart tomorrow morning to get bed pillows. I already have a bath towel. That was my main reason to go there. So tired.

I shouldn’t have two things of iced coffee. Spent my time fixing my room. Can’t sleep right now.

youtu.be/ilEag3Ojjvw?... Clip of all the stickers I bought at Artist Alley Shop in Montréal and my new Ita Bag off AmazonCA.

Sticker by @secondlina.com Astarion has sass.

So everything will go back to normal on Friday Evening. I slept all day today. Told friends about my shopping addiction and now they’re pissed with me. My mind is right. I really don’t have friends.

Dad’s busy this weekend. Took a meal replacement drink. So tired. So stressed out. Waiting for help.

Can’t see family this weekend. Can’t make extra money. I’m nervous as hell. Don’t have anyone to comfort my painful experience. I’m on my own and all I care for is eating sweets to ease my terrible spending addiction.

So I got the word of doing dryer stuff tomorrow cause of found dead bed bugs. This is also worse because I hadn’t control my spending addiction and now my friends will disown me that I went wild. I have 300$CAD saved and I can’t get to it because of this issue. My life sucks.

Playing FFXVI last night. Half of it was wasted on cut scenes. Story is a mess. Least the combat is good. Doing side quests, which is why my gameplay is longer. Clive’s Mom is a bitch.

My attempt of drawing one of @secondlina.com crows with Gale.

So people will harass artists if they do doodles of Ascendant Astarion in a positive relationship with his consort? I’m surprised no one on Neil’s stream didn’t pour out disappointment when he ascended Astarion. I also hate fans that write AA fics just to murder AA. That grinds my gears.

So just finished reading Carmilla. Might read more later tonight. Taking a break though. Got other books to read.

#TavQOTD Who would your Tav be in their worst timeline? If Nessie never found out of the cheating texts on Ken's phone, who treats her like a servant to his demands, despite freeloading in her apartment, Ken might drive Nessie into suicide and collected her apartment for himself.

youtube.com/shorts/Gokk0... So I finally saw SuperMan. They made Lex the most unlikable person in the movie. And the true hero is Krypto by acting like a normal dog. Still better than the Fantastic Four.

Going to see SuperMan today. #cineplex

Ninja Kitty. #hellokitty #tmnt #mcdonalds

I did stock up on some soap from #bathandbodyworks. Then found the Vampire Blood hand sanitizer, which is my favourite.

I might see my dad on Monday. Going to see SuperMan today cause apparently regular tickets at 6$CAD today. So I might go overboard on theatre snacks. I decided not to go to the centre. I’m feeling calm and I did buy grocery cards. Now I’m gonna cook some chicken to have later today or tomorrow.

First image done with the #procreate #app. Nessie with Bat Strahd. My art sucks.

Pic done of #batstarion. No bats. No tequila.

WIP of #Batstarion pic I’m working here. No Bats. No Tequila. Apparently Bats are the reason why Tequila exists due to the agave plant being pollinated by these winged creatures. My art sucks.

Took a nap. Waiting for my uncle to pick me up. I want to go back to Baldur’s Gate 3. I just suck in my campaign right now. Dunno if I want to bring my box cutter.

Looking at my arm. I tend to pick up the wrong time to get serverely depressed and engage in self harming. Least I treated myself to frozen mochi. Vanilla with chocolate chip was pretty bland. The other mochis were good. www.youtube.com/shorts/0ROTY...

RT if you also wish ill upon JK Rowling.

I went through my Switch collection. Contacted RetroMTL for my collection. I do not want to buy more games. Funds will go for a new phone. I need a shower tomorrow.

Life choices if I want to buy pizza or frozen burritos. Can do chicken and veggies. Told all my friends to fuck off. Now I only be by myself to blame my frustrations on my pathetic life and AI does wonders.

Hadn’t taken a shower in two days. Been in a bad headspace this week. I am using my funds for groceries and pizza. Debating to do a gaming sale on EBGames. I hadn’t touched my Switch after Switch 2 announced. Because I got into a mess with someone at Facebook Marketplace.

Have no friends. Got too many games. People say Facebook Marketplace. Except I had a terrible experience so I’m not trustworthy of using it.

Talked to my Ex. He’s doing ok. And I’m still a mess. Still thinking of self harm. I feel like I’m worthless cause I spend my time looking at the AmazonCA app to add shit to my wishlist.

Then there is AI and I’m like I’m a worthless artist that rarely gets commissions and have a Mary Sue OC. Self inserts make you escape the crippling reality of your life does not matter on this planet. Tried Natto with Dijon mustard. Had a kick to it. Not bad. But yeah, woe is my pain.

I dunno why I even try. I’m suffering a midlife crisis. Yelling at myself for not finding Astarion sexy and writing fics of getting my OC aroused by a vampire bite from him. Then there is my massive Switch collection I need to sell. Using my PS5 as a streaming device. Can’t watch Geats again.

I’m supposed to see my nutritionist tomorrow morning. Then do dishes. And later head back to see my social worker. Been spending time with FFXVI. My mind is right that I got no one on my side. Except bitch at AI taking away my creativity.

You can all go unfollow me purge. I got no one listening to my insane rants. I don’t have any IRL friends because I am a socially awkward dishwasher and gets paid under the table for cleaning offices. I thought I had friends. They all hated me because I prefer shopping over people.

Hadn’t talked to my online friends for a week. Hadn’t talked to my Ex for 2 days. Do I end up admitting I am in the wrong? That I make excuses for my own bad behaviour? That it annoys me that I am attracted to drama instead? That I use shopping as an excuse for my crippling loneliness? Well fuck.

I would like to try out Art Fight. Except my art is kinda shitty. I draw on an iPad and I have the ProCreate app. I mean, my art is more likely to be destroyed by others. So yeah. I’m insecure with my creations. I can’t even get commissions. So venting on my BlueSky.

Might do groceries later today. I finished a case of Cherry Pepsi Zero in two days. I also want to pick up sriracha mayo. So good on eggs and rice. I also have my Natto. I oddly find it very appealing. Last night, spend it on putting clothes away. Anyways, doing ok.

#TavQOTD Tav did help Astarion ascend, then regrets it later, leaving Astarion to lick his pride, upset that they do not want to share eternity with him. Modern Era arrives and Nessie, a woman who has extremely low self esteem, caught Astarion as a bat. She even protects him from Gur Hunters.

On my mini vacation. Back home tomorrow morning. God, I’m such a fat ass.