Felt dizzy heading home. Calling it a day as I do my cleaning at 4pm. Took Advil to ease my head. Heading to RetroMTL tomorrow afternoon.

My calm place? Gaming on a handheld system with a #Batstarion on my shoulder while outside. My art sucks.

Got groceries and picked up Astarion's Book of Hungers. Dunno how to move it to my eReader from D&D Beyond. Help?

Sister celebrated her birthday yesterday. My aunt makes snarky comments about saying people on welfare are lazy. Then gives me a shirt too big for me. I need to start losing weight so I don’t get nitpicks from my aunt.

I know it was a fake trailer, but I like any mention of Lupin vs Patro Rangers. They called the series, Power Rangers: The UnderCrew. Said video: youtu.be/63rf6zyBQiQ?...

They just preorder opening for ball jointed K-Pop Demon Hunters figures for 230$USD. And I still hadn’t seen the movie still. Maybe finally watch it on my PS5.

Tara art I did. Colored. My art sucks.

There was commotion in the bus this morning. People fed up with the bus driver in a packed bus over the strike issue. Want to get some gaming done. Still waiting for my rent to be paid.

Finally had breakfast. Cereal. I gotta stay at the Day Hospital until 2:30pm. Gotta head to sleep earlier cause of the monthly bus and metro strike. Still managed to get some gaming done last weekend. Friday, gotta pay my phone service.

Finally found the amulet I was looking for. Now I just need to wake up Withers and then head out to the hideout to encounter Wyll. I swear if Gale eats it, I’m sacrificing his ass to the Emperor.

Got groceries. Might go back to gaming soon. Gotta wake up early due to the monthly bus strike. Did see this while heading to the grocery store.

Had to start at and earlier save in my BG3 play through because I did not get a chance to pick up an amulet that can speak to the dead. No Gale, this isn’t for you to consume. Got more art.

Started replaying #BG3. I missed my chance to pick up The by Amulet of The Dead. I met Gale. I don’t want to tadpole his brain. Astarion isn’t stabbity stabbity on my Bard’s neck. After doing groceries, gonna play more on my PS5.

Got my grocery list done. Gonna do it tomorrow morning. Friday, gotta pay my phone service. I did some cleaning. I’m getting sick of having chicken stir fry. So gonna buy Tofu instead. No, I’m not vegan. It’s just meat is expensive and I’m trying to lose weight.

Gel squishies to help me focus on my neurodivergence. Got it off AmazonCA.

Bazzarcakes from #Instagram posted this reel, thanking someone that just bought their Ita Bag at Artist Alley Shop yesterday. That person is me. And the end result to showcase my prints.

Picked these up for inspiration to start #BG3 on my PS5 tomorrow. Art by @secondlina.com

Happy Halloween. Waiting for Dollarama to open so I can buy toothbrushes. Dunno if I want to go to Forward House today. So rainy today. Might get pizza afterwards.

So no Halloween party today. Not feeling mentally ok. Want to focus on gaming today. It’s such gloomy out there and it makes me want to sleep in. Next week is a month long bus strike.

Watching videos of #BaldursGate3 of how to play the game on YouTube. Ended up with explanation as an algebra equations. Yeah, I’m a n00b.

Talked to a worker. It was painful to talk during our meeting. Throughout my life, I felt noting but shame. I was angry that I couldn’t express myself like others could. I turned 40 and got my very first job because my parents coddled me to obedience. Now 42 and my life is shit. And single too.

And my ankle is sore. I feel it while I’m sitting. Maybe due to the recent stress I been having. Last night, made eggs with kimchi/halmae. Having it for lunch.

Back is sore. I want to game, but I feel sleepy. I don’t to veg on YouTube videos. I really dunno how to express myself without mentioning shopping.

Got into drama. I need to get back in Baldur’s Gate 3. Though, I think my Save File got deleted. Caught my eye on another Ita Bag. My first one I have is falling apart. Bus pass says my pass is about to expire for the month. Still no word of the strike yet.

Ok, so I missed one party because we were kept in till 1:30pm at the Day Hospital. I find out my mission is to start talking about myself, instead of the things I buy for myself.

Working my way to try out a new rhythm game since I picked myself playing the Final Fantasy Theatrhythm Curtain Call on the 3DS. It has a big learning curve. Got three trophies already. Futaba likes Tsunderes? This is new. Might go back to Persona 5 on the Switch later this week.

-Tara and Karlach are the reason people love Baldur’s Gate 3. “Oh my, Mr. Dekarios. I must have turned into a Fursona.”

So finally finished reading Ravenloft: Heir of Strahd. Not expecting the plot twist at the climax. Decent read. Now I have a new book to read for Halloween. But yeah, been following Strahd themed Tumblrs, trying together ideas inspiration to write again.

Someone from Discord, user Nicola, made this cute Halloween couples pic of Nessie with Astarion as Harley Quinn & Joker. Thank you for the fanart of my writings.

Happy #AsexualAwarenessWeek. Couldn’t do much this weekend due to stress. But I glad I can take part of it. My OCs, YingGirl and Nessie. Be Ace. Do Crime.

So the prompt was “I can/I can’t mess up”, decided doing a political piece for #asexualawarenessweek. I didn’t partake. It’s not Anti American Parade. No one wants a dictator in the government. So here’s my 15 minutes political piece.

And didn’t do something today because I’m nervous as shit with my meeting with the Endocrinologist tomorrow. Two restless nights. I want to feel good about my Asexuality. Might do that in OT. I’m also introduced to clay. It’s trying to not let my mind go nuts and putting my body at the moment.

I hadn’t had time to doodle something for Asexual Awareness Week. Had trouble sleeping yesterday. Worried about my endocrinologist meeting cause I’m dangerously close to be diabetic on Wednesday. Fucken depressed animal wants to eat junk food for acceptance. I got three Halloween parties next week.

OC Nessie googling Rowling. Because of Trans and Asexuals existing, it destroys the gender roles that were given to everyone from the colonialism days. People being sex free and transitioning to a different gender make fascists’ brain go derp. Happy #AsexualAwarenessWeek. And fuck Rowlings.

So I just saw this on Facebook. I’m going to make something about myself, since I came out as asexual few years ago. Dunno what, but I am open to suggestions. Maybe do a comic like Assigned Male from Sophie Labelle. I do know that Rowling hates us.

New #derpytiger charm I picked up. Plus wore a wig today.

Today at #artistalleyshop on Mont Royal. It’s a good day. Heading home now.

New #Procreate app piece I did. My art sucks and I referenced @queenoftriforce.bsky.social Halloween commission piece.

So I’m at a cusp of being diabetic. I can’t buy junk food anymore and crash myself to deal with my insecurities by liking my sweet tooth. Not dealing with my depression via junk food indulgence. I am a fat bitch that no one loves. I dunno what to do next month. Time of the month is a bitch.

Slept all day today, made lunch, and still hadn’t touched Overwatch for 2 seasons now. I hadn’t game on my PS5 a while now. I got my program tomorrow. I need to game eventually.

So I think I need to look at other stuff off YouTube algorithm. This is a real video.

I still haven’t touched Overwatch for the past 2 seasons and there is a new season next week with a LifeWeaver mythic skin. I want to finally play on my PS5 today before heading out for a diner at my aunt’s place. Picked up two new charms, a pin, and a postcard of Jinu at Artist Alley Shop.

Derp. I’m stupid. Didn’t know how to pair that specific device. Hence went to Google pairing device. They work now. But now my phone stopped working, which lead to conflicting major stress that left to self harm. Fuck BlueSky. Having emotions is not educational.

Ok. So my UGreen adaptor for my PS5 works for my speakers. But when my Onikuma B90 headphones does connect to my PS5, there’s no sound what so ever coming out of them. I been constantly seeing short clips on connecting headphones, but not one doing connection with Onikuma B90 to the PS5. Help?

Blood test done. Sugar is a bit high. Lips are cracked. Buses are back to normal. Got chicken to cook when I get back. Will get my new phone this week.

Gonna fast soon cause I got blood tests to do tomorrow morning. Probably going to game. Bus strike is over so I finish at 12:30pm on Monday. Finally will get a new phone this week.

My collection of #Astarion charms throughout Comic Con, Etsy, and AliExpress. Plus picked up another sticker from @secondlina.com from Artist Alley Shop.

Went to an Asian grocery store to buy mild kimchi. I can use it for eggs and chicken. They had an anniversary party going to make your own kimchi.

Apples and a Cosmetic bag to told my #NintendoSwitch. It’s #apple season in Quebec.

I picked up a book from a resident in NDG. I will read it tomorrow. Plus my Bluetooth adapter works. Bus strike kinda killed my shopping drive.