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Lately, it’s been really hard to keep up with social media. It seems like it should be simple — click, click, post an artwork. But I just can’t.

I was told that my works from Patreon were leaked. Again… And I’m broken again. I’m barely holding myself back from hurting myself.

I fucking jinxed it… Now instead of taking my kid to training in the morning and waiting calmly in a warm hallway for an hour and a half, I have to do it in the evening — standing in the cold at a bus stop for over an hour, waiting for a minibus

I want to try changing my schedule. Let’s see what breaks first — me or everything else.

Having cats at home means fur flying everywhere 💨

I googled what the word “bugai” actually means. I always thought it was just an insult for a big, clumsy guy (Larikon sometimes calls Berkan that). Turns out one of its meanings is UNCASTRATED BREEDING BULL 🐂 Thanks, Google. Now I know 🤣🤣🤣🤣

In the original «Harcyses» story, the dynamic between Lari and Berk is something like childhood friends who fell out and then met again after 10+ years. In the AU, their dynamic is purely rivals 😈 No idea why, but I really enjoy these kinds of back-and-forth swings:3 Just without crossing the line.

My schedule is completely fucked because my tablet keeps freezing. And I don’t have the money to buy a new one right now. I spent everything on a new PC, medical treatment, and a bit of furniture…

Today my tablet drivers crashed like 15 times… I couldn’t draw for shit. I’m mad as hell. Not a good idea for anyone to mess with me right now.

At the moment, I’m still taking antidepressants plus buprinol (for ADHD). But the effect from buprinol is minimal (almost zero). I talked to my psychiatrist and asked to try a different medication. I was warned that the side effects might be strong, but honestly…

Any change in my routine causes intense discomfort. Especially when it alters my daily schedule.

Every time an app or a website changes its layout, even slightly, it makes me feel extremely uncomfortable. For example, Patreon has been doing this a lot lately. And Telegram too.

My mood hit rock bottom today… but I can’t explain why.

No furniture. No deliveries. No cleaning. ONLY DRAWING TODAY!!!

Back in spring 2025, I planted some cactus seeds 🌵 And look how they’ve grown now :3

And the furniture from China has finally arrived…

While the furniture from China is still on the way, the order from Epicentr arrived today 🔥 This time I calculated the package dimensions correctly, so bringing everything home was easy 💃

Baking some pies :3

I never thought I’d ever try ordering furniture from AliExpress 0_0

This is some real fucked-up shit. Toward the end of the month my head started hurting, but painkillers helped. Three or four days went by. On the fifth day I finally felt okay again and thought, “Great! I’ll start working!” And then — bam. The next day ⬇️

I’ve hit a bit of a snag with chapter two, specifically with figuring out how Lari and Berkan actually feel about each other. At first I got stuck on the idea that Lari treats Berkan with hostility, like a feral cat. And there are reasons for that: Berkan is very straightforward, ⬇️

A future artwork 👀 Guess what he’s doing 😆

And this figure finally arrived and I’m screaming!!!

I sculpted some clay figurines to decorate my terrarium. Next step is painting them!

I forgot to show you my morning (yeah, showing it to you at night)

All done! The first chapter is written, edited, translated and PUBLISHED on Patreon!!!

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A bit of plant chaos 🪴

disappeared for a few days. Why? Because… I finished writing the first chapter of the AU!! And I translated it too :3

Actually, I’m already 31 🥳 My birthday was on December 5th 😅

Hi! 🦊🪴

I’m still kind of in shock (in a good way) at how MUCH easier it is to draw in the new Photoshop and on the new computer. No more chunky strokes or uncontrollable brush pressure. It finally feels like I can actually feel the pen!!!

Massage session 💆

I have this huge monstera that I never gave a totem in time, and the soil it’s growing in isn’t right at all. I kept thinking what to do with it, how am I even supposed to repot such a giant? Turns out the simplest solution is to re-root it.

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Kuro’s like, “to hell with your buzzing thing” 🤣

I can finally draw again

I couldn’t resist and ended up buying another fittonia. It’s in my favorite pink color!!!

It finally shipped !!! I’ve been waiting for over a month 😭 and it finally happened !!!

The main thing today is not to forget my meds… Last night I barely slept because I was writing my novel, and during the day I forgot to take my antidepressants. Because of that, the second half of the day hit me with heavy derealization, I couldn’t work or draw at all.

He’s demanding attention :3

Welcome to my little fox den 🦊🍃 There’s a bit of everything here: plants, cats, ADHD thoughts (sometimes chaotic, sometimes dark), a touch of creativity, and everyday bits 🪴 (Українською мовою в телеграмі)

Today my son has his first judo competition 🥋 Keeping my fingers crossed for him :3