where am i supposed to live when i have nowhere to go

The only upwards trend in my life atm is "it's over" particles

I just really can not do it

I feel so dumb thinking I could have friends in the city when the only friend I needed was there all along but now I will never get to see her again

In the entirety of the world, I am alone and will remain as such until I die.

I miss her so badly

This will probably be my final year, don't expect me around for the next.

I'm just not okay with life anymore

My ear hurts so bad I think I'd be okay with letting it be amputated

The pain is just unimaginable

Nothing will ever make me cry harder than looking out the window of a plane I wasn't supposed to be alone on. How embarrassing...

Honestly, more humiliated by the "take off your shoes" during "you dont need to take off your shoes" day than the TSA signature groping session

Who tf am I supposed to even be

Looking for a goonslave to clean my hard drives

Today I turn 56982 tides old, what a life wow.

She REALLY hates gay people

Are, want, and will— In its nature she won't see. Her eyes comb its cycles, Divulging in its secrets. Unwisened and rash, She hurries across its pages. Naive and folksy, She hears many tale. She seeks its master now, Unknowing in how near. She tends to many graves, Least not her own.

Why does it feel like people are disinsentivized from giving a shit if you're doing well all the time?

For my friends, I celebrate—loudly. For my friends, I love—greatly. For my friends, Have their way. Homebound— Found—coffers; Empty. What they find— I lose. For my friends— I am strong.

Do people actually exist that eat their miso soup with a spoon???

The ideal relationship structure is palace intrigue polyamory, surrounding one very beautifully aloof, and slightly divine lady.

Truth doesn't need your belief to be true, nor does the sacred need to be special. So don't worry about whether you're believing *right* maybe just go do whatever. If you care about truth: to pursue it lies in your choice and your own path alone.

Snow is a myth invented by big ski to sell skis and sleds

Why is it so frigging cold today??

Oh to be a tabletop gamer in a world out of tables,,,

I'm not lonely, I'm not alone, I'm some secret third thing that I don't yet know how to put words to.

Desperately need to get a new shaver, but as always I am stun locked by options >.< GUH I'm STRUGGLING

Will you be my heretics?

Oh, my Beloved Shrine Maiden! Through muddy rain you seek— To polish our abode with smoke, And seep with love we do. Together pluck our tethers clean, For mankind wide we sing— For our ode is long and dark, Too filled with much to crawl.

We are deepening connections in 2025, I've never been alone, I have a rich amount of people around me who I value all so much. I've been a fool to look at it with passive eyes, in driving myself away from those I hold dear. Now I turn around and seek to you with embrace.

My silly poems, now in one place :3 docs.google.com/document/d/1...

Yay for nerve damage,,,

I used to mistake the grief humanity makes me feel as misanthropic, but how could I be a misanthrope when that very grief is nothing but a deep expression of my love. Yes, I love mankind, to see her suffer is to grieve.

So I have a 10 hour window where I'm able to eat, during which I can't eat more than 400~ calories at once and I have to wait 3~ hours before I can eat again, in case anyone wondering why I can't gain weight right now 😅

Hitting rock bottom as a teenager definitely set me up really fine honestly, there is only forwards, there is only future, only hope :3

You're allowed to do anything as long as it's funny enough, you just have to be really funny if you wanna be able to pull it off.

I deserve an army of maids to help me out low-k, I have a vision,,,

Man who i gotta have such complicated health issues, I guess at least it's validating that I knew all this time since I was little that it was all physical. Too bad everyone had to gaslight me about it, though, to the point I stopped trusting my own perspective and actually lost my mind. Doctors! :D

Hot again by the deep desire to run classic Swedish ttrpg campaigns...

They should invent doctors for patients who've done their due diligence

*talk to deepseek about all the symptoms I experience* Ah yes! A classic case of [condition you were diagnosed with a decade ago] heres what you do... Kinda pmo how useless doctors are genuinely why do they never tell you any of this lmao.

They trolled me so hard putting an energetic being into material form

The Conference of the Birds is so good y'all, guh, I'm in love.

Moral rigidity is the death of good behavior, expecting martyrs, foolish. Expect not faith from those who have given you none.

Apparently some hazel eyes can change color depending on pupil dialation?

Today I weep the girl who taught that love alone ought be saught A dream in which her witty charm wouldn't bring the world to harm For see her heart so sweet naive they chose to push it through a sieve We find her now in great exhaust forced in pain so cruelly lost

Erika shad bond hearing to reduce her bail amount but instead the judge changed it to having to pay the full amount of bail. Please share widely. #repost #blacktranslives #bailsupport #donate #support #wematter #bluesky #transtexas

I go through turmeric so quickly, I'm such a FREAK

God gives his greatest potential to his most unambitious of gals just to see what they come up with

Woke up and immediately had to write down more poetry, I'm starting to get scared of my brain a bit low-k...