writing down the amount of places to find me in case this site becomes radioactive + uh game IDs in case thats an option too

drinking enough water to essentially outmatch the many days i drink coffee aka the 2 water bottle to like 1 cup of coffee ratio

it is Time for me to hopefully try to sleep cause i know my dog is gonna make that a difficult task anyways

yes im adding this too cause inevitably despite the problems id have more time trying to write stuff down

kinda glad i just got much of my thoughts out before it was too late since i can easily move the venting back towards the solo server vent channel if need be

man i wish being optimistic to try and offset all the pessimism and jaded view of the world around me wasnt so hard because its the only way not to think about (motions to the depression and anxiety making being awake at nighttime so difficult) everything

every day im perpetually glad i got rid of twitter yet now these days its getting harder not to just jump back to tumblr

life is good when my preferred realm is the only one where i am almost complete with collecting

when the artist neuron hits as you just. stare at the collective purple wheel (bruise on the side of the knee)

headache so bad i end up feeling like god is trying to strike me down yet again for being alive and cringe but free

just in case if things go to shit here, though be forewarned i am dry for one on one convos for the most part

staring at genshin cause of course it takes one (1) character voiced by one of my favorite japanese VAs for me to get motivated enough to play again

literally was just thinking to start exercising soon cause ive been thinking about things and trying to distract myself from all the negative thoughts and insecurities means a lot of options to choose for what to distract myself with

if bsky goes into flames you can find me on discord (by adding me and letting me in my containment area in a server) and tumblr cause truthfully its been a while since i left twitter but gonna be honest, im just exhausted

mfw i have a bruise on my leg and i cant even figure out how it happened

cooking stuff in my head about another oc of mine (i still need to write the doc eventually)

man i truly do hate when immediately i get a headache the moment i step outside only because of the sunlight

halloween on the brain hence the two emojis in the dn

remembering how i cannot look at calyrex without breaking down into a fit of laughter cause of its big ol head

man i didnt want to wake up today not in a negative sense more like in a "i really wish it wasnt so fucking bright in the morning" sense

Ough.

gotta figure out what to theme the layout <(said from the morimens fan with infinite chances)

oh god tomorrows october already

Finally……. peak had appeared to me earlier

now for her light cone cause im not making the mistake of not getting that too

late night thinking my mortal foe on this terrible coil of the earth

think it might be easier in some degree for the major oc stuff to be placed in respective documents and overall ramblings just to be thrown into the ether of my own disc server space and redirected from there cause i figured its easier than the usual method ive stuck to

emerald imperium is finally Complete

when the oc brain cell wakes up but its one of the other ones so you can actually think to write the full doc

also, finally, the last fusion for now

listening to the baroque soundtrack and this fucks a specific way that scratches the brain

my whole body is in pain and my headache from the lack of eating yesterday until dinner just came vack and the biological red tide going on im feeling death

i have recruited james in koudelka now i can rest cause i missed on the first secret item

seriously do wanna play baroque though i just cannot trust myself to figure out saturn emulation because it was already enough to find a working PS1 emulator i can use for the ipad

started to play koudelka and man, that battle system. and sometimes enemies can attack THRICE in one turn

meanwhile as i get ready for saturday with the proper "my dad and i moving his new (standing) desk into the room and moving my shitty futon thats getting a top layer upgrade to where the old desk" saga conclusion

already had the realization point that a lot of my ocs have usually had the themes of recognizing and realizing one's mortality and the finite limit very early on due to a specific point in time as a constant but you know what if it aint broke

caught up to hsr story and i nearly started tearign up Fuck

deeplore is knowing me getting into hakuouki wasnt on my own it was with two (2) friends back then

heisuke time alongside an unexpected arrival

though, and i will be fairly honest at this cause it's a moment of vulnerability and thought: it sure isn't easy to have that in the back of the mind when it also doubles in "i now understand part of why i've been an outcast socially"

for so long i kinda stayed private about specific things i can kind of pick up on, not helped by experience, which also adds into sometimes removing myself from what causes discomfort and this is mostly in general even if it comes at the detriment of kind of being a shut-in for the most part

time to play another file of original FF7 cause i am extremely bored

cant believe harada is finally in fgo and as a welfare which makes it easy for Me

for once, the horses favor me (until i fall over into the pit of dirt)

when your head hurts thanks to the sleeping position youre in and also the fucking flame ball in the sky

my mom got me a new charging cord cause of the ipad moment (somehow the fucking ios26 update fixed it) but man i might just use it more for my phone since it glows

staring at my hands

it be morny, and so far its just "the amount of shit in the garbage cans that have to be taken out"

HE GOT THE GAME