i’m gonna try and actually get better ): i want a happy life for myself deactivated my twt time to leave here officially bye bye

i want to die

i wanna binge so bad ): im so angry and sad and want to die why do i have to feel this way

like i tell you im feeling sad and you just disappear cool dude

i fear i may be entering an episode

idk why im so irritated

like every ffuckingn time we try and spend time together he just knocks out and when we’re both awake it’s like he ign ores my existence now he’s barely responding and he’s probably only gonna call the second i start falling asleep like he always does

orange things i baked today 🍊

he is driving me crazy going to sleep so i don’t crash out on him gn

i should get back into therapy but i feel like im so self aware it won’t do anything 😭😭😭

how to not go crazy over bf for nothing help

“i’m gonna lock in” proceeds to order a big ass meal from jack in the box and leave almost zero crumbs. someone shoot me in the head

i think i’m actually going to kill myself 😭😭😭😭😭

gym day!! ive gained like so much back i hate it but im starting over with everything and im gonna do better this time 💔💔

got like 10k steps in 2day!! + outfit :p

meal prepped a ton of egg bites for my gym sessions coming up !! they’re like ~60cals ~6g protein each :p

going through my photos and i found this pic from when i had beignets with my friend while greening out for the first time at the farmers market and i felt like i was dying (these were so fire tho) had no idea how i got myself home ive never been so scared in my life icl (feat. my phone case :p)

new tea set of mine + a teapot not pictured bc i have to fix my setup ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

how to not sleep all day

still very nervous driving but i’m so excited to have my own car and decorate it that’s been my whole motivation 😭😭 im having headlight lashes and pink interior decor.. i feel super late to getting it but whatever

i could lose like 15-20 lbs before the fall too..i just rlly need to lock in

gym class starting next week !! and i should be finally getting my license and car before the fall WOOOOO

🧁🍦Low-Cal Sweet Food🎂🍨 Recipes and Meals a thread for #lemonwatersky #feathersky #mealspo Fatphobes & Minors DNI ♡/⟲ always appreciated

so so fun ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

my before and after is gonna be wild yall just wait and see..

YAY OK GYM CLASS STARTING SOON!! ((: im gonna work on building muscle and being more comfortable in my body and being more active! i have like a very loose workout plan but im gonna be in these classes for like roughly 7 months so im hyped hehe

someone yell at me to do this essay pls 😭😭

so i’m a liar i weighed myself and ive gained 20 lbs back 😭😭😭😭 ughhhh im fine its ok not the end of the world im not back at my highest at least….. trying to not spiral so bad

i’m not letting myself check my weight i’m just gonna see progress by my clothes and now i feel energy wise !!

had to drop my chemistry class ): gonna retake it n hopefully gonna graduate by next year )): trying rlly hard not to stress eat it’s all i can think about

stressing and very out of it BUT LOOK YALL OMG i got new figures of my girl!! 🌸

been cooped up in the house and finally went out to the aquarium ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ trying to drink more water, but im back on my meds and taking more vitamins so im feeling a lot better than i have been 💗

changed my layout pls don’t forget me 🙏💗

hi guys so i’ve been thinking and im honestly so exhausted feeling the way i do because of this fuck ass disorder- ive attempted half ass recovery before but i really want to just be okay and content with myself for once in my life. probably not gonna post much but pls be safe everyone <3

angry binging on everything in the house #lollovemylife

i feel like i’ve lost so much control over my eating again i hate this so much

i had 4 😭 get me out of here

i want to eat a bunch of granola bars.

blegh i feel so out of it- i had an exam earlier and just wanna see my grades already 😭

mines super sonico !! i don’t like her creators but she’s a cutie and luvs cats and is a biology student like me ☝️ also her music is actually rlly good ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶

my mom has been sick so i made soup for dinner!! ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ i need to get back tracking my cals again i think i’ve gained ): i haven’t been able to weigh myself for a while and it’s stressing me out kms

saw a girl on campus earlier who was so tiny im sickk. 😭😭 i don’t think ive ever seen someone so small ive never been so jealous in my life i feel like a whale

getting a haircut today, new diet plan, doing skincare and painting my nails we are so back i’m so motivated !!! im gonna lock in on school and my weight loss bc i can’t be stuck at this weight any longer or i will cut the fat off my body with scissors

feeling gross but the outfit was cute ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

probably gained a lot i feel so big 😭😭😭😭 once the semester starts im locking in trust ok

my bf is sick and wanted me to read him a bedtime story to help him sleep 🥲🥲 i love him so bad

binge eating still but at least i have a hair appointment soon…

why am i not good enough i just want your attention

i don’t think i’ve ever been so bloated and felt so shit in my entire life good god i’m so fat kill me