heart rate suddenly through the roof and all the blood explodes out of my body onto the walls and floor and you just hear my disembodied ghost murmur 'fuck me' about it

i think what sucks the most is like. even when i am whiteout angry i always make sure theres a gap in the doorway. you can always use the phone. i will never cut that access. and its the other party who declares 'its over'. like. blame me all you want, but i'm not the one who said it.

Please Don't Undress A Doll As You Would Skin An Animal (2022)

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i am bad at cooking and my whole body hurts and im tired and im sad. im going to bake a premade frozen lasagna. save me, frozen lasagna

i lied i bought a $14 piercing kit. so i can stab my plushies.

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I love you. You don't die yet.

friendlily texted to tell me 'don't do anything rash, ok' and im like. what if i bought a $10 body piercing kit and stabbed a bunch of jewelry into stuffed animals and dismembered their bodies and sewed them back together. is that rash. is that coping. or is it... Art™️

i dont want to use words bc my written word is perpetually taken in bad faith

🖍️ exorcism of the teratoma heart

my psych had to reschedule and the nurse on the line asked me "... you work five days a week?" like. i do not have a choice in the matter, i am the only one in my position for the entire hospital system.

thank you co-star astrology for your input

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i dont want to know whats being said about me behind my back unless theres some actual threat to my life. im not saying more than that. leave me out of the triangulation. thank you.

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talking every day made it feel like a little family. but things changed over months and years. it hurts, but there is more outside if i am brave enough to see it.

maid on leash

no tears, i need to lock in and make weird art

i put up insulation for 8 hours and theres still so much work to do

see ya space cat! 🚀 ✦ #oc / #art ✦

not desirable, simply convenient. funny how whether things are good, bad, or indifferent, the result is the same.

raw nerve open wound boulder up a hill forever and ever

i want my home to be a beautiful place , not just bc i live here, but also bc i want people to come see it and enjoy it and make memories here

sometimes you gotta play d&d with dudes you barely know to remember people do actually like spending time with you

you noticed!!

sadness-about-isolation-and-rejection aside it is kindof funny in hindsight like. yes close and lock the door on the kindergartener. maybe the child had bad vibes have you ever thought about that.

i used to sleep on the floor outside a closed door. some day, ill stop darkening your doorway, too.

secret life hack is that if you dont have washers, you can use pop tabs. do you know how many strike plates ive adjusted using monster and red bull tabs?? no. no one does.

channel your inner midwestern middle-aged man today by going shirtless while you hang another curtain rod and use the heat gun on your window films

when youve spent your whole life feeling like you were born the wrong shape for this world , and having it reinforced so many times, it is hard to feel safe anywhere at all. even all alone. i'm still trying though. im still trying because i love you. because i love the world. as much as it hurts.

i keep writing out words and then erasing them, or covering them up. it feels like if you looked at them, the evil curse might reach you too. the miasma.

beautiful ☁️

tomorrow might not happen ! you should say what your heart wants today !

sometimes you just gotta. highlighter vent art. 🖍

object of ___________

i need to find more places to go in my corner of the midwest. using The Apps is abysmal but i like meeting people. i shld treat it like a research project.

applying t gel to shoulders is Fine but i dont have very much shoulder to work with so i just end up with goop sliding around dripping on me everywhere i feel like im turning to slime

thank you so so much !!!

when you live alone and dont have a landlord you can paint the walls and rearrange the furniture however you want whenever you want. and you can cry the whole time and not bother anyone at all.