What the boner looks like from a height.

What fresh hell is this?

I'm watching a guy I know masturbate on a cam site. I'm watching random men saying all sorts of dirty things to him and am enjoying the banter when I see a jar of Albolene and now I'm laughing since Albolene is in my makeup kit, and I don't use it to masturbate with.

Woke up with morning wood so I slapped a ring on it.

Spent the rest of the night nude. Nobody under the game table though.

I don’t know. Is it me?

I don't like to use AI. As someone with intellectual property, I feel that AI is basically theft as it was trained on entire lifetimes of work without permission or compensation. I explained this to an AI evangelist acquaintance of mine. He said, "That's bigotry!" Um, wut? Gurl, bye.

Found my singlet when I was cleaning up and purging. Decided to put it on. Still fits, but a bit tight in the leg.

The last two days have been the worst. I have been blocked on all the paths forward I had planned out when I learned I was being laid off and now I have nothing. Days like today make me so mad I can't just go to a local hospital and get a massive shot of potassium chloride.

Days like today I wonder why I even fucking bother getting up in the morning. I’m hopelessly blocked now from getting health care now that I’m unemployed. Had I the option to just go somewhere and get a lethal injection I’d do it.

Went to Club 541 and was appalled at the vibe. When I would reach out to touch someone they’d recoil and look at me with an EWWWW expression.

Back home. Learned a few things while I was in Palm Springs, some of it not nice. But now I’m home and need to start moving forward.

Couple of new looks I got in Palm Springs.

At Big Deck Energy supporting gay businesses.

Of course I stripped off as soon as I got checked in.

Palm Springs I am in you.

At SDGMC rehearsal. Heading to Palm Springs in the morning!

Had a bad time tonight at karaoke. After I sang, "Las mil y una Noches" by FLANS, this young woman who was drunk as hell tacklehugged me, told me she wanted to be my friend, demanded my phone number and refused to let me go. I was shocked and had to get an assist from my friends to remove her.

At Urban MO’s for karaoke tonight. It’s busy and loud.

Okay, I'm looking at going to Palm Springs on May 19th (Tuesday) then heading home on Friday the 22nd. Looking for suggestions of things to do, and if anyone would like to hang out, I would really enjoy that.

And now post-concert food at Rudford’s.

She played piano.

This place is LIT.

At the P!nk concert. Still deciding on a getaway to Palm Springs.

And that’s it. I’m unemployed. I just need to spend several hours with naked hairy men doing unspeakable things to each other but that won’t happen tonight.

I’m home. One more day until layoff. Wishing I could get a massage.

Debating if I should go to Palm Springs Saturday to assuage myself after my lay off. See if I can get into trouble, maybe?

This is a boner checkpoint 🫵🏼 Let’s see em boys 😈

With my impending layoff I’m considering going to Palm Springs during the week instead of weekend and see if I can hang with friends. Finally talk with some of them.

I’d been afraid to show the most vulnerable part of my life here and only in the last few months started posting my clown photos. Thank you to everyone who liked them and you have my unending gratitude for not perving in my DMs at me.

The orange in my beard is Wolfe FX face paint. Washed out with no staining.

A couple of looks from the convention.

Headed to El Cajon to see my San Diego Gay Men’s Chorus fam. Took this concert off.

Welp. I’m being laid off in three weeks. *sigh* Yet again I’m about to lose everything again. And no one to rage fuck.

Im going to be in Nashville for a clown convention next week 4/27-5/1. If anyone wants to “collab” let me know.

Another week done. Back to 5 am wake up time tomorrow.

Ehh… Feeling so meh today. Don’t want to do anything.

post a pic of yourself, wrong answers only

Just goofing off before my shower.

It’s not all sexytime here. Did some volunteer work for the Marines today.

I’m considering going to massage school. Who wants a daddy rubdown or Santa rubdown?

Haven’t sung this one in ages. Now it’s stuck in my head.

Well. I almost feel dirty eating this.

Slept in my Sara Bareilles shirt and woke up getting head underwater.

With unemployment looming I'm considering things like onlyfans / justforfans but I don't even know where to begin with that. I looked it up but I got too overwhelmed. I frankly don't know what I'm going to do.

Day 2. More coloring. Added the flower in the lower left and started the sunset.

Trying to do something creative every day for 100 days. Day 1: coloring.

I’m debating about going to a clown convention in Nashville at the end of April. Part of me thinks I should. The other part doesn’t want to set foot in the state due to their draconian anti-LGBTQIA laws.

A friend gave me this Pot O’ Gold Scally cap. That red panel is actually bright orange.

Im not above a little thirst trap at bedtime.