Headed to El Cajon to see my San Diego Gay Men’s Chorus fam. Took this concert off.

Welp. I’m being laid off in three weeks. *sigh* Yet again I’m about to lose everything again. And no one to rage fuck.

Im going to be in Nashville for a clown convention next week 4/27-5/1. If anyone wants to “collab” let me know.

Another week done. Back to 5 am wake up time tomorrow.

Ehh… Feeling so meh today. Don’t want to do anything.

post a pic of yourself, wrong answers only

Just goofing off before my shower.

It’s not all sexytime here. Did some volunteer work for the Marines today.

I’m considering going to massage school. Who wants a daddy rubdown or Santa rubdown?

Haven’t sung this one in ages. Now it’s stuck in my head.

Well. I almost feel dirty eating this.

Slept in my Sara Bareilles shirt and woke up getting head underwater.

With unemployment looming I'm considering things like onlyfans / justforfans but I don't even know where to begin with that. I looked it up but I got too overwhelmed. I frankly don't know what I'm going to do.

Day 2. More coloring. Added the flower in the lower left and started the sunset.

Trying to do something creative every day for 100 days. Day 1: coloring.

I’m debating about going to a clown convention in Nashville at the end of April. Part of me thinks I should. The other part doesn’t want to set foot in the state due to their draconian anti-LGBTQIA laws.

A friend gave me this Pot O’ Gold Scally cap. That red panel is actually bright orange.

Im not above a little thirst trap at bedtime.

Fresh haircut.

At Pecs with my housemate. My mood is still shit after 22 TMS visits. I’m so tired of this. Why I can’t go to the hospital and get a simple shot to end this Dumpster fire farce of a life is beyond me.

I love singing “Ave Verum Corpus” by Byrd and the song “Read ‘em and Weep”. Loathe singing “Pink Pony Club” and “Abracadabra” by Lady Gaga. I’m still mildly annoyed I had to learn them.

If you see this, quote a repost of a vampire that isn't Dracula.

Not a fan. I saw a production of “Amelia” in Seattle in 2010 for example and loved the staging but the songs sounded like random notes and was too jarring. But it is a valid form of opera and deserves to be done.

Yes. Been on it for three years and it has stopped working as well so we’re down to TMS. I can’t get psilocybin treatment here and I will not self medicate that.

Nights like tonight make me sad I don’t have close friends here. I really shouldn’t be alone right now but have no one to call.

So I’m left to my own devices tonight. Sadly I can’t be nude at home due to the lady of the house being here and I have no one to fuck. :-(

Ready to have my head pulsed at by a magnet.

Petrichor. I don’t get to smell it much in San Diego as it doesn’t rain often but when it does and I can smell it, I feel so calm.

I’m not kinky so you’re getting a goose egg from me. As for the kinkiest thing I’ve seen is folks who mix 6 kinks in one session. That was wild to see. To describe it would not do it justice.

Snagglepuss.

I would, yes. I can’t right now as I live in a house where my housemates already have three cats and two big dogs. I have nowhere to put a cat of my own.

This was a goofy little concert but fun.

Got a hat while I was here.

First time in over a decade I was able to get into a roller coaster.

At BJs for dinner. Sadly the name does not denote a service they offer.

Who wants dad dick for #fcf?

Since someone asked politely for the nude I hated, here it is! Enjoy.

Fresh out of the shower. Mood is pretty low. Did take a nude but I hated it so I put my underwear on.

I don’t have one. Never have. I do love cats. I was privileged to be a cat dad to a cat that loved me fully for 18 years and it’s been ten years but I still miss her.

Out at Pizza Nova for dinner. Rough mental day for me.

What fresh hell is this?!

Rough question considering where I am right now. Probably reading detective fiction and writing things by hand right now.

Time for a beard trim methinks.

Younger would be to not waste that time. Do all the things. Same age and older I’m not sure. I don’t think I’m in a good enough position right now to think I have advice to give.

Sure do! I wear Irish caps, Scally caps, bowlers and derbies. My clown hat is an orange felt bowler like design with a rolled brim.

Who’s ready for bed?

𝜋 Roughly that, I’d say.

Lettuce, bacon, cheese, sometimes tomato. Pickles are a big nope for me. Dill is way too strong and unpleasant I’m very boring.

Epicaricacy.

Longest hair and beard was 2023.