There's just no call for a response like this. Ever. If you don't like someone's art, that's fine, that's valid. But don't you dare say you're the one who gets to decide what's good art and what's not. Not in this fandom.

A piece for Sil, who wanted a little rainbow shine to their scales! PWYW Comms still open! Shoot me a message to chat!

Bittersweet

Some amazing art by Katz once more. I've started to admit to myself that I really do enjoy being a little more colourful sometimes. Well, pretty even.

Everything went fine yesterday. Ended up not needing the bands in the end. Wasn't fun but at least its all done now.

We should normalise having sex with your friends, just for fun. Sex is about connection and intimacy. Love doesn’t need sex, they are independent values in one’s life so I don’t get why such one should limit yourself.

Errrr. And suddenly, I'm in day surgery on the 1st of December >.>;

In other news, I am a horrible snotty mess still ;.;

I haven't posted in ages, why? Because of depression? Anxiety? Worry? I mean, yes they're all things but no... It was because my post count was 200 and I didn't want to break the nice round number >.< thank you brain.

First therapy appointment done... Nothing said to work on just yet but pointed out how I have clear struggles with dynamics of relationships (friendships etc).... I just finally felt better breaking down and letting out how once I'm not able to give anything, I'm usually just tossed away.

You know what. You win. I'll find a way out of everyone's way for good as soon as I can. I'm sorry I was only worth your time when I could give you things. I hear loud and clear that you don't want me around.

Had my birthday yesterday and spent it inside my head thinking about how I wished I wouldn't hurt people if I just gave up. Guilt keeps me going most of the time. There are moments of love but then I'm reminded that apparently I'm not worth it.

Yeah. A year older today... And it seems like only more bad thoughts in there, despite all the wonderful things in my life. Hopefully.....

What tips that balance? When do you decide that it isn't worth just burning it all down and enjoying the fire?

But at the same time. You're always the one that can never bring yourself to upset anyone else.... That's why you're worthless. And that's why when you slide into that silence you'll never make a sound other than the cries of how could you ever do this to other people....

You're that last one chosen. The last to be noticed. The one that holds up the plateau for others to walk on. Why would you ever be acknowledged? You're not enough for anything. You're always the problem, you're always the needy one. You're always the one you hate.

I wanna believe in myself, but what is there to believe in when you make your life about others? Because you can't see a reason why you have a life?

What do you do when you feel like you can't even fit in, in a world of people who don't fit in? You're not 'right' or 'wrong' enough for them? I've run to the point that I realise, I just don't want to upset anyone, but I wish that it would all 'stop' for me. Forever.

Hey @safety.bsky.app What the hell is wrong with you? Trans people MADE this place. I mean, it’s not like we aren’t used to being used to help build movements and spaces and then discarded when those same things want to become “respectable”, but it hurts every time. You should be ashamed.

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Christ on a bike. I need to do something about the circulation in my fingers because every time I go to the toilet it's like Mr Frosty giving me a handy >.<

Weird question. I know a lot of artists, but does anyone know any clothes designers? There's an outfit I want designing and I need someone who has that skill to help me if possible please? If anyone knows someone can you nudge them my way please?

Jesus Horatio Christ. It's impressive to combine pathetic, disrespectful and cringe into a single screenshot, but they managed it here. Imagine thinking this was the move, at all?

The worst feeling is clinging onto friendships that probably aren’t there any more I get it, people move on. I’ve moved on. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t still hurt

I love too to have the brain that phases out the concept of time

Some nights I stay up cashing in my bad luck, some nights I just call it a draw...

Bit of an older piece but thought it good to pop up in celebration of pride with @washu.driger.gay and Sniffer making guest appearances

Well. Got the official. The docs believe I more than fit the ADHD symptoms.

Saw this and wanted to share it cause it’s 100% true for me!

meditation 🪷

Slipping into feverish dreams for an hour before waking up... Could do without that, but I had one where I finally beast evolved and I was so fucking happy before I woke up....

Would anyone be interested in coming for Tea/Coffee/Drink weekends at mine in the Tavern?

kobolds love spaghetti

Ever so timely

As usual EVRI are a piece of shit. They either don't read road signs and tried to deliver to wrong address or have stolen my £350 parcel saying 'could not deliver'

Major league nightmare got me out of bed. Think my head is trying to come to terms with something big but I'm struggling hard to let go.

Bad brain nights, last couple of nights. Hit a point where I'm going back again over some killed off friendships and wondering where I went wrong. But at the same time can't let go of all the pain that was caused by them honestly not giving a fuck about my feelings.

Made myself an actual afterdark account here - @silafterdark.bsky.social mostly so I don't just post my own dick here in the faces of some who follow....

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sometimes, people aren’t meant to stay in your life, as much as you love them, as much as you want them to. Sometimes the most loving thing you can do is let go and be grateful for the time you shared together, even though there is no future for you.

Library installed in Tavern now

If anyone has any pictures to share they'd be lovely to see. People have asked about donating on Ent's behalf and he had suggested giving to the Christie's Hospital. A page has already been set up to donate to their charity here if anyone had wanted to www.justgiving.com/page/codebun...

Feels about right...

Good bye @lapine.org.uk until we meet again

Finally just bit the bullet and deleted X account. Just depressing myself more. Even here I'm kinda at a loss cos I don't know how to fit in anymore. Oh well.

Over December and January I've lost most mobility and am currently largely confined to a bed with breathing problems and pain. And pending some miracle it's very likely this is going to be the case for my remaining time in this world, which is likely to be counted in weeks now.

Any friends who do want to visit me at home in Manchester get in touch and I'll see what we can do as any company is welcome. You may just have to cope with potentially short sessions and seeing me hooked up to various things. But even if you can't, still know I love every one of you always! <3

So, the dreaded health update! A lot have already been informed or can make a good guess based on recent tweets, but to confirm I am now on The Endgame. The last viable cancer treatment has failed, so movement now is solely towards keeping me as comfortable as possible and able to stay at home.

Happy New Year.... So who's gonna welcome me in with some lewds in dms?