okay who wants to hear about my aches and pains: both wrists, left bicep and deltoid, outer right thigh, inner right knee, both ankles (mild).

not to fall victim to nostalgia but in my heart i am always sitting on that sunny terrace bar in poland with my uni friends, hungover as shit, ripping cigs and drinking coffee for hours on a june morning in 2015.

when i've filled my weekly pill container thing, i've never not once forgotten to take them first thing in the morning. when i slip and let it run out i immediately forget i've ever been on any medication ever.

baked all day at werk, came home, now i'm making danishes bc i have to use up the dough in my freezer before it loses all life. im gonna put lemon curd and lemon cream on them and make an almond crumble to go on the edges :]]

still gotta Be At Work for 3.5 hours. Pisst Off.

work at 5 am...... imagine having an office job where i could roll in at 9 am and have my nails done nicely and also sit down..... wrow.

stop motion animation pisses me off so bad for reasons i cannot articulate

cant stop thinking abt this lemon merangue cake roll thing i keep seeing in the grocery store.... i want her...

seeing pix from the oscars. why is it that no one does their hair anymore. everyone's just hanging there or in a slickback. DO SOMETHING WITH THE HAIR. i am a fashion commentator now.

that ruled but also im feeling DIZZY AS HELL rn i had to weeble wobble my way to the bus

i'm going in for a massage today. i suspect this will be utterly humiliating.

the way to ensure you are alert and refreshed and not falling asleep for the next 6 hours is by brushing your teeth. that'll do it every time.

how is The One Thing that can keep me off my phone and completely engaged.... doing the crossword.

GOATED sunday morning shop. tulips, a hair clip, sun screen, candy, new earbuds, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY.... this god damn curly-edged pasta that i've been searching for for months!!!!! mafaldine!!!! you bitch!!!

sometimes when i walk i feel like im doing it wrong

okay but like genuinely... how does anyone leave the house with their long hair down. how do you stand it....

ive gone back to listen to this like 10 times www.youtube.com/watch?v=5yLS...

ive had a cold for almost two weeks now and my nose is still stuffy !!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!!

FRIYAYYYYYYY PAY DAYYYYYYYY

i have a weird late 6 hour shift today. i am about to waste time like you've never seen before.

i slept like the dead for 9 hours and now im having coffee with oat milk and yog with granola and berries....... sometimes being alive is so worth it.

what ive really Retained from heated rivalry was the very genuine Shock And Awe i felt when they showed ilya's ass in that shower scene. that was Absurd.

ive been off tiktok for a long time now but sometimes i think abt downloading it again bc like.... what am i trying to keep my brain healthy For. why Shouldn't i just rot it. it'd bleak out here!!!

i slept really well last night and i'm Still thinking about getting to go to bed tonight. it's 5:45 am. gonna be a long day for ol ester :]

woke up today with a bright hopeful sense of it being friday. well! no. but whatever. TURDSDAY HERE I COME.

spending the last 10 minutes of my shift in the bathroom hashtag time theft

girl help i still have to be at work for 2 hours when I Dont Want To !! ??? hello???

WEMSDAYYYYYY

my nose is so blocked and stuffy but the decongestive nasal spray says not to use it for more than 5 days. IM TRYING OKAY.... but my sniffs and snores and wheezes....

crazy how literally every day is just a fight against spending money

friday is pay day but i want to buy treats NEOW

do u think it's too late at 31 to get a sister....??

i woke up so deeply Busted that i just made my first ever massage appointment. we cant keep living like this....

MUNDY. i have one (1) day off tomorrow and i have to squeeze out all the frolicking and enjoyment possible from it. i must Plan.

im having a nice day at work by which i mean i have time to take a break and also i dont feel like im being hunted for sport

i have to find a way to also enjoy life on work days but also howwwwwww howwwwwwww im busted and hurting and exhausted after work what would there be to smile about !!!!

work at 6 am on a sunday. yayyyyyy...... but i slept well :] i think :] i dont remember falling asleep tbh.

last night i had a dream that i had a dream that i was late to work. and then i woke up and it was 2 am.

the beautiful spring-like weather is making me optimistic and lighthearted

i'm actually sort of unspeakably mad that of my beautiful 6 days off, like 5 went to being sick. and now it's work again. the whole weekend. OLONE. god. whatever. one day the sun will explode.

sat on my balcony in the sun and had a coffee. love wins.

every time i have to see someone online talk abt whitaker from the pitt like he matters i'm putting off watching season 2 by a week. i'll get around it in approximately 2028 atp

the closest you get to Making Potions as an adult is making salad dressing from whatever is in the fridge

i havent had a fever at all instead my immune system has chosen to Sweat Out whatever bug i caught. DISGUSTING!!!! WHY AM I CONGESTED //AND// DAMP.

took a paracetamol AND an ibuprofen last night, had the craziest night sweats of my life, ate a portion of chicken pasta at 4 am because i woke up starving, went back to sleep, woke up at 7 and now i'm feeling Pretty Good. biohacking....

went grocery shopping and to my aunt's to have lunch but now my head is full of phlegm and misewy again and i must lay down

gonna get normal groceries and be normal outside

why do they make pokemons that arent cute why would i want a busted weird pokemon when i could have mew

good morning im scared to swallow bc rn my throat doesn't hurt and i'm trying to keep it that way. i'm really not built for physical discomfort, i psychologically unravel immediatelly.

the view from my reluctant sick bed.... today a crow holding a fish in its beak landed on the roof edge.. where did it get the fish??? the lake is frozen over???