Got pissed off trying to do a sketch last week so I vented my frustrations through this youtu.be/zUl9fm-_Rck

Being compared to my lazy, alcoholic, transphobic stepfather just now has got to be the most insulting thing I've ever experienced. I've been forced to live around him for over a decade, and people act surprised when they see my temper's been frayed? Do you expect me to bite my tongue for ten years?

If Cairo and the @shoomka.bsky.social Greninja ever met up, this is probably how it would go

Say happy birthday to carnaltwin, everyone

Been sitting on this set of messages for a few days. Guess I'm feeling expendable more than anything. Bud and I are still friends, but it does ache a little to know they so easily give their affection to other people. We weren't all that special after all

Couldn't post all the drawings on one post, so here's the rest

So, here's a funny story. The day after posting the Lucario tutorial, my laptop stops turning on. I then spent the next two weeks waiting for it to be fixed in Toronto. Instead of terrorizing some other creative medium like I intended, I made a bunch of pencil drawings. mfw forced drawing practice 🤠

Gonna take a break from drawing after that ridiculously-long undertaking (seriously, why does it always take me so long to make such simple projects?). Guess I'll find some other creative medium to terrorize in the meantime

<transmission> ░▒▓ In just a few «EASY-TO-FOLLOW» steps, anyone, and I (?) mean ANYONE ✓✓ can ‶learn to draw„ a Lucario !!‼ Click HERE --> {~ [[ youtu.be/BLl40YxGYts ]] ~} <-- to find out HOW! ▓▒░ </transmission>

Who does Bluesky think I am?

CANRALTIWIM AMEN

If nobody got me, I know half-decent sketch emerging after like two hours got me. Can I get an AMEN? 🗣️🗣️

Made a little Valentine's Day card maker. If you have someone special in your life, feel free to use my silly little website to generate them something funny! I don't have anyone special, so I generated you a card (see below :) ) carnaltwin.github.io/valentines/

Managed to finish this up before the new year (in my timezone, anyway). Here's a half-hour video of me overthinking the drawings I've made. Thanks for accompanying me over the course of this year, everyone. It's been rough, but we're still here. youtu.be/JGZ12z9yXfQ

Drew my Lucario character impaling my friend for Christmas

I knew Bird Alone was going to end how it did, but here I am, sitting alone in my room on Christmas Eve, tearing up over losing a fictional parrot. Don't squander the time you have with friends. That shit doesn't grow on trees.

Okay, they're off my chest. You can leave me alone now, Chronic Self-Deprecation Demon

Here's the most recent thing I've finished. After watching Zootopia 2, I got a little inspired and drew these two goobers. I mean, with how hard the movie pushes their relationship, it only makes sense to take it to its extreme, right? Attempted some more complex colouring again. Still needs work

Drew this one at the end of November. Got super lazy with the colouring, but this one was only meant to be practice for the pose. I originally wanted to draw another one to go along with this, but I got lazy. Will probably return to the idea at some point next year. Hi, Sonar!

Made this one for @ircluzar.bsky.social. 'Twas my first time drawing a feminine body type. Definitely more happy with how Violet looks than Cairo. He looks like a frigging rat, and I didn't quite get the pose how I wanted. Still better than I expected it to turn out

Made these in October to practice doing non-flat colouring. I basically just took an airbrush and scribbled until it looked okay. Not the worst things I've drawn, but I'm not sure I like this way of colouring. Will keep experimenting

Two nights in a row without sleep. My brain is hazy enough right now to drop the ego, so I'm gonna post some drawings I've been sitting on

You jerk awake and claw your way out of a pile of latex and rubber scraps, your heart pounding as you gasp greedily for air. The sun peeks between the slats of a boarded up window in the dusty room you've been squatting in since you came to town.

My insecurities have been creeping up on me again. I've also noticed that I've been evading social interaction a bit more than usual. Almost makes you think the two are related, huh?

Been sitting on a few short stories/novellas for a while now. Decided to finally make one public tonight. If you like Pokémon and the concept of making friends, maybe give it a read. Or don't. I'm not your dad. archiveofourown.org/works/746653...

allen falling down the stairs

Took a few days' break from the animation/animatic to draw this. Weird to think it's been exactly six months since I last spoke with J. I wish I had thought of a better conversation topic. I miss you, man.

Past-self owes current-self an apology for making me commit to this animation/animatic. Current-self owes future-self an apology for being stubborn and sticking with it. Future-self is deaf and will commit to another project. I am in debt to myself and inept to everyone else

I accept that I'm in a low point in my life. Maybe I lost friends this year, and maybe I've lost interest in the things that used to bring me joy, and maybe I'm not good at the things I want to be good at, but I can take solace in the fact that I've been given the opportunity to have those feelings

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It's funny how quickly your friends turn on you once you change your Discord profile picture to Chuck from The Angry Birds Movie

We've hit 3 weeks of total sustained pressure. you're doing great. im proud of you. if you havent joined in yet, can you do at least one call a day for me? even starting with just one will continue to help us! let's keep going!

Should've just rotoscoped these stairs. Oh well. At least I'll be able to brag about how everything was drawn by eye when this half-decent animatic/animation project that's taking way too long gets finished

Called Visa for the second time about the whole "forcing the delisting of adult content" thing. They were not happy with me, judging by the tone/volume of their voice. Mastercard, on the other hand, actually seemed pretty happy to hear from me. I was joking with the representative and everything

Slowly but surely working away at this animatic/animation thing. Work is sapping all my energy, but I'm forcing myself to draw through it. Here's some Zangoose I drew while procrastinating on drawing the stuff that actually needs drawing. Some are good, some are bad. You have the right to see them

grumble grumble

I suppose I'll celebrate my victories when I get them. My first week at my new job went by without any hiccups. Everyone there seems to have faith in my ability to do well, despite the fact that I haven't done much yet. This is another expectation I'll have to manage. Don't let it bog me down, me

Perhaps I should simply never talk with any of my friends so that I don't risk losing them by opening my big mouth and saying stuff I immediately regret. ...quite the catch-22, huh?

I think I got so caught up with all the friends I lost this year that I forgot about the really cool people I still have in my life. No way I would've come out of my university-induced slump if it wasn't for all of them. I should stop taking things for granted and be content with my given hand

Time for another carnaltwin failure update. Spent three hours drawing sketch frames for an animation today, only to trash them all because I hated the way they looked. The only progress I made was this frame, and I still hate the way it looks. Another blunder for the collection

The number one thing I'm most insecure about regarding my art is the speed at which I make it—I'm slow as molasses. This directly contradicts with one of the main things I like about art: it encourages you to slow down. I hope this will go away as I get more comfortable with the things I draw

Felt like drawing @kally.bsky.social 's jackalope. Not entirely happy with the pose but it is what it is

I think my life has changed more drastically over these last few months than it has for the past five years. My white knuckles are getting tired, but I believe they'll hold

shout out to this guy for shocking me so bad i came out of my cryptid era

Hey everyone. TL:DR is I'm asking for donations / help with sponsorship tasks since I need to take some time away from streaming due to what feels like an imminent mental health crisis.

Scene from a novella I wrote. I'd like to draw illustrations for each chapter, though I fear I may go insane before then

Looking at other people's art is such a double-edged sword. On the one hand, it gives me the inspiration to want to make cool things. On the other hand, it makes me feel like I'll never even get close to being as good as others, especially seeing the speed at which other people can pump out art

Snapped a few nights ago and spent ninety minutes drawing various snouts to try and understand their shape. I still don't, but it looks kinda cool so here you go. Another proud failure to add to the collection

Another day, another hour spent failing to draw a hand

Cairo decided to test their luck using a new dating app targeted for goo creatures/enthusiasts. He didn't expect to see BOOBS on his feed