ive been stuck on the floor for the past like hour i want to just lay there forever rot away

i feel so numb but in a bad way

oh my god this song started playing and yet again i almost started crying over it its like a poem and its so comforting yet disturbing i love it (also is about struggles with self harm, suicide and institutionalization)

was cutting this morning in the school bathroom and this kid next to me was SOBBING me too bro me too

we pass each other in the halls and she stares at me every time like i did something wrong i was the first one to leave though so i do think she has a reason but i know i did the right thing or at least i hope so

every conversation i have with another person feels so surface level and weak while what we had was so reliant on the other but that was probably also the problem i was almost dependent on her and that wasnt healthy but she made me hurt every time we were apart

reread the one time i broke up with her instead of her breaking up with me and she instantly deflected it as her fault and making herself the victim why do i still miss her though i still get scared every time i see her but i miss her you know i miss having connection with someone like that

i forgot to grab my rings before i left the house to school and now i want to peel my skin off?? comfort objects are wild like that i guess

i feel like none of my friends actually enjoy my company and are only there to pity me and joke about me behind my back the only relationship ive ever had was borderline abusive and from being with her everything ive ever known about other people has been fucked up

i wish i could leave my body for at least a couple minutes just to see what it would look like

bro so many of my saved cutspo / scarspo posts are getting deleteddd <//3

4/4 カゲロウデイズ (kagerou daze) - leo/need シニタイちゃん (miss wanna-die) - すいっち わたしのアール (my r) - wadatakeaki kuragep bit more than 5 songs but these are just my favorites lmao

3/4 self-destructive girl - emiri ship in a bottle - fin sometimes - nick lutsko spoken for - flavor foley those who carried on - ghost and pals trust ceremony - jhariah the u & i in suicide - that handsome devil welcome to lady hell - dirt poor robins you don't even know who i am - underscores

2/4 if i were to die - yonkagor i'm gonna tell my therapist on you - pinkshift jesus on the telephone - machinery of the human heart let down - radiohead like blood from a stone - old gray mind brand - maretu over & over - rio romeo rot for clout - jamie paige

1/4 achilles come down - gang of youths bakenohana - nasiko bullet - hollywood undead circus hop - yonkagor everything falls apart - korn girl anachronism - the dresden dolls girl hell 1999 - femtanyl has anybody seen my will to live? - the tin knees i don't trust you anymore - left at london

aforementioned bruised cuts from last night, just baby styros (that dont even look like styros anymore) cause i hadnt cut in a while (a week or so)

sigh... i have a love hate relationship with how cuts look when they bruise

i dont wanna die but what the fuck else am i supposed to do

i say lol way too much cause the last 3 posts either had lmao or lol at the end of the sentence

one day i'll get to it but for now im gonna stick to being a pussy lmao

getting to beans burns so bad lmao. thats why i dont cut anything past the tiniest of baby beans,, styros are fine anyways. they get the job done lol

WOW i forgot how good this felt lol. i love cutting

blade collection for whoever's interested,, 12 disposable razor blades, 3 of the bigger ones, 5 pencil sharpeners and 2 of those industrial boxcutter blades i only use the boxcutters for opening razors nowadays cause theyre all rusty, mainly dispos for real cutting

sigh. back to cracking open disposable razors ig

i saw this super nice box cutter at home depot that i wanted to buy but it would be weird just coming home with it not having boxes to open

havent been posting cause i havent been cutting but i think im probably gonna start again i miss it so much and i fulfilled my promise anyways, my old cuts are healed or as healed as they're gonna get

rebrand cause i didnt like my pfp pfp from nso manga and banner off of pinterest (pin.it/31MX8vDsU)

“guys”

i wanna start cutting deeper but letting them heal is honestly so gross and annoying....

its nice seeing ppl i dont recognize on slitsky feed… we are slowly growing….

Fall out boy is the only thing from keeping me crashing out rn

bro every time i shower these stupid things (cuts from several weeks ago atp) keep opening back up... thats okay tho ig cause i can see just how deep they were

reposted more stuff ive saved :P

guess my bmi #edsky #edtwt

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