day 285

I've completely lost it. Pen broken while trying to fix the stubbed nib. Even drawing 10+ faces, I completely lost my flow. I literally don't know where to start to draw faces. This is self suicide art block, literally killed my sense of drawing because of poor mental

I'm pretty sure this past month I have some undiagnosed high function anxiety disorder because not only has sleep been hard but I have chronic weakness and the urge to throw up form being so stressed and anxious

day 284 i actually ccannot draw today, i've spent 3 hours trying to do reference studies and nothing is clicking. im actually so annoyed that i can no longer disconnect on weekends or on my off time because of work, is this really what society has built us up to?

day 283 warmup into studies. actually took time to really really really really really try to understand proportions. i spend like 1 hr before going to sleep just scrolling through drawing reels to try to understand more about drawing and proportions.

day 282 not a fan of the asaro head i think this anime head that shows planes may be more useful, perhaps i should use this more as a warm-up but i am slowly deconstructing the ratios and drawing heads with more logic instead of intuition. also realizing i have been drawing the circle wrong

day 281 drawing cute things to destress

atleast... i can see some improvement revisintg old pieces. day 241 -> day 281

I envy those who can commit their lives to art and make it work. Meanwhile barely getting over an hour to practice everyday. Miserable practice at that being infinitely fatigued. How does one even live to do what they want when we live in a fraudulent society

How come there are random bots liking my posts when I use words like depressed and I hate it here. Blue sky....

Stressed. Depressed. All art skills regressed

unfortunately just marking my timeline and this point in my life on blue sky as blog and just a reflection of how fucking depressed i am with life. sorry for the negativity

day 280 i hate it here

day 279

day 278 nina pose finish, want to practice on more full body poses

also what ever this is lmao drew this for a friend, i normally do not draw men.

day 277 been doing a lot of jestures, honestly just scribbling and trying to develop my sense of shape language, form and line of action. honestly didn't think it helped until i tried to draw free hand.

day 276 super busy from work havent had time to draw. decided to go back to fundamentals because i still feel like i passed through a lot of steps without sharpening skills. i am happy with what i can draw now, but i want to do more. also going really crazy on jestures but not posting

day 272 2x since I worked on a bit of rupa's yesterday but didnt post.

day 271 a fast subara sketch for today.

day 270 using my own nina as a ref and to make her girlfriend momoka. i think drawing the fretboard was the hardest part because i had to freehand the strings i might change it up abit, maybe show the head of the guitar

day 269 iseri nina not sure if i want to open up the canvas a bit more or keep this focus on her head . maybe i will draw the other girls and see what i think afterwards

day 268 (i just polished up some perlica stuff the day before but didnt post) Here is some new stuff: nina from girls band cry wip

day 266 spent a lot of time trying to fix up the compositions and the line weights, though it doesnt looke like i did much

i want to colour these in one day... maybe i will try to go back into water colours and make something ...

day 265 I think? i haven't posted much lately because of three reasons: 1. endfield 2. ffxiv ( just cleared the tier) 3. year end at work i have now finished all three so hoping i can draw more in feb

day 261 perlica still wip

And here comes another troph in my progress. I think the biggest paralysis that is stunting my growth are these factors 1 perfectionism 2 which leads to unwillingness to try new things 3 lack of fundamentals

i think this is day 260? ive been mia because of end field. but alas the weekend has ended and my brief hiatus comes to an end. and now i struggle to draw faces again. this was really taxing for my to try, even while using a reference... i need to practice more again perlica endfield

day 255 litterally did nothing but move things around for my reze composition. thought about adding another hand and foreshorten, maybe add a petal to try to symbolize a broken flower/giving a piece of the flower to the viewer, but ended up not feelign the vibe

day 254 when in doubt... draw reze from chainsaw man when you have artist block - still thinking about what i want to do with her left hand, keep it concealed, foreshorten, or make it more expressive to balance the composition.

day 253 sleepy, but did a few edits for some of my old chibis (logos) and finshed my fiametta. i am quite proud of how she turned out (she is my favourite operator from arknights)

day 252 finished mostima, made a whole lemuen, working on fiametta. Something fdoesn't feel right about these chibis. i feel like i can make them cuter, but idk how... I think it has something to do with my line width, for specifically chibi style. if i ever decide to coor these... i'll see

day 251 i told myself i would do chibis only on weekdays because they are less mentally taxing, but i really wanted to draw more of the arknights cast, and also didn't really want to think too hard. so here is surtr and mostima wip

day 250 not much, but added some clothes for logos lol

day 249 logos

day 248 not much time to draw today, but getting the flow of drawing chibis exu alter arknights 1hr (man arknights designs have a lot going on. gotta make exeuctive decisions to omit some design aspects)

day 247 wisadel chibi wip

day 246 chibi arc??? drawing more arknights!!! w might be drawing simpler things/ studies /fundamentals on weekdays if my days start to look a bit more hectic.

day 245 endminister. i was always an avid fan of arknights designs, but now i am feeling how detailed these designs are. belts. layers. more layer, a lot of these folds that may look off are actually part of the design. anyways, 10 more days until endfield.

day 244 endfield/arknights character have so many tiny details to capture, but alas here is angelina... i mean gilberta.

day 243 gilberta/angelina sketch arknights/enfield idk they are just clones lol

day 242 barely an update because im busy, but struggling to figure out what else i want to do with this piece. (its probably done and should be rendered, that of which idk how to do) i added the ribbons, but idk if i may clash with the ring at the back

day 241 arknights sketch before enfield i love laevatain's design but trying to make these dynamic poses with her oddly puffy elbows are messing with my brain!

day 240 more arknights. not surtr. laevetain

day 238 drawing arknights until endfield

day 237 really liked my previous work for yoru, so added a bit in the composition to add more fun. AMERICA

day 236 i just realized i really didnt do much but just draw arrows on this LOL

day 235 kobeni

day 234 #fami #csm