Today, you HAVE to watch a five-hour-long analysis and takedown of transphobia. youtu.be/JiOc0r31-Os

I watched The Substance yesterday and it was a weird ride of dysphoria therapy. I actually feel like in the end this hypersexualized disgusting body horror piece has helped me in some weird way which is not something I can say a lot of modern media. 🤷‍♀️

Today, a man tried to invite me out and after I rejected him, followed me into the parking garage where he tried to force his way into my car. I sped away just in time as he opened the passenger door. What is wrong with these people?

It's disappointing to see the UK Supreme Court's decision, but always remember that no matter how much they try to police our bodies, they will never be able to erase us from reality. Stay strong and make them go down in history as the bigots that they are!

Okay, Okay, I’ll join the Ai toy box trend. 🤷‍♀️

Working in the garden today, lots of dialogue writing on my Surface while enjoying the spring sun. 👩‍💻☀️

Cherry Blossoms in Munich.

Overall, things are looking up lately. ☺️

Got a new neighbour and all I know is there is a pride flag and a blahaj in their window. 🤷‍♀️

Dancing like there’s no tomorrow today. #köllealaaf #carnival2025

I voted! Now it’s time to chill in the sun while we wait for the Doomsday Clock to move closer to Midnight.☀️

It’s election day in Germany and a transphobic old white dude who said “the time of the left is over” and called peaceful protestors of him “out of their mind” is going to win. The far-right #fckafd was just a bait (for now). The #CDU is the real problem. #steigbügelhalter

Trying something new. ☀️

So ready for the 90s to be back.

I‘m so thankful for carnival in my region being so inclusive. And also for this jacket slaying. #kölle #alaaf #carnival

I‘m allowed to speak again since a few days ago. The voice is lower overall than it was before VFS because Botox and fillers are numbing the vocal chords while they are healing. And still, there’s a big difference for sure. Just didn‘t expect it to be on a more resonance level.

Honestly, I feel like both Facebook’s and Twitter‘s communities are now just bad for mental health. It‘s just sociopaths laughing at minorities and thinking they are better than everybody else. Really considering leaving both right now for the sake of my wellbeing. 🤔

I don't know who I know (besides myself) who'd enjoy this video. However, it's too good not to share, so here you go. 😅 www.youtube.com/watch?v=gNty...

Really the only choice this February. Don’t fall for the right-wing propaganda and vote green! #Bundestagswahl2025 #Habeck4Kanzler youtu.be/lrplaY_RR4A?...

Day 5 of not speaking after vfs… starting to dream about saying something by accident.

Back from VFS. Already feel like f-ing up the no speech / no clearing my throat rules. Will be a tougher two weeks than I expected.

This is the obligatory „How I look getting misgendered at Christmas dinner“ post. 💩 See you next year. 🎄

Electrolysis today was exhausting. She told me I had the most difficult hair structure she had ever seen because of curly hairs in between. 🤷‍♀️ Progress is so slow. I’m getting really frustrated.

I became the ultimate cliche of a trans girl on Spiro when I went into the supermarket just to get a glass of pickles and then finished them on the way home.

Literally haven‘t found a single gendered facility in Sweden yet, which is such a breath of fresh air. It‘s not that I don‘t feel comfortable using the women‘s bathroom, more like a general vibe of deconstruction of the binary that feels so progressive. 👍

Got my Christmas nails done just in time for our Early Christmas celebration tomorrow. 🎄🧑‍🎄🎁 I really love how these turned out. My favourite design so far.

My office space is ready for Christmas. 🎄

Worked until 2am last night to finish the ending of my game so I feel like I deserve a hot bubble bath this morning. 🫧😶‍🌫️🫧

Had some leftover wig budget, so I got something a little different. Should I go dark? 😅

Writing the last chapter of a game’s story that I’ve been working on for five years at this point is challenging but also so fulfilling.

I may not have clearly stated this before: Trans Lives Matter. Black Trans Lives Matter. Transmedicalism is bad. Gatekeeping is bad. Trans men are men. Trans women are women. Nonbinary trans people are valid. Gender is not sexuality.

One year out of the closet. I’ve learned a lot, and I’ve grown a lot, but my journey is far from over. 💪

It‘s been six weeks since FFS and I already don’t recognise myself in photos from right before surgery anymore. Crazy how fast the mind can adapt to a changing appearance, although I guess being trans and finally feeling like myself plays a big role in this. Still…🤯🤯🤯

For weight cycling reasons, I ate lots of sweets for the past months, but now it will be difficult to stop that and lose weight again for the next one. 😮‍💨

I got my FFS scheduled for the end of July. This is my biggest dysphoria, so I‘m sure it‘s the right thing to do. Can‘t wait. 🤗

Since my cousin asked me to be myself at her birthday, this Saturday a lot of family members will see me as who I really am for the first time. I’m extremely nervous. I know they’ll be fine but more than that.. I also want them to like the new me. 😬

I woke up from a dream because I was deadnamed by everyone and got instant shame and doubts. How long did it take for your new name being used consistently in your dreams?

I‘m not saying I’m happy with my voice training, but today, for the first time, a service caller asked to get male me on the line instead of asking if that‘s me. 🎉

Went to my dermatologist today because of a skin rash. Just randomly ended up getting the mole on my forehead removed. Now I look like this for two days.

Went to another psychotherapist today, that I have to pay myself. She basically said that if I pay her 130€ per week, I'd get the HRT allowance in five weeks, instead of the six MONTHS I'd need to wait for with the free public system psychotherapists. So I'm starting next week.

Back from my first IPA laser hair removal appointment. Feels exactly like what it is... a thousand electro shocks. Unfortunately she had to leave out a lot more areas this time that were still too tanned, like the whole legs and arms. Damn you, sun.