feels really bad having drawn so much for here and then suddendly just disappearing, my want to draw nsfw usually randomly comes in waves with no clue how long it lasts and how long it takes to come back and i cant really force it either sorry (。_。)

putting this here in the impossible chance someone can help bc this is making me unable to draw ANYTHING and after an extremely bad day with one breakdown i havent recovered from already im straight up rushing into a second one bc i am nothing without art and this is the stupidest way to lose it

while i dont have new art for this place atm ... i did announce i have resumed work on my comic with a new cover art and all ... just putting that here for the moment (wont share the pages itself here, dw, dont want to spam) 🥺

(throws this here and runs)

gonna be annoying one last time with this one bc i did try again despite reaching my 3-7 day expiration date for any painting i attempt after which i lose any motivation to finish it 🥴

i kinda want to apologize yet again, i'll try to keep anythign that isnt nsfw art related away from here, that was the purpose of this account after all there might be no art for a bit though, havent been feeling well for a while and it seems to just get worse, ill try to not be annoying about it 💀

not really the purpose of this account but i feel like putting this wip here anyway (sorry?)- havent properly painted in ages and wanted to give up on this but then still tried to safe it today for some reason, didnt get much further though 😅

running to post this while im at work bc i literally just realized im the fuckign snail from undertale, without encouragement my motivation to keep going will die but with too much i also will bc the pressure got to me im snail, snails undertale oh my fucking god

sorry im rambling so much here, i have started to feel more at home here than my main so i start to talk about whatever goes through my head 🫣

at this point im afraid i wont be finishing all the sketches i have done so far, would be really cool if there was a way to let people vote on some so i could try to get at least the most liked ones done 🥲

how do so many people make so highly rendered pieces so frequently i could hyper focus for 5 hours feeling like im drawing at the speed of light and then look at it and it looks like a 5 minute job OTL

somehow both believing i need to stop scribbeling so many half assed doodles and do more clean colored pieces (bc you deserve it uwu) and im using too much of the little energy i got for this account when theres so many big projects i should/want to work on as well 🫠

( .. started another page of wips 😔) who needs to breathe anyway #spamtenna #deltaruined

(rough wip number 39738) cant get any more on this page 😔(sorry for the mess lol) #spamtenna #deltaruined

(adding yet more wips to the pile ..) past/big shot again bc theres alot to do with them everywhere qwq #spamtenna #deltaruined

(yet more rough wips ..) cant say no to that demand for past/big shot spam u-u (+tenna of course) #spamtenna #deltaruined

hello, this is flopping on tumblr so im shoving into your face here to make up for it 😀

i am so bad with words and conveying what i mean its a miracle anyone even interacts with me tbh 🫣🙃🫠 (grateful, but also scared to fuck it up, always)

and not even half an hour later my mood crashes and burns into 'everythings pointless torture', i wish i was making this up for interaction farming or soemthing but no and you know what triggered it? looking at twitter.

i probably said this before but part of whats so fun to draw nsfw for me right now is that even if i post only a very rough sketch theres at the very least someone that seems excited over it, my art feeling wanted by others does alot to let me power through depression phases thank you 🥺

(rough wip???????) ....the things i post on the internet 🙈 #spamtenna #deltaruined

i ask for suggestions, consider those that i got and think about waht to draw since most are rather vague (not complaining) then i see someone else drawing pregnant tenna and immediately go 'omg ...right .. i can draw that again too!', my brain is like a rat trapped in a cage of wheels man

dare i ask for suggestions on what to draw? (i know i got too much to do but also you know how you sometimes just need to do exactly the thing you dont have on the list of things to do? also its fun to hear what others might be interested in 👀)

extra addition 👁️👁️ #spamtenna #deltaruined

(wip) feel a bit like an idiot not drawing them with their bits out for that template(?) thingy so im doing a version two lol

nothing set in stone here but this was fun to think about- apologies for my hand writing 🫣 (i like the idea that they generally arent very horny but get each other worked up quickly, like a self perpetuated spiral or something😅) #spamtenna #deltaruined (kinda?)

doing those uuh templates(?) for spamton and tenna would be rly fun even just as an overview of how i made them work but i dont even know if there is one for tenna too and i dont rly want to go and edit the one i have seen (respecting the op and all)🫠

(...wip?) i ..uuh .....added more to this sketch page 🫠 #art #spamtenna #deltaruined

stayed up until 3am trying to do more sketches but they are utterly incomprehensible (maybe its better that way lmao) and i dont like them anyway, fucking up my sleep schedule for nothing 🙃 (gonna try again some other time ,, maybe)

(wip?) very very messy doodles with sNEO (mine is still smaller than tenna even like that) ... art didnt like me today though lol #art #spamtenna #deltaruined

my nsfw art gets 5 times the attention than my regular art, what does that say about society 🤔

quoting so you can be as unhinged as you may desire (or not, idk lol) my spamton designs ... yeah

my sneo design is getting way too complicated i am drawing him once and maybe never again like this fndjkvngdkj

sorry if you guys got used to me posting alot, i wanted to participate in a drawing challenge for october and foolishly decided to do a one page comic in a painting style i havent done in years and am on the verge of frustration tears again .. cursed to hate lineart but suck at painting 🙃

...what would i try to animate 🤔 if i did 🙈 (....another thing added to the to-do list .. oh no ...)

its times like these were i am extra sad i cant muster up enough energy to do animation bc even though i have only ever done very few i know i got a really good feeling for it :T

only makign slow progress but these might be the best spamton faces i have ever drawn

(wip?) idk why im putting this here instead of main but uuh .. possible bs spamton and neo design? (late night inspiration hit, with big thanks to you guys qwq)

been feeling super motivated for a few days in a row and today i had to work overtime (with a massive migraine) and now i just feel so dead inside again :T i feel guilty asking but ..maybe anyone wants to tell me what they like most of what i draw? or art suggestions/requests?

before starting to draw 18+ stuff again i didnt know this too could add to my artist-complex tm and now im constantly asking myself "am i doing this right?? is this hot enough? how do i know people find this hot?? is it obvious im just winging it all?? am i telling on myself more than i realize????"

putting the d in dilf- i mean, what? (numbers arent the order, just so its easier to point one out) #spamtenna #deltaruined

PSA (but also im not stopping)

i think i just came out on tumblr as a guy that draws mpreg so we will see how that goes (should i hide out of shame or should i be ashamed id even want to hide)

sorry sorry i am NOT changing the robot + screen body!! i like that concept way too much you cant make me let it go lol i meant like, his head design and overall proportions, i tend to make characters much more bulky than in canon and sometimes it gets out of hand 🫣

(wip) throwing these, actually rough doodles with little to no clean up, at you before crawling away #spamtenna #deltaruined

be aware that i am constantly on the verge of redesigning my tenna design bc i keep feeling like the way i draw him is too far from canon/doesnt look like him anymore, i dont really care about being canon compliant with zelda (demise etc) but with deltarune i dont want to take too many liberties ...

"man i cant keep drawing spamtenna porn i have so many other things i need to work on .." guess what im drawing right now :T

sometimes it dawns on me that 200+ likes on a post means at LEAST as many people have seen it and i just

compensating my lack of fashion sense with colors #spamtenna #deltaruined

would it be annoying if i put my posts from my main to here as well? im currently losign it a little looking at the older rough draft for my zelda comic bc its so much better than i thought and might share some pages over there ..