I wanna have good days at work but I don’t know how to get there.

Today was just a day where I was reflecting on how tough of a year this has been for me work wise and I just need a break.

Came home and made me a nice hot beverage with a lil bit of Irish cream cuz I need it.

I cried at work today and another teacher found me it was horrible. I have a few difficult students and it’s just not worth the mental anguish

So listen there are 2 white teachers, 1 Hispanic & 2 POC teachers NOT BLACK & they all told me that as a grade level they celebrate Thanksgiving by dressing up as Pilgrims & Native Americans & that they would all be dressing up. 🥴🥴🥴 Uhhh am I crazy or is that too close to cultural appropriation?

Texts I get from Trump voters 😐

My home WiFi is out. So here I am. Stressing. I don’t wanna think about work.

Yooo so school pics finally came in and I gave them out but one of my students was upset and said “THIS IS NOT ME” so I looked and did a double take myself and cackled cuz they done RETOUCHED/AIRBRUSHED & PHOTOSHOPPED this lil 4 year olds pic so much she didn’t even recognize herself 😂🤣😂🤣

Bow out of situations that don’t serve you. That’s how you survive at work. Because sometimes it really is JUST A JOB.

So now if things become complicated and I offer solutions to address it in the work leave and it’s not accepted I exit myself out of the equation. I’m no longer leaving my work experience up to everyone else. I do in-fact have the ability to say “I don’t have to and I’m tapping out”.

Because you know what? Ive learned that no matter how good you are at your job you’re never going to be perfect to everyone. You’re never going to be good enough for a lot of people because what they value and what you value don’t always match.

Heard something that people who respect and love themselves leave toxic places and off situations quickly and I think I finally understand that after having such a toxic work life. I didn’t linger on that issue Monday and EXITED myself out QUICK. Before I would have spent days on it. Not this time.

The fact that I was willing to take the bullet for a situation I know that I have every legal right to is CRAZY. I needed to learn to Ignore the call to follow rules and to put myself in situations that are bad for my mental health. I’ve finally put it into practice and I’m glad I did.

If you work in toxic workplace places PLEASE LEARN FROM THAT EXPERIENCE. You were placed there for a reason. God was trying to TEACH YOU SOMETHING. (Sorry to the atheists but I’m a BELIEVER) Coincidences just don’t happen. That’s not a thing. You’re there for a REASON.

At the end of the day the principal apologized to me and said they don’t t have a choice but to go along with it and I said I’ve done too much leg work & you have to talk to them about it and I’m tapping myself out. I feel judged and demeaned. I went against my instinct to just take the bullet.

I tried all day to solve a problem that people kept judging me on even though I WAS IN THE RIGHT. Even my supervisor THE PRINCIPAL told me I was right and to just work it out amongst ourselves. But I felt judged. Demeaned. And so I tapped myself out. Figure it out then. See you Wednesday.

If you feel something is off and you’re being accommodating and no one else is willing to see it that way TAP THE FUCK OUT. It’s just a job. That’s what I learned from working in a toxic workplace. My nature is to be helpful and to solve problems. Now I’ve crated one for everyone else 💁🏾‍♀️

I was not wrong today. And yet that feeling in your stomach that you should just do what everyone else is doing called to me. I shut that shit down. Ignored it. Go against your instincts. Go against your nature. That’s what being in a toxic workplace taught me. Go against my instincts.

If you learn nothing else from toxic workplaces pleas learn that YOU DONT HAVE TO. You don’t have to. You do not have to go along with someone else’s idea, work ethic or work rules. You DON’T. Because you gain nothing from being GOOD. You gain nothing from doing the right thing.

Today I finally put that learnt lesson into practice and I tapped out on something. I tapped myself out of the drama. Because THIS IS JUST A JOB. I started to feel judged. And even though I wasn’t WRONG I felt the pull to just take the bullet. I ignored that and tapped out. 💁🏾‍♀️

Let me tell you something I learned from my last toxic workplace. If you start to feel judged GO AGAINST YOUR INSTINCT. Go against your nature. Go against your character as a person. Go against everything that says you’re doing the right thing. Go against that feeling. That pull.

Please stop teaching your children the N-WORD. In ENGLISH & SPANISH. 😐 Specifically referring to 1-5 years old. Let them stay children as long as they can and out of grown folks business.

Long day today. Another long day on Thursday.

It’s crazy how the universe works in mysterious ways

Jesus be a fence

Ain’t this about a bitch…HA WHEWWWWWW

I’m a person whose social battery runs out. It’s definitely because I’m forced to be social all day at work. So when I get home I love silence. Especially on the weekends. It’s like a reset for me. But folks don’t like it when you tell them your social battery is low. Even tho it’s honest.

I have a temp one for the meantime but I’m hoping there will be holiday deals for a new Bluetooth speaker. Gotta have one. It’s a NECESSITY at this point. And I know I have to invest in one or it’s not worth it.

My Bluetooth speaker is starting to die ☹️ I really need my music playing and I got this one for Christmas years ago. I have a travel JBL one but my home one is a Sony and it was expensive. Now I’ve requested that for Christmas cuz I’ve had it for maybe 6? 7 years? Not sure but it’s great.

Play stupid games and win stupid prizes.

I’m inaccessible to you now and now you don’t have to worry about about what I do and don’t put up on my stories. Congratulations.

All that focusing on what I’m doing now has you BLOCKED, restricted and I’m INACCESSIBLE to you now 😂🤣

Idk why folks think they’re entitled to my well wishes even if it’s innocent. I don’t owe anyone shit. Please mind your business. Worry less about me.

Listen I don’t have to acknowledge anyone else when I use social media. I don’t have to post about you on my FB, I don’t have to share photos of you on my IG. I don’t have to do N E of that. My IG acct is for ME. I post what EYE want to. Had to let folks know that last night.

I’m sick of folks watching me day in and day out in real life and social media. If I kept tabs on everyone around me I’d be rich. People really need to mind their business.

If white people on the left can’t accept that at the end of the day the issue is race, we won’t get through this. We’re on the cusp of the Supreme Court handing segregationists & white nationalists a huge win. And they know it. This is why we lose elections. More than anything, so imagine post-sec2.

Sooo…I come back from my lunch and apparently they found one of students sneaking kiwis from the cooler section of the cafeteria… ☹️ And she only did it cuz she was still hungry. So okay it’s gonna be brought up.

I dont like that the cafeteria staff denied my students food, and it wasn’t just the staff it was the head cafeteria manager…but at the same time the students were fed a meal and no one went hungry…I’m conflicted…

And honestly y’all I don’t even wanna have issues with admin here. I had to deal with that for 3 years and I just NEED A BREAK or I’m on the brink of quitting…not even joking. I just need a YEAR where everything goes semi smoothly & I don’t have issues with admin. I need some peace.

I’m trying to learn what fights to pick and which to let go because not everything is worth it & me fighting for something doesn’t always work out in my favor. I’m not the teacher that’s gonna be threatened every time there’s an issue.

The other issue is they were served the party in the cafeteria in front of the OTHER class and the other class had to witness them being given something different which okay I don’t control BUT the pizza is still a REWARD & not actually their school lunch…

I been at this school for 4 months 🥴 I don’t wanna have to blow up the place but I’m now weighing which fights to start or JUST LET THE SHIT GO because this is just a job. I don’t think it’s right what cafeteria staff did but I don’t have recourse 🥴

First off in the past it was never a question about the students receiving both lunch’s cuz the pizza is a reward. The other issue is one of my students somehow got a hold of a school lunch and the other students saw and that’s why they wanted some..the rest went to go get some and were told NO.

Sooo my students won a pizza party and were served the pizza but were told they’re not allowed to receive the school lunch… Soooo should I blow up the place and go petty or just let it go? 🫠 Because I know for a FACT all students are entitled to a free lunch. This is the petty shit I don’t like.

@angeamene.bsky.social is another with moral clarity

We’ve finally reached the part of the year where I can get under the covers 😍 It’s nice and chilly outside and it’s warm here.

The real issue is when people are already not having a good day and take their anger out on you. That’s honestly what I think happened here. Cuz shopping at Costco is already a TASK but getting into arguments while shopping is a YOU issue. Ima pray for you sir in the meantime GO TO HELL. 💁🏾‍♀️

I already know what it means to be grown. Been grown since I was a TEEN. Ain’t have no family to go back home to. TF??? Talk to me NICE.

And let me be clear I’ve had my own place since I was 21 and been paying my own cell phone bill since I was 18. Talk to me fucking NNNIIIICCCCCEEEE.

There’s shit I simply don’t have patience for. Especially if you don’t pay my bills.