"You don't want to be loved; you want to be chosen." The more I reflect the more I see this in myself.

Want to come over and let me infodump about the historical fiction novel I'm plotting? You can also rail me, I promise.

laying here thinking about writing and still not managing to FUCKING WRITE.

I feel this is no worse a plan than the guy I talked to who said he poured gallium into the machinery at industrial slaughterhouses.

I feel like, realistically speaking, the best possible thing I could do for the world would be to return to full hypersexual femboy mode and go around the headquarters of various American defense contractors seducing all the tech and finance bros for the purposes of social engineering.

cishet Webnovel author, you've promised me submissive men. Your task, on pain of death, is to actually write a submissive man.

I'm young now I'm pretty sure I'll be young forever

War is not meant to be survived. It is not a test by which one's strength or worthiness is evaluated. Abuse is not meant to be survived. Those who find in themselves the will to endure humiliation and indignity are not more deserving of life.

The difference between infodumping and mansplaining is love. Anyone is capable of mansplaining.

Facts and logic. I've got facts and logic. SHUT THE FUCK UP. I'm actually going to cause you physical harm because I have FACTS AND LOGIC. I'm going to beat you with a hammer that has "facts and logic" inscribed on the head so that you know you just got proven wrong with facts and logic.

I think it's worthwhile to learn about NAMBLA and the ILGA as context for how the notion of queerness is perceived. Even once age of consent regulation had been accepted by much of the world, queerness was seen as this other, separate moral system applied only to some other class of persons

Re-watching the movie Her has made me realize how awful "always there for you" is becoming.

I don't know if it's intentional but being a fan of the goth/post-punk band Have A Nice Life made this really funny. thank you

Back when I was presenting fem, one of my favorite activities was to go on various dating apps or forums and solicit men to tell me their take on the trolley problem (in detail). I'd usually then bring up increasingly challenging moral dilemmas if they went along. Don't actually do this please

Trans women pretty. Send post.

I wonder how often anti-sexwork is understood by its proponents to be an extension of anti-work. Genuine question, since it's not a space I've been versed in at all recently.

I once fell into radfem rhetoric, as a guy. FDS, scum manifesto. It's my nature to select for voices that confirm my self loathing, and I had always felt safest around women. Being told that I was fundamentally worthless was comforting in a way. In truth, I've never hated anyone but myself.

It reaffirms the twisted morality of patriarchy, in which those who suffer deserve to suffer.

In writing Great Expectations, Dickens subverted the audience's expectations in the most profound way by making the book fucking suck.

White people talk about how white people talk about white people like they aren't white like they aren't white.

The most problematic part of expecting a "goth mommy" to just show in your life and automatically dedicate herself to you is that black lipstick is a bitch to deal with. There must be some kind of temperate climate somewhere that has ideal conditions for goth makeup

Third wave feminism, as we all know, gave way to synthwave feminism in which M83's sixth studio album was accepted into the feminist literary canon.

Frodo actually gets minimized by the Sean Astin stan, "Sam was the true hero" crowd. The depths of his struggle would be so invisible were it not for the perspective he offers as narrator of the story, and Tolkien gave voice to that inner turmoil earnestly.

I wrote an essay about Marcy Rhientgen a while ago focused on the sorts of comments I saw left on articles reporting on her arrest. It's led me to believe that the base of the American spirit is a kind of nihilism. "People will suffer anyways, so you may as well enjoy it."

Don't remember where I screenshotted this from

Hi, I'm Muffin, and when I remember that I have this account I post some drawings and paintings.

It's weird seeing people describe fictional characters they find sexually attractive as "gooner bait". Like...just say you think they're hot. It's fine. I do it all the time. Watch. Roxie Richter, Krystal Star Fox, Catra, Tifa Lockhart and Lady Dimistrescu are hot. Easy.

Fascist "art" is something that terrifies me. I want to believe in some kind of intrinsic goodness to art, that human creativity is in itself beautiful and worthwhile. But there is an ethics to art. People like Riefenstahl and Streicher were evil for their artistry. Aesthetics must account for this.

I wonder if some TERFs enjoy how misogyny effects trans women, like it's some kind of karmic collective punishment. I wonder since there must be some means by which one decides what's worthy of their attention, who's worthy of their sympathy. People find irony in tragedy like lions from the shadows.

I grew up being told that my thoughts were "too dark." I've learned that was a symptom of my background, in which thinking about "dark" subject matter was a choice. Of course people want to spare themselves the grief of ruminating on injustice.

Behaviors from privilege are often a kind of self preservation, I think. Willfully letting horror into your heart reveals something quite awful. No matter how afraid you are, no matter how taut you stretch your empathy, it will never compare to the horror itself. I don't know what I don't know.

I've come to love myself. I've come to write narratively driven self-insert with Ranni the Witch.

Grinding up feminist literature to make herbal remedies like Europeans did with the mummified corpses of Ancient Egyptian nobility

There are also detrans communities which provide actual support and moderate against tranaphobia. Their voices are essential, especially as things stand now. The system won't spare you for detransitioning. Appeasement will not save you.

The dilemma in assessing the economic value of art is that some forms of art require the movement of enormous capital, while other forms of art can be made by a single individual. They both serve much of the same niche.

The thought of detransitioning first occurred when I realized that, whenever I write self insert, the self isn't a girl. The actual decision involved a lot more than just that, but I find it beautiful that how vulnerable I become through writing was what it took for me to accept that hard truth

Fiction like this sustains me. Queer literature gets it right, the life affirming transformation of grief into vitality.

I think the best design choice with the difficulty in Celeste was the message that said "be proud of your death count." It makes me wonder if a lot of the contention over Silksong's difficulty is more about culture than game design. Regardless, assist mode is a courtesy I wish more games offered

Requim for a Dream is the guard that always lies. Jeanne Dielman is the guard that tells fewer lies.

I just gender bent the "cool girl" monologue from Gone Girl. Holy fuck

Ruminating on the logical implications of monsters coexisting with humans makes it so much hotter actually. No one was making Middle Age friars write about succubi. They came up with that shit on their own

Sometimes I feel like a Japanese salaryman the way I fantasize about a youth that could have been, escaping into self indulgent fiction after a long day of being unemployed

Trainspotting is a movie about sex, heroin is just there too.

Liberal egghead x Conservative barbarian

I've never met a woman whose dating advice has solely the word "gym" as a core tenet.

Second Sentinel is to Hornet some kind of lost innocence, the strength she always weilded but before the faith in her yoke had been broken. Hornet is to Second Sentinel the promise of selfishness, and therefore a kind hope that can actually be fulfilled. They should kiss

The release of Silksong left a waiting for Silksong shaped hole in my heart, a hole which I thought was Silksong shaped but was actually more "having a sense of purpose" shaped

Falling in love with some kind of robot or automaton which has neither lips to kiss nor sex organs with which to feel physical pleasure but that is NOT stopping either of you

Be r/patientgamers. The right morally dubious woman will come along. Work on your emotional intelligence and housekeeping skills.

I got a problem with media, problematic media.