i dont trust anyone who organizes their bookshelves by colour how tf do you FIND anything like that stresses me out

i actually dont agree with wishing death on anyone other than racists, abusers, and pedophiles!

my daily 30 minutes in da sun soaking up vitamin D has gotten my tan start muahaha

feeling bad about having so many words muted on main again 🥀 but i dont wanna unmute them cuz what if i see something that puts my brain in a blender

honk shoooo mimimi

im about to have a panic attack my dad was playing a video of our old church and at first i didnt really connect with what i was listening to and then suddenly i did and immediately my stomach dropped and my chest got tight

im gonna try not to check my weight until the last day of the month im gonna spend this month locking in and hopefully it wont be too much of a hit to take at the end of the month

okay my mom kinda drives me mad because she always complains about her weight and how she wants to lose weight blah blah blah but EVERY single time i ask if she wants to go to the gym with me she says no like she just doesnt even put any effort in

im still thinking about him

lmao i put on so much weight im gonna kms

does he know he exists

LOOK AT THEM I LOVE THEM

so what if i killed myself instead

okay messages sent to my friend im genuinely experience physical distress my heart hurts i have a migraine i need to pee fawk

have to message my friend tomorrow im literally shaking at the thought

i have been spending so much money lately i hate it sm

the anxiety demon is back

i cant even begin to explain how much the anxiety is killing me over my friend right now im trying to tell myself not to worry about it until i message her back but fuck i just feel sick to my stomach

i dont know what to do with myself honestly i might just get into bed and watch spyxfamily

i had to check and FUCK she hasnt blocked me she hasnt even unfriended me

discord being down in a god sent now i dont even have to worry about messaging her

the guilt tripping and like borderline gaslighting and mental and emotional abuse has really done a number on me if im being honest

how does one even get over anxiety over messaging someone like im anxious not messaging and im anxious messaging but im anxious not messaging because when i do message its going to be bad for me

i had a dream that my dad (although it wasnt like my ACTUAL dad) cheated on my mom and then she took my sidter and i am some random women who i guess were her friends for shots at like the dingiest brothel almost? it was really fucking weird i felt in danger

i can literally just not look at my phone

im 25. this is the internet. i have no obligation to respond to someone who does nothing but make me miserable. there is no physical threat to me. ive survived far more difficult things than this. im 25 years old. im too old for this to be affecting me this badly.

i still feel so sick to my stomach over this whole thing i hope that she's blocked me because the idea of actually going back to our dms makes me feel SICK i can't talk to her anymore but im too afraid to be the one to block

reminding myself that not everybody has so much hatred and violence for me 🌷

finding my inner peace.... i muted and closed the dm.... dear god please make her block me thank you

you ever have a friend so bad that you just

is being honest the way to go i dont even know

i am shaking so bad

welcome to my altpriv new altprivoomfs LMAO hope you enjoy your stay

fighting tooth and nail with deus right now BOY BE CALM

no yknow what actually the solution is to drink thats the solution

im going to end my shit

I SAW SOMETHING, YOU'RE ANGRY I DON'T SAY SOMETHING, YOU'RE ANGRY I CAN'T EVEN BREATHE WITHOUT YOU BEING ANGRY

AAAAARGGHHH AAAAAA AAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAA AAA AAAAAA KILL MEEEEEE JUST KILL MEEEEEEEEEE

ignore this im trying to see smth

hey so playing trauma olympics is such a red flag and also you suck as a person if you do that shit

i feel so awful right now i just have this massive sense of impending doom i feel like ive done something wrong

i feel so sick with anxiety at the thought of messaging this person i know shes gonna get mad at me if i dont but shes going to get mad if i do because im gonna say the wrong thing i always say the wrong thing

fuck whatever i never want to talk to them ever again im gonna kms actually

for the record turning your friend into your therapist ESPECIALLY when they arent mentally in a place to play therapist WILL ruin a friendship

i dont deserve friends i should just be alone forever

my legs hurt so so so bad and i need to take out my contacts and i think i need to eat something but i cant move

im irritable and in pain and feel sick and dizzy and talking to this person makes me want to kms

"i feel like our friendship is falling apart" CUZ YOU ARE IMPOSSIBLE TO TALK TOOOOOO OH MY GODDDD TALKING TO YOU IS LIKE TORTURE YOU SELFISH CUNT

critically low levels of empathy rn

can you guess who my favourite characters are