Black Clover

Still, it was a fun Halloween. And I just put the accessibility button on here. Which gives me at least another couple weeks on my phone’s life. Hopefully. 🤔

Guess who broke the Home button on their phone tonight? And whose friends proceeded to play him about having a Home button on their phone at all?

Stan Lee did his big one with them. And it’s why so many of the XMen stories resonated with me.

It’s crazy how relevant XMen continues to be so many decades later. A powerful regime within the government identifies and seeks to eradicate a specific demographic in the population. By jailing and eliminating them based on their perceived threat. How could you not stan?

The iconic X-Men: The Animated Series premiered on Fox Kids this day (Oct. 31) in 1992 with "Night of the Sentinel, Part One." After saving a young mutant from a Sentinel, the X-Men uncover a secret plot to identify, jail, and eradicate all mutants! #XMenTAS #XMen92 #XMen97 #XMen

Why don’t you just scream and shout it?! 👻 👻

This album has NEVER left my rotation. A classic. 💿

Always ♥️ #BlackGaySky

And this is how that’s going to go.

1024 Avon Ave SW, Atlanta, GA

Good news. To cleanse the timeline. youtu.be/s5zlAmLnXjM?...

But if I’m really in the market for some matching pajamas I can’t let mediocre conversation and great dick win the day. Pray for me saints. A bitch gotta be strong. And go after connection instead of just company.

I think dating multiple people really does give me perspective sometimes. Because it reminds me of what it could be. Instead of what’s on offer from a single entity and just making my peace with that.

In other news, I think I’m gonna finally fall back from this Jamaican. He’s cute, but he really just likes the convenience of having me around. Meanwhile, this other boy and I are legit nerds who can chat about new things every day. And he ain’t tryna get in my pants.

Anyway, here’s some pics of my pump from the gym today. (Excuse the stupid face on the left. Someone was about to walk thru my self-timer)

How do I retrain my brain when every time I come back on it’s the same thing?

Are we desensitized towards hot people if we see them all the time?

I’m a hypocrite and I’m back in Instagram. Addicted to the dopamine. Wanted to delete. Spent an hour on there already. Might have to just figure out another way to passively consume hot boys and gay couples online. Or maybe, not gorge my sight on the constant eye candy. 🤔

Reminding myself that I don't need to buy Pokemon Legends: Z-A until I finish beating all the other new games I have. Speaking of which, let me play some of this Republic Commando tonight.

Omg. One of my little cousins is doing theatre now. And he just FaceTimed me to tell me about how he is playing Hermes in his school production of Hadestown. Adorable. I love it. All my children are growing up so fast. Or maybe I'm just getting old. 😅

Water.

I’m working at this one location today where it’s always super slow. And I’ll take the money because Capitalism. But when there’s nothing to do, it always makes the day feel longer. I be legit trying to invent work for myself to do. 😩

“It is necessary to constantly remind ourselves that we are not an abomination.” - Marlon Riggs

Queers need time to reconcile it within ourselves before sharing with the world.

The funniest thing about being queer growing up is the way that you’ve convinced yourself that you’re hiding it well. And don’t get me wrong some do. But those closest to you always know. Some people just wait until you’re ready. And honestly, those folks are a blessing.

But come to think of it, one of my best friends in school had been hinting that I could come out to him since I was a sophomore. He told me later that he found gay porn on my computer when I let him borrow it for class.

Gay BlackSky: how old were you when you came out and how old are you now? I was 20 when I came out in 2008. (Junior year of college) I’m 38 now. My friends were cool with it bc some of them already suspected.

After a 14 hour shift yesterday, I came home and my body only slept for like 4 hours because the sun was up. I went to the bathroom. Put on my eye mask and ambient sounds and got another 4 hours sleep. Now in ready for the day. Meanwhile, it’s almost over.

Being truly seen and able to be your full self without apology or fear of judgment. Creating a world with you and another person.

But I'm over it with these promoters being like we need to download an app to get in to the event. Girl! Give me a scannable ticket and leave me tf alone.

Look at me forgetting I got these tickets for Zesty World. Black queers, come out on Halloween. I need a kii.

Been super horny lately. Just realized the last time I had sex was a month and a half ago. And jerking off ain't cutting it no more. Smh. This is the problem of trying to date with intention and having needs. Somewhere along the line things can get blurry.

Got some good sleep and I’m up before my alarm. Can’t decide if I’m gonna just keep scrolling or get up and start my day. I think I’ll keep scrolling. lol

TL sleep?

Bernie Sanders is a joke. I can't believe I ever supported him. Smh. This why people be completely disillusioned of the Democratic Party. And even the ones that say they're not aligned will gaslight us all. Fuck him. I'm over it.

Okay, finna go downtown and see if I can find a cute cheap costume at Spirit Halloween. Wish me luck.

Some of the brothers in my Fraternity are arguing in favor of Andrew Cuomo and why they support him because the sexual assault charges were dropped and I just… hate straight men so much sometimes. No one hates women more than them.

I saw one that looks pretty good. But I’m not sure if the promoters are West Indian. I’m not testing to get there and their asses are playing soca all night. Deadass.

Also, I’m back on IG for a few days. And it’s so addictive I know I’m going to have to delete again soon, but I’m trying to find a Halloween party in NYC. Preferably Black and gay.

I had accepted this gig on the app to work this morning, but I really needed to make up for this sleep deficit. Cancelled like an hour later. Got 6.5 hours of sleep. Legit would have only gotten like maybe 3 hours tops if I worked. So proud of me. This was necessary. Might even go back to sleep.

Why would every Black gay promoter be doing their Halloween party this week on Saturday when I have to work?!?! Halloween is literally next week! And it’s on a goddamn FRIDAY!!! Just wait! I BEG OF YOU!

Misty Copeland took her final bow as an American Ballet Theatre principal dancer on Wednesday, a role she's had for the past 10 years.

Trying to fall asleep at a decent hour and my body is still reluctant, like we don’t have the most important callback of my life tomorrow. Bro please. 🙏🏾

That morning lean hits different.

I might show yall the screen captures of that whole interaction tomorrow. It was wild. But let me take my ass to sleep. I have to be to work at 6 am.

I also, just remembered that the Brazilian boy I dated for a month last year on the ship hit me up on Facebook. Talking about her wanna get back together. Chile, he cheated on me and I left. Folk are crazy in these streets.

I wish him well on his journey, but I don’t need to talk to him again for a while. He just being contrarian and saying any ole foolishness.

And then he said that’s avoidant attachment style to not at least have a conversation about why he was unmatched. I explained that that’s actually secure attachment because you’re not justifying & explaining every small decision to other people. Chile, even smart folk just be talking sometimes.