hi, I just wanted to post to say I'm alive. I stopped posting because of the UK age verification bullshit. I'm of age, but I don't want to give my ID to every random company who asks. I still struggle with self harm but I'm getting better every day. if this is my last post assume I'm doing better :3

it's one of those "text your abusive ex while drunk" kinda nights. doing my best to avoid getting drunk for this reason. I'm gonna cut though. like it's already decided in my mind

I think the worst part of breaking the clean streak is that I lost my pain tolerance and so I was only able to do tiny little cat scratches. imagine doing so well for so long and then finally breaking down by grazing yourself from falling over

need to start vagueposting about doing it for real and make people extremely concerned for my wellbeing

I made it 53 days without cutting ;u; pretty good streak. and I fucked it up.

hi chat!! sorry I've been absent for like a month, I'm actually clean atm! I'm trying to be proud of myself but I'm emotionally falling apart and I'm so tempted to cut again. see you soon probably!!!

"u need help" yeah i need help getting more scars :3 could u take a pic as my blood runs down my boobs hehe :333 i'd let u lick it

i love when my friends come over & cut my forearms with razor blades hhh m_ mew >//w//< djskdjdjs ;;;

scar collection, since they're all mostly healed atm #sh #shtwt #shsky #scarspo

wow it's been almost 3 weeks since I cut I'm so proud of myself the bar... is very low.

I've been so healthy the last couple days and not even felt like cutting myself! ^_^ however I have done precisely nothing to look after myself and am fundamentally still rotting in my room all day

feeling especially weak and vulnerable today. I feel like a failure of a girl, and like I deserve any harm that comes my way. I can't even sleep through it because family is over and they won't let me rot in peace. just all in all a terrible day. #vent

pretty paw print 🐾 #sh #selfharm #shtwt

a couple minors did not heed the warning in my bio, and have been dealt with accordingly let y'all mfs know: I DO check who likes my posts. you're not safe

"we have first aid at home!" first aid at home: - literally just a clean flannel tied in place by some old thigh highs - #sh #selfharm #shtwt #shsky

doing all the damage to myself that people I used to trust wish they could do themselves #sh #selfharm #shtwt #shsky need to figure out which hashtags are shadowbanned now. but I'm pretty sure these are safe

spiralling again. how many times has it been now? anyway. sh pics soon probably. I doubt I'll stay clean much longer

In the Presence of a Living God (2024)

I high key look better with holes in my body

it's been 12 days and these are still pretty angry. they're no longer excruciating. at some point there was like internal bruising or something that was super nasty. they look bad though. not even gonna scar nicely #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

I love being an independent adult I'm so prepared to tackle life and can fall asleep without having a mental breakdown and thinking about killing myself for real. I definitely do not feel like I need to be sent to an institution

I think something that my loved ones forget is that if I'm in a terrible enough mood to consider or attempt to kill myself then I am Not thinking of you. My entire brain is filled with overwhelming despair and only wants a way out. I'd miss you for sure but not right then in that moment. I gotta go

I'm sorry to my gf whom I love dearly but I would hope that if I did kill myself she would understand that it was what I wanted more than anything else

everything sucks and my mind is not a nice place to exist forever and I want to tear my soul from my body and abandon everything

I wanna dieeeeee I want my life to be over I wanna stop living I. Want. To. Dieeeeeee

why is shsky so full of minors? there are adults who sh too, where's the representation? am I supposed to have grown out of this or something? because that's the impression I get

for anyone wondering how these are healing... day 0, day 1, day 2, day 3. they sting a lot today, it's very owwies. I hate myself for doing this but I hate my parents too #vent #sh #shsky #shbunny

parents have been arguing and yelling and I didn't know how to cope... these are not gonna look pretty when they're healed... #vent #sh #shsky

forgot to post this one whoops paint the drain in harsh bright red, learn to love what makes you end #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

Here I will live forever, Buried within a casket of walls, floor and ceiling, Bound by an obligation I cannot fulfil; To be something I can never be, To live a life I cannot bear to live. (1/4) #vent #poetry

thinking about how all I have to look forward to is the announcement of some video games I might not even like tomorrow... I might actually do it tonight. what's the fucking point of me being here anyway

I'm not posting as often here now but I'm still self harming every few days. my life is just in a constant state of suffering with no visible endpoint. I try to write vent poetry about it but I'm out of ideas. I just feel incapable of living. not even like I've tried. I can't even do that. #vent

I hate feeling so vain but 0 likes on either post from yesterday is crazy to me. not a single person was interested, really? or am I shadowbanned now or smth

wanted to make a mess, but not on the carpet. ngl I think next time I'll just cut over the sink like everyone else #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

various pics from tonight #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

are you fucking serious. we're using this piece of shit to cut our food??? I could genuinely make my fingernail sharper than this

I'm still here. I'm still suffering. Suicidal ideation is at its peak. I will never be okay.

ughhh why do my blades have to be dullllll I want to cut. this is not fair

really need some new blades because I was really trying to cause damage with these 2. just no sharpness left #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

#sh #shsky if anyone 18+ wants a mutual vent session, wants to share their cuts or whatever DM me. I could use a vent buddy. or at least some encouragement to cut deeper and get it over with already

I don't know why I recorded this. I really don't know what's wrong with me. some very morbid fascination, or severe mental health issues. #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

been a rough few days. I'm not coping well. 3rd day in a row. #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

hi sorry I've been gone so long. it's not that I stopped cutting I just forgot this account existed lol I'm very not okay. life has sucked the joy out of my body and I'm ready for everything to end #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

if you get blocked by me it's either because you're underage or you post stuff that makes my stomach turn. sorry that you don't get to see my stuff but this is my little corner of the internet that I tailor to my own likes

okay, update, bleeding finally stopped after over an hour, I have closed up the wound and I can finally admire how cute these are this, thigh highs, a short skirt and a garter belt <3 #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

other assorted images from tonight while I apply pressure to The Big One™️ #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

I went deeper than I meant tooooo aaaaaaaa actual CW for this one!! it's a video and it has actual blood pooling in an open wound #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo

I don't check this account too often since it's clearly my alt and not my main. but it always makes me happy when I come back to like 30 notifications. thank you for giving me even a second of your time <3

learning to love my body. #sh #shtwt #shsky #shbsky #shbunny #slitsky #cutspo #scarspo