Sure feels like week to week all that's changing is what is making me feel overwhelmed and without any time to do anything. I mean a lot of people feel that way with work but I'm not even getting paid... since I'm even more interview-able but not hireable than ever apparently.

Do you ever walk into a toilet, immediately flush it and think 'how is that so difficult for some people?'

Oh man how'd I forget to post about going to see Drowning Pool on here? A 15 year waited ended. I did get quite emotional. Signed poster from the merch table and the bassist's pick acquired... no idea who he was like, wasn't my mate Stevie, but two gigs in a row coming away with a pick

Well between no news on last week's interviews and finally giving up on my meta accounts, I'm certainly feeling a bit frustrated and unmotivated today

Didn't need to worry about that, not heard back from anyone.

Follow up, this account's re-appeal was rejected and so was the account I wanted to regain access to the most. As expected. I am officially done with meta, how liberating

Got an email from Instagram saying they had accepted my appeal on one of my accounts and restored it! Got an email from instagram saying they'd disabled the same account again

Fourth and final (one way or another) attempt at getting my Meta accounts back. God what a chore. And having to pay for the pleasure. At least this agent seemed like she knew what she was doing. Only really want old ideas I foolishly stored on an instagram. Outside of that, honestly fuck em 😂

Recently messaged an old college music buddy about some ideas he sent over to me that I forgot about Pros: - It wasn't 2.5 years ago he messaged me, it was only 2. - I had messaged him Feb '24 about it which I also forgot I did.. Cons: Still very not good

A nicer problem to have and certainly not something I'm used to but I'm actually getting so many job interviews it's making me a bit anxious 😅 I live in fear of having multiple job options

Decided to go as Wayne Static this halloween,you know? #waynestatic #staticx

When the police post on Facebook looking for a criminal or even someone missing, it's always 'they have links to x location and x location'. I have links to nowhere man, I'd be easy to find. 'Has links to his own bed'

I made this video with a logical if a bit loose plan in mind. Since then, I've continued my usual spiral of flitting between unrelated ideas. I even started a vlog talking about this which I haven't finished because I haven't been interested enough to film the ideas I was torn between at that time

First job interview in over 2 years done. Maybe it was the phone call nature of it but I was more nervous than I expected to be when it came to it but all good. Here's hoping it's a good one.

Went to Andy's Man Club for the first time in a while as this week marked 3 years since I first went. None of the interactions that rubbed me the wrong way in my last few visits but I did have some of my irrational anxiety where I think people aren't interested... though less than I expected.

Here was me thinking my partner's brother had just grown to dislike me over time, had no idea he didn't like me because of my career prospects of which he knew nothing 🤔

5 years ago today, I made this excellent promotional meme linktr.ee/bendring

Absolutely overjoyed for my beloved having her work featured in an Etsy advert 🥹 Moreso need to do something for her to be proud of now 😬

Excitedly went out in my little car to pick my mam up from work after a productive day, planning to continue my good work when we got home. 2 hours in traffic. Didn't even get her in the end, she got a taxi.

On Tidal, it's even more visible that distributors and music services need to better separate artists that have used the same name. Like if they're not from the same uploader, maybe don't put them on the same artist page. And you shouldn't even be able to pick the same name as big artists like Rush

At a gig tonight there was a young girl, clearly very anxious, possible LDs, determined to be there and have a good time. I was determined to get her something from the band. I did eventually get a pick but they'd left immediately, as you would. Feels worse that I actually managed to get something

It's gone terribly so far. You never know, maybe one day I will get an email saying they've fixed it but I've never doubted anything more. Might as well settle in for the long haul, this is the new main home for my music.

Finally caved and paid for meta verified to access support for my accounts that were disabled by automated systems. Funnily enough but to the surprise of no one, it's not gone well so far.

Not sure I've ever promoted my soundcloud(s) on here. This is my main one featuring my self-titled tunes. Hoping to sneak some new demos on both soon. #synthpop #electropop #electronicmusic #indiemusic #indiemusician soundcloud.com/bendring

As a big advocate of mental health support, it's so great to see mental health messages like this in places like the gents toilets linktr.ee/bendring

+++ Depeche Mode released their debut album, 'Speak & Spell', on this day, the 5th of October 1981. +++ It was the bands only album to feature Vince Clarke! #depechemode #otd #synth #synthpop #muterecords

Has @xbox.com caved on the ridiculous Game Pass Ultimate price hike already yet? I'm not paying £22.99 a month for anything 😂

Do you need verification just to check chats now or have I just been messaged by a porn bot? 😅

Wehey another music channel video! Today, I'm talking why I stopped my indie radio podcast way back. Sure, none of y'all ever heard of it but you still might be kind enough to check out the channel youtu.be/wpzLwbFXbjA?...

Job application officially sent for local vinyl pressing plant. Wish me luck.

I don't really watch things on tiktok but even just from the videos that pop up when you first load the app, I find myself hiding so much content. The 'I found this content' button needs a 'maddening' option that hides all from that creator forever

I don't know I'm getting sales, a lot of content made, I'm working on music maybe once a month rather than once every 2 years, it's been a while without driving incident so I think I'm just at my base level of regular anxiety now for that. Sometimes it feels like I might actually turn a corner.

Taking submissions for Untidy Radio - an online station that will feature no monetisation or adverts. Music should be in MP3 format. I am also accepting soundbites if you have them, promoting new releases or projects and podcasts/clips. forms.gle/ETNnGyeyKVkg...

Went into town to buy a case for my new phone (since the one I ordered on Amazon was falsely advertised) and Borderlands 4. 4 phone shops, no case. 3 game shops, eventually found it for £5 more 🥲

Had a dream last night that I thought of a good, introspective debut album title. I absolutely don't need more album title ideas but let's see how long I spend this evening trying to remember it. I mean it was a dream idea so for all I know it was 'milk bread' or something

Not one of my usual office dogs... not even my usual office in fact but a more than welcome afternoon of work nonetheless

On my youtube channel, I plan to answer a few questions that no one is asking. Firstly, what am I planning to do next? No one wants to know and I have all the answers! youtu.be/Exy2DyG2JFw?...

I've not contacted a lot of shows by any means but over the last few weeks I've been sending out tracks to some online radio sites I've used before and haven't had a reply from any of them 😅 surely they can't all have gone under while I haven't been sending stuff out

I dunno, Microsoft Rewards... I've definitely known it to do all three 🤔

Another birthday down. One where I actually thought of something to do for once so that's good. Still too many birthdays having passed with no musical output but ho hum at least we have stuff in the pipeline this time

Well I fell off with the music channel videos. In fact, it's taken me a month to remember to put this one out and it's another football shirt video... done now though #manchestercity #mancity #footballshirts #soccershirts #soccerjerseys #footballjerseys youtu.be/5qp6mji7xQQ

Ten years ago yesterday, some of my mates including my producer and collaborator L.A. Trewick, released the self-titled Nene demo. I keep telling him he should revisit it but I don't think he's convinced. neneband.bandcamp.com/album/nene-d...

Aw no, have I not uploaded for a while? It's almost as if no one in my town can actually get played on it 🤨

Had a dream last night that I logged on to a social to see someone sharing one of my Tiger Driver albums, lauding it as a brilliant piece of ambient demo work. *Sigh* A man can dream though...

Darren Wilde has been so kind as to feature Coming Home on Nova Radio North East this evening! I forgot to share before the show went on, my bad I'm out of practise, but you can still check out the replay of the show however here: ondemand.novaradio.co.uk/od/DarrenWil...

I met with my producer to discuss what direction to go in after 'Never Coming Back'. We're sticking with the rock vein the track is in, since none of that stuff has had a chance to play out yet. The EP we were looking to do after 'Coming Home' back in late 2022 also fits it, so it makes sense.

If I thought a couple months were bad, imagine how I would've felt if I knew the album wouldn't be finished 5 years later 🫣 You can listen to what exists here tho on.soundcloud.com/nDYDhqBLq6mC... #ambience #ambientmusic #electronica #noisemusic

You know edgey, hard headed metal fans have to critique Phil Labonte and All That Remains for having emotions but I just noticed the line 'I don't love me enough to let you go' and I have a lot of historic relate in that

Dang I forgot to ever share my fourth single on here... and how were the others five months ago? 🤯 this is 'Coming Home', the first of my ambient tracks to be turned into a full track #indiemusic #indiemusicians #synthpop #electropop #electronicmusic youtu.be/ImcYE-EVTbY?...

(My producer/collaborator has received my next track concept and is gonna look to start demo recordings tomorrow)