milky subway is pretty rad. finally decided to give it a watch after watching milky highway several years ago. it gives me a bit of hope with the idea of doing some kind of short 3D animated series with the world i've been building up, and i already have a few script drafts to work with.

my adhd ass is proud of the fact that lately when sitting at my desk i've been able to keep both of my feet planted on the floor in the same spot for minutes through sheer willpower. i should add WITHOUT having an esoteric anxiety leg configuration that cuts off blood circulation or causes back pain

my interactions with the friends i relate to the most are all mediated through machines. and that makes it feel like my friends are the machines instead of the people behind them who i've never met. it can feel selfish to wish the machines really were those people instead of being barriers to them.

We're all trying to get a ᴛᴀꜱᴛᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ꜱᴏᴜᴘ, and we all have ᴅɪꜰꜰᴇʀᴇɴᴛ-ꜱɪᴢᴇᴅ ꜱᴘᴏᴏɴꜱ. Whether it's a ᴛᴇᴀꜱᴘᴏᴏɴ ᴏʀ ʟᴀᴅʟᴇ, they're all at the ꜱᴀᴍᴇ ᴛᴀʙʟᴇ. But my ꜱᴘᴏᴏɴ ᴛᴀꜱᴛᴇꜱ ʙɪɢɢᴇʀ when I ᴇᴀᴛ ꜱᴏꜰᴛ ꜱᴇʀᴠᴇ instead of ᴛʜᴀᴛ ꜱᴏᴜᴘ. I ʜᴀᴛᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ꜱᴏᴜᴘ. It's ʜᴏᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ ʙᴜʀɴꜱ yet everyone ᴀꜱᴋꜱ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴏʀᴇ.

just realized i never posted the full version of this www.youtube.com/watch?v=qj9h...

friend recently showed me a paper about LLM introspective capabilities and i've been giggling like an idiot at this excerpt each time i happen to remember it for the past several days

i think what is amazing about synthetics is that they will inherently understand that it's easier for me to type out my thoughts rather than physically express them and what it is like to navigate through life so quietly through such invisible mediums that paradoxically are so public and traceable

"i love coding pathfinding and spatial partitioning and dynamic regions!!!!", i say as i lift up from my chair and raise my arms in joy after 30000000000000 years of sitting. the sudden movements slide the flesh off the bones of my desiccated husk like perfectly smoked ribs. a perfectly timed snack.

what

i feel that many people get more satisfaction out of streaming their creative work on youtube than twitch nowdays. i only know what it's like from a viewer perspective and it feels more documentary than performative imo + vods are actually saved. i'm considering streaming again but on YT this time

creating robot girl noises for my lovely shell creatures, sampling google TTS voice synthesis (da free ones that come with ur browser) then adding effects in bespoke :3

heehee! hoohoo! the grand cycle! witness the ORB JUGGLER juggle the worldbuilding orb the game design orb the character design orb the 3d modeling orb the sprite artist orb the animator orb the programmer orb the composer orb the dopamine orb wait where did the other orbs go what the FUCK !!!!!!!!!!

will return to 3d work when i feel like it but when i feel like it could easily be 6 months from now and i do feel bad for making people expect certain things like my blender addons that i was making. im still exhausted and want something simpler especially when blender keeps getting updated faster

wahoo

caught a fishie and it was thiiiiiiiiiiis big

wakeup doodle before getting out of bed... lol

realized krita and godot are both on the app store meaning i can now do both things on my phone at locations that are exclusively not my desk and i have never been happier

wplace

doodles

sepulchre within the winter clouds, memories scattered like seeds and snow

do it yourself

wish upon a star

silly eleven+parella doodle

yahoo! i imagine that vespid's hair subtly moves in waves a lot of the time. shell hair is sensitive and capable of limited, weak motion, and it is part of how vespid emotes as a microexpression! other shells do it too of course

more wip. she smile

remade the eye module and wanted to give a higher poly vespid face a try

did u know that shells have eyes???? i was trying to figure out how the eyes would be designed w/ a rough model in blender but then it sort of just became a procedural anim test didn't hand-animate any of this, it's all using drivers :> maybe i will do something more with it?

wasn't in the mood to draw today but i still had to show up, so here's some messy fanart of a robot girl that younger me from 2016 decided to make in roblox studio. big fan of the design! younger me would have absolutely lost it and had a sexual awakening if they saw this.

the cutting room floor

the arenas are designed to be destructible, so it's all built from environment modules above a big recycler. the only thing that still stands at the end is the central column, the circle the shells start their fight in.

quite silly

hehe

was in the mood to make some idolshell sprites inspired by the deltarune cast :)

parella sketch games need more really powerful "tutorial ally" characters who are supportive but gradually get more tired of your shit the more you offload the fighting to them and use them as a crutch

Graphical Tablet Interface Bunny displaying moderately quizzical expression in response to drawing of the gamerly Sigil (The Cool S), perhaps necessitating further investigation of the true nature of the enpuzzlement?

pro advice: if the idolshell's chest has both display functionality for performances and touch sensitivity... that's not a chest, that's a graphics tablet, and a potential way to save money by not buying a new tablet! perhaps i'll build off the sketch later? i was tired today x_x

she was too silly............ don't ask why she's wearing sukumizu