Breakfast and beach day with my man! 💖

Cappuccinos are my new obsession. I never really drink them as much but getting them at different restaurants and trying out. They are good.

I know 2 friends are talking about me when I see them see my instagram stories to see if I posted something a day after some thing upset me and they both don’t usually see my stories.

I would’ve rather been blissfully unaware until after my bday but now I just feel like I don’t wanna spend it with anyone. Just want to go out alone and take photos of myself in a cute dress or spend money to go on a boat ride or something!!

The situation that happened yesterday kind of inspired me to write songs again. And I haven’t had that feeling to write anymore. And I think this song would sound so good if I was able to produce it.

June is just a bad month for me. First my Fwb says he doesn’t wanna be my bf then I had one friend confess to me I hurt her then another friend say she doesn’t wanna hang with me anymore and then my 2 coworker besties leave me for other jobs it’s like I can’t catch a break!

Why is it that I always have a good Monday morning and it gets ruined by heart break.

I feel like I can’t go to my favorite places because I don’t want anyone to not feel like they can’t go to those places because i frequently go.

I’m just so sad today I’m not even in the mood to meal prep!!

Now I feel like I need to tone myself down just to make people happy! Like no more jokes I guess, no more being loud, no more constantly being the one who talks the most. Just gonna go back into the shell I worked so hard to crawl out of.

I feel like I should find a new group for friends. Because my bff now doesn’t wanna hang around me I feel like I should step back so she doesn’t miss out on hangouts because I’m there.

I guess sometimes people take my jokes too seriously. But I also feel like if someone makes the same joke it’s funny but when it’s me I’m being offensive or inconsiderate. Why!?? Why is it always me who does the wrong thing!?

I feel like I need to take a class or something to learn how to take good photos of people on my phone. I wanna be a person people can rely on for photos and right now I’m not.

Maybe it would‘ve been better if I had moved to California.

This is exactly why I was a shy girl. Worried to say the wrong thing and upset someone. And now that I got a little confidence supposedly I hurt someone I love and now they don’t wanna be around me. Back to my shy girl era I go.

I lowkey feel like cancelling my bday plans. I am not doing good emotionally and don’t feel like I’m wanted around anymore.

June is the month where I’m consistently getting my heart broken.

My 2 coworker besties are leaving me!! Now I have no one cool to talk to at work! 😭

I never thought in my life that I would have a fwb and a sugar daddy in the same life time. Is it rare or have both!? 😅

I have such a nice sugar daddy. He picked my friend and I up from the bar and dropped us off home!! And he got me food!!

Got taken out to sushi after I decided not to go to the cosplay meetup on Sunday and cried about it lol 😆

I was supposed to be a pirate at a cosplay meetup on Sunday but I didn’t and up going. I was sad for sure.

I still can’t believe I painted my skin green twice for 2 different cosplays. The dedication I have for my biggest hobby!!

This weekend was all about me just crying and being emotional.

I need a guy who is a boob guy. Yes my ass is fat and nice but the girls are fabulous and they need more appreciation!

I love oddity expos!! #oddeties #chicago

Had some of the best French toast today!!

Ugh like the thing that gets me is him falling for someone else would break me because I wasn’t good enough to love!? Me the nicest girl he has ever met and he always ends up liking the toxic girls who’s treat him like shit!?

I hate being an over thinker cause this man was soooo handsome. Will i ever find someone just as handsome as him who will actually love me!?

It just sucks because he deserves to feel like he has someone to love even though he feel like he can’t love anyone. It sucks that person isn’t me. As much as he deserves to love someone I will be sad that it’s not me.

A little sad that the guy I’ve been seeing rejected me when I asked to be his gf but I guess the universe is saying that he isn’t the one for me.

lol when you having sexy time and someone walks in the house and then you gotta be secretive and do the walk of shame out the house and meet by the corner of the hood.

I love tamales!! 🫔 I wish I can eat them every Sunday!!

Tried waking up early to get the kitchen to myself and I guess hearing me rattling around woke them up anyway! 😡

My store is all kinds of fucked. Like why does our system say we have something when we didn’t even scan it into our inventory yet!?? They gotta fix that shit. Because it fucks fullfillment over and I’m not gonna be the one to bring over old pallets from way in the back. We don’t have the time.

My #oc May #art 💖

Once a big back always a big back!! #bigback #altfashion #plussizefashion #bigfood #jojosshakebar

Went to the Minecraft experience!! It was a fun irl game to play. #minecraft #plussizefashion #altfashion

I was cute last night! #plussizefashion #altfashion

Had a quickie before work for the first time. Hopefully it helps the day go by smoother!!

My Fwb not only made out in the woods in the back of where my hotel was during Acen but we made out in the balcony and he fingered me boi did I want him to just fuck me there and then but wanted to be respectful to my friends. And not do that

Marin Kitagawa! #mydressupdarling #acen #animecentral #plussizecosplay #cosplay

Just felt like drawing something #art #fanart

Rouge the bat #rougethebat #sonicthehedgehog #acen #animecentral #plussizecosplay #cosplay

🔩🔩🔩⚡️ #monsterhigh #frankiesteinb #monsterhighcosplay #plussizecosplay #acen

Monster High crew at Anime Central. Clawdeen: @kupkace3.bsky.social #monsterhigh #acen #cosplay #plussizecosplay #monsterhighcosplay #animecentral

One thing I hate about being late to get to a hotel room is that everyone is out and about doing stuff and you have to wait for them to come back to the room to get your key so you can unpack and enjoy yourself too.

Should’ve done this a week ago but it’s now done. Can’t wait to do rouge the bat for Saturday of Acen. #acen #rougethebat #sonicthehedgehog