Last year sucked me dry like a methodical vampire, broke my heart at the very end and broke me almost completely. I'm trying to start doing something again. I went back to Blender. I made that very doughnut... #blender Blender Guru's #donut

I just baked a chocolate and blackcurrant cake. And look how it turned out! Seams like it was Clayface... Ha! #kitchen_tales

The year 2025 brought me sadness, tremendous loss, and complete exhaustion. No hope. No dreams. No money. Go to hell, 2025.

i'm 44 togay... #birthday

I'm still here, just trying to recover from the shock of the upcoming dental bills. Considering I haven't had a job in the last year. Can't sell a kidney either, it's not in the right condition, heh heh. I'm totally fucked.

Sticker by the artist Frolov Ilya Inst: @art_fro #streetart #streetphotography #urbandetails #my365 #BlueSkyArtShow #Texture

Dasha, a theatre students #portrait #portraitphotography #studio #photography #lighting #postproduction

It's been a stupid, anxious and nervous week. So here's some music for me. #NowPlaying youtu.be/GMfjA4gyEcU?...

Looking for a job, remote or with relocation. Retouching, photography, 3D modelling, texturing. Details on LinkedIn www.linkedin.com/in/nrukavish... Huge thanks for any help or repost. Love, Nata

That's my sweet redheaded girl Marah. She was diagnosed with CKD a year ago. Today we went for a follow-up ultrasound... I was SO afraid of what I might hear. And guess what, she's been ok for a year. We're doing everything right. Oh my, I love her so much! #caturday

Druzhok-3 was a young, hopeful space explorer, but on one of his first missions he went missing and was never heard from again for years. He wandered around a lot, became a bit insane and is still looking for a way home. #ZBrush #sculpting #characterdesign #conceptart

That job stuff thrown me out of kilter. By this time Ive finished my Hollow Knight at 108% (I hate White Palace and haven’t complete all the related tasks), got a bit frustrated with my anatomy studies (but I won’t give up).

This week has been a mess. One creative agency contacted me via LinkedIn with a job offer. We decided to run one paid test first. I spent 3 (!) days on it, trying to figure out what they finally need (no statements, only (quote) “don’t hesitate to ask if you have any questions”).

#nowplaying youtu.be/_GY2NxwC-UY?...

Damn, I cut my finger while making breakfast. That means I won't be able to play for a couple of days, and my high anxiety level will return from the gaming world to reality, and I can already feel it. Shit.

To everyone who's gonna sleep tonight - sweet dreams! And let's try to stay ok. OK? #streetphotography #my365 #ferriswheel

#nowplaying open.spotify.com/track/5I9Hg0...

This is a noir story of litlte horsie and Mr. Snowman.

Today is a very sunny, empty and anxious day. I can't do anything. My heart is aching. It's hard to breathe normally. Awful. But I found two pieces of my old Candy Animals project. They're cute. This one is A disco sheep at someone else's graduation party.

Ouch! I'm not a great gamer, but couldn't resist the charm of The Hollow Knight. Cool game. But mehh, I got stuck on the very first serious boss - little Hornet 🤦‍♀️ Aaah, i'm using my Mac keyboard, my fingers are like a knitting already! I wanna get my Mothwing Cloak!! 😭😭

Ho-ho, I got blocked for the first time in my very long life on social media. Some Estonian account with no photos at all, so I've hardly ever seen it before (i don't speek Estonian). So weird... Why?..

Valentine and Eugene #portrait #portraitphotography #studio #photography #lighting #postproduction #doubleportrait

Fad Gadget - Saturday Night Special #SOD #SongoftheDay open.spotify.com/track/2HGDTK...

Sooo, I just baked a birthday cake for a relative of mine who didn’t even want to invite me to the party. Very strange feeling… Opened the bottle of rum. That should help.

Well, this was a Fritz Lang’s week. We saw a lot of him, M mostly - of course, the early Dr. Mabuse, the wonderful Metropolis and M, one and only. M was a real eye-opener - the camerawork (some low angle was unexpected, though), the mise-en-scene, the acting - all superb! #movienight

Three Girls on the Jetty #streetphotography #urbanphotography #cityscape #super_ordinarylife #nowherediary #subjectivelyobjective #documentingspace #banalography #my365

This is my orchid mantis (Hymenopus coronatus), created after the great Gnomon Workshop by Eric Keller (www.artstation.com/bloopatone). It was really cool to make. Challenging, butt fun. And it’s harder than the average man with no hair! I have to try better 🤦‍♀️ #ZBrush #3dmodeling #keyshot

Ok, since my human models are still coming out soo imperfect that I can’t proudly show them off… This is my second attempt at making friends with ZBrush. Over a year ago I really fell in love with it, but due to many sad things in my life, I abandoned it. I feel like I need to try again. #3dmodeling

Yuriy, a musician #portrait #portraitphotography #studio #photography #lighting #postproduction

This is our love song. ❤️ open.spotify.com/track/15BQ7v...

Yesterday was the next remarkable stop in our slow movie marathon - The man who laughs (1928). I really enjoyed it. The royal concert scene is awesome, and Lord Dirry-Moir is my favourite now! And yes, I don’t know that Joker has his roots from Gwynplaine’s look. #movienight

To everyone who’s trying to sleep tonight - sweet dreams! (God! I love these creatures’ faces! (and i need an "edit post" button 🤦‍♀️)

As it happens, I've had very little sleep for a few weeks now. At first I thought, “Cool! I can increase my productivity - learn smth, do smth, read at least a book”. But no. All I can do is just want to sleep. It’s very exhausting. Stay safe please and sleep well.

I think it's time for the official farewell to my good old IG account. These are the very first and very last pictures from there. So you'll be able to see the odd little lo-res photos here for a while yet. #photography #super_ordinarylife #banalography #nothingspecial

Song of the day youtu.be/a8RFignlzaM?...

Looks like I'll be making a lot of Silent Room posters, I love that game, haha

Song of the day open.spotify.com/track/2smBWy...

I’m one of the Silent Room bsky.app/profile/sile... Model: Alina B. #portrait #portraitphotography #studio #photography #lighting #postproduction #photographersunited

And on this occasion I was reminded of a picture we took a few years ago. Now I can call it "Antoine Goes to Wisborg", lol. #portrait #photography #bnw #noir

Next #movienight was - Nosferatu (1922) I watched it for the first time, and I liked it more than Dracula. It has a fine coherent narrative. In Dracula I think - for God's sake, why does he need Minna? He's got 3 wives at home, that he ran away from across the sea! Why does he need another one?

We've decided to have a slow movie marathon strarting January 1. To watch unseen ones and refresh our memory of our favorites. So, today's movie is... The Mummy (1932) I haven't seen any of the Mummies. But this one is pretty good, really, I like it.

My 2025 goal is to stop worrying and start sculpting human forms. I chose the course from Vertmode Official, it looks very clear and detailed. And I've finished my 2D ecorche already. But i'm still scared to go to ZBrush and sculpt it... Gosh! Dear Eve, just stop humblin', mumbling' and just DO it 🤦‍♀️

Soo, dear diary... At the end of the day I'm here. Let it be my space for small talks, little thoughts and irregular photos about everything. I need to chat from time to time, and I need to practice my pigeon English too. So yes, I'm here. Hurray!