i think it's time i start contemplating another tattoo

I've come to realise that my real weakness now is that I'm too tired to lie for the sake of others' comfort so if anyone asks me a question I will just answer truthfully

I'm tired,

a mountain of small kindnesses has coalesced into something unbearably big and unmanageable and I'm so scared of the fact that I can't let it lead to anything and my head is too full and too loud

the tightness in my chest from yesterday didnt go away with sleep and im tired and i feel like im on the cusp of crying but it's not even giving me that catharsis

I've felt on the verge of a flu moment for the past couple weeks and I know it's just what my body does but also I hate having a fucked up throat just because I'm stressed

tapping the lil heart on friend posts has become a "u are seen" more than a """like""" and I think that's really nice actually to have a small way to acknowledge that community it's like when u put a hand on someone's back to say u are there for them

rotating the concept of non-monogamy in my head and I think it doesn't quite sit right, not because I believe I'm all in on monogamy, but because the way I feel about the way I love others doesn't fit into either framework

back home after hen do (hen done) and now that I'm not busy again The Thoughts have returned

3am time to consider bad choices

with how many historical fantasy stories i've read you'd think i would know if a count is above a marquess by now

brother I wasn't planning on drinking much at the wedding events but I think I'm gonna use the hen do as an excuse to get drunk just once I'm cracking out the nalewka

The Longing is strong today

stubbornly forcing myself to make self aggrandising jokes instead of self deprecating ones because I would rather the flaw I'm seen as having be arrogance instead of self doubt

Gang boss Xal'atath and a goon, from World of Warcraft

no better brie than bed brie

the good news is I'm now at a point where I can recognise depression symptoms early the bad news is I can't do shit about it >:(

it's always a nice surprise when the isekai turns out to be the same soul travelling in time/space instead

in the no adhd med danger zone where I'm way more sleepy but also way more impulsive

brother there are times where I read a one of a kind romance fiction and I think to myself maybe I do have the capacity for romantic attraction if my heart flutters at the thought of such things

sometimes everything comes bubbling up to the surface and you have to sob a bit, put all those thoughts into a note file and tuck it away with those feelings so you don't have to keep it in your head anymore

today, i think, is bad but like more bad

translator swap midway through a manhwa where they went with "sis" instead of "noona" and the whiplash I got

I just realised why being outside here comforts me in a specific way, and it's because it reminds me of when I used to stay with my gran in the house she had in the mountains of Brenna

nothing more heinous than a sneeze right when you're about to fall asleep I need my nostrils EMPTY thank u

arguably I shouldn't get into bed unless I'm sleepy but my neck and upper back hurt so much earlier and now I can't SLEEP

I went to bed 5 hours ago but I read too much and now I'm full of melancholy for a what if that won't ever happen

a im so lucky to have friends so kind and understanding and fun as i do, like nothing happened in the past few hours but the thought and the heart warmth just kind of struck and im so glad to have found people who are such a joy to be around

when one of the pair in an arranged marriage trope joyfully says "don't worry i won't fall in love!!" and the other internally screams, this is peak fiction

sometimes u just need someone to repeat back to u what I already know to make it sink in better and sometimes it's okay to also have feelings about things even when u know they're not all logical because feelings are there to help ur brain and body process stuff

lads, out of nowhere my mum texted me with a "do you want plum cake i'm dropping it off" so actually maybe it wasn't too much to ask and i could have asked for cake too

fuck it today im gonna act as pitiful and grumpy as i feel

bro teen me had weak mental

went to take in the laundry and wanted 2 share nighttime river ambience

Fuck it. We Contain Solitudes is pay what you want now. Let's call it a sale, or something. sevencrowsgames.itch.io/we-contain-s...

I think a lot about how if I were Actually Sick I wouldn't know until it were too late with how poorly managed my current symptoms are by my doctors

hey, shout-out to my best friend for having me in the bridal party but never once making me, even accidentally, feel like "one of the girls" (positive)

I hate feeling lonely like I hate it so much, especially so when I can't do anything about it

my fav trope is the female side characters crushing on the main lady instead of some jealousy bullshit like yesss make it a little gay for me thank u

it's an absolute crime that the only sk8 thing I saw before watching it was Adam because what do you mean I didn't see my two strawberry snow cone sons I love them so much

yknow the one thing I love about my mum the most is how she still gets excited over things like visibly and passionately so and I hope I never get so jaded that I lose that as I get older

trying desperately to keep this guy from breaking his own pitchers with how full some of them are like sir you are eating too much

realising i can take all the pretty art comms i've had done and make them into stickers >:)

remembered why I try not to shower before bed and it's because everything hurts so much that I can't get to sleep and I can't ignore it when I'm trying to not be awake doing things 😤😤

putting in a ticket with the life devs to lower the difficulty level of showering

in a shocking turn of events, writer of incredibly good ttrpgs has written yet another incredibly good ttrpg (pls go support my friend and also play more ttrpgs)

hello please buy this two player TTRPG from my friend Andrew and find a way within the very engaging restraints of the game to trade poetic soliloquies of doomed yearning with the girl you secretly love

tactical ttrpgs give me excuses to make fun things who needs character sheets when u can have many character pages

it really is ironic that as my physical health shifts in what I hope is a positive direction, that my mental is in the pits because I'm so socially isolated now and I'm so frustrated about it

full of wist.......