What if I kill myself on my birthday.

What if I won’t ever get to move on from you? It’s been 10 months, but there are times that I still cry for our little forever that we never had, that we almost had. I still have those nightmares, they haunt me, making me believe we could go back to when everything was right, when we were happy.

Jam segini baru pulang dari lembur.

Waking up to the sound of pouring rain is one of the best feelings ever, but then you remember that you have to work.

A week before my birthday, supposed to be a happy time, but I’m sinking into another bout of sadness. The timing couldn’t be worse. It just reminds me of all the things I lack in life. The older I get, the more my birthday brings me down.

Kebiasaan banget kalau lagi sedih, pasti deactivate semua akun Twitter.

Happy Eid-ul-Adha Mubarak to everyone around the world. May Allah accept our prayers, supplications, and sacrifices. May this occasion bring peace, happiness and love as never before. I beg forgiveness from everyone who has been harmed by me, whether intentionally or mistakenly.

Not wanting to be awake because overthinking makes me anxious, but not wanting to be asleep because bad dreams are the worst feeling in the world.

He loved Ian from the moment he saw him, even before he realized it. 19 years—19 whole years—TJ gave everything to Ian, and it all started with a single eye contact. If they don’t end up together, what’s it all been for?

Seharian ngerjain kerjaan dan baru sekarang bisa nyentuh kasur. Kerjaannya belum selesai, tapi udah gak sanggup buat ngelanjutin lagi.

I can’t even explain how I feel anymore. My thoughts are so tangled and chaotic in my head that they’ve become strangers to me.

I know I’m not a good person. I feel like garbage most days; but, I’m still human, and humans feel pain. I can’t escape the guilt, no matter how hard I try. All I want is to make things right, but sometimes I wonder if I even deserve forgiveness.

ATEEZ really told me I gotta work, gotta make that money make purse, gotta fur coat so I make it purr, give them whiplash when they see me earn.

Siapa yang di malam lebaran tapi tetap kerja bagai kuda? Saya, Bang.

Hearing the takbiran always brings tears to my eyes. I’m deeply grateful to celebrate Eid Al-Adha this year, yet there’s a hint of sadness as my little sibling can’t be here. I miss her dearly and hope that next year, we can celebrate together again.

Asli, goblok banget. Bawa laporan bulan Maret, April, dan Mei tapi lupa bawa yang bulan Februari. Terus ini gimana ngerjainnya, duh. Dasar tolol.

Bangun dengan semangat meninggal karena di hari Weekend pun masih harus nyelesaikan kerjaan kantor, padahal besok lebaran.

I’m sad, so I’m gonna read erotic story, and watch porn for the next seven days.

Missing someone you can’t talk to is one of the most painful feelings. Every moment is filled with a deep ache, knowing you can’t share your thoughts, your day, or your heart with them. The silence is heavy, and the longing never seems to fade.

Fuck, I can’t believe my stupidity has ruined everything again. I keep messing things up, and it’s tearing me apart inside. I wish I could take it all back and make things right.

That annoying moment when you blink and the whole weekend is over and tomorrow’s already Monday again.

Wind Breaker has been in my timeline. Should I give in and watch?

Hierarchy: 7/10. Unexpected twist from typical revenge plot. Characters show growth, but love triangle overshadows main story. Unrealized potential; lacks focus on revenge. Bullies unpunished, protagonist’s indifference disappointing. Ending hints at potential for improvement in a second season.

Is it just me or X makin sepi. Biasanya di timeline ada lewat 1 or 5 tweets, tapi ini malah stuck di situ-situ aja.

There are days when I’m so tired that all I need is a hug, but there's no one here. My mind is full of thoughts and worries, but I have no one to share them with. It’s hard to feel this alone, carrying so much on my own. Life feels heavy, and I just wish for a bit of comfort and understanding.

My handle is my reaction.

KOMINFO be blocking everything but judol.