You've ruined a perfectly good Autistic. Look at it, it's got PTSD. #autism

Neuronormativity is inextricably linked with heteronormativity. Allistics want children to behave and grow in neurotypical ways so that they turn into attractive adults who can pair-bond with a heterosexual allistic. It's creepy. 🤢 Childhood neuronormativity is a form of grooming.

Yesterday my synesthesia realised the hierarchy hypothenuse, the allistic epistemic orientation vs the Autistic epistemic orientation. Allistics are capable of taking information at "face value" but only if it's an authority claiming "expertise", regardless of the authority's actual competence.

Autistics experience dimensions of qualia that allistics cannot access. My sensory joy is not your ASMR. My fixation is not your elective hobby. My SPIN expertise is not your half-assed, rote-memorized college degree. My apraxia is not your laziness. My burnout is not your tiredness. #autism

Society is a cult of allistic neurosis.

Epistemic rape is the worst thing you can do to an Autistic person. Truth and competency are the fabric of the Autistic soul. We are desperate to be understood. Epistemic rape has literally driven us to death and I have the list of NHS deaths to prove it.

I'm the most marginalized Autistic in the world and it is a living Hell. I was born as the unluckiest Autistic. I can't take it anymore.

I'm going insane from the pointless life of living in my tiny box bedroom with no carer to help me, and no healing for what the NHS has done to me, every day I contemplate suicide #autism

the NHS destroyed my teenage health, and now it has destroyed my adult health

another night of insomnia, unable to sleep #NHSabuse #autism

nobody f*cking cares about my Disabled needs and boundaries, I'm just an object to be pushed around

"People have no faith in institutions, it's a mystery, they must be anti-intellectual". This is always coming from privileged people. Institutions don't care about me. They've left Disabled people like me to perish alone. Institutions are abusive, negligent and oppressive.

Industrial society develops an industrial-grade neurotic hostility against Autistic people. #autism

Industrial societies default to the genocide of peoples that are incompatible with industrial life. The eradication of Autistics via death and "conversion therapy" is a default mode of industrial societies. It also aligns perfectly with the allistic impulse to punish non-comformity. #autism

another night of severe insomnia from the NHS abuse

😭 I also have this fear in various contexts. And this danger is in every public-facing profession! One of my interests is watching gymnastics; it has occurred to me that if I was an athlete I would be at constant risk of Autphobic scrutiny from the public/media, especially at medal ceremonies.

this asymmetry makes me so angry 🤬 allistics are always self-aggrandizing and placing their deficits in other people instead of reflecting on their allism

Reading between the lines is guessing when you lack data. Guessing without data leads invariably to the wrong conclusion.

I'm autistic, I was one of those kids. You just didn't call it autism. You called it weird. You called it the R or S word. You called it shy, dramatic, awkward, or rude. You bullied us. You punished us. You told us to try harder. We were always here. You just didn't know what we were.

I'm just another Autistic girl being persecuted to suicide by the NHS. I hope I have an inquest. I've never mattered to this world but maybe I'll be useful suicide data.

If I had the energy, I would make my suicide note a compilation of all my documented autism since 1999.

I don't know how much longer I can live like this. The NHS bullying has destroyed my soul. They've destroyed my ability to enjoy any aspect of life anymore. Since 2010 the world has told me my Autistic struggle doesn't matter to it.

Wrongness being spread in the name of "science" is unbearable. #autism

The psych industry relentlessly advertises "help" but never gives it. It's hidden behind a paywall, an informant, an advocate, and/or access to documentation. It's confusing to be surrounded by offers of help that never actually unlocks itself to meet me.

"Find your community, connect with the people you relate to!" I can't connect to dead Autistics. I can't summon their ghosts. Am I supposed to hold a séance? I don't believe in an afterlife. My "community" is a pile of bones and ash. #autism

Being autistic means I'm constantly thinking about what to say to others. Talking just doesn't come naturally to me. Why don't others do this ? Why does it feel like only me is doing this ? What is the solution to stop doing this ? All these questions and more pop up in my head on a daily.

This is how I felt until I got smartphones. The internet, typing as my primary medium, was how I finally got people to "know" me. Being "known" for the first time as an adult is a trauma that never leaves. Even now, most people don't "know" me because they disregard my text or only know me offline.

I don't know why to carry on living. I don't have the capacity to end it but I don't have a reason to live either. Life is so pointless.

I can confirm this. The NHS has destroyed my health. 16 years of interaction with the NHS has given me no actual healthcare whatsoever, just abuse after abuse. Never again. I've given up on having healthcare. The Neurofascist Harm System doesn't care about me.

Me: trying to suppress feelings that have been brewing for a very long time The universe: here have more reasons for feelings

I often go to bed deeply exhausted, feeling that I never want to leave it again, that I want to craft my entire life around resting in bed. Today is one of those days. #burnout

Allistic adults think they can bully Autistic children without consequences but those children grow up to be angry and knowledgeable Autistic adults with BOUNDARIES to defend. 🖕🏼

Though important to note that @drmbothapsych.bsky.social says a huge problem is that autistic people are never allowed to just be. And one of the most profound things we can do is provide autistic people space to just be, so they can follow their internal compass, and live well. #INSAR2026

My local NHS doesn't care about neuroaffirmative diagnosis. They actively deny people diagnosis on the basis of not "looking severe enough", even if you're the most disabled person on the waiting list! They knew my autistic struggle makes me suicidal, and yet they ignored me.

Common final words in Autistic mortality inquests, paraphrased: "nobody is helping me" "there are no experts" If I had an inquest, they'd be my final words too.

Very accurate mapping of my Autistic suicidality. Especially becoming aware of the minority status. Learning that I'm Autistic and that my needs will always be irrelevant to this world is suicidal fuel. "It gets better" does not apply to Autistic life.

Repetitive behaviour has nothing to do with the level of Autistic disability. I could completely suppress all my stims but still be unable to shower, travel alone, study etc. Stimming is not the disabling aspect of autism.

I needed to leave school at 14 but instead they forced me into another 3 years of pointless slavery, where they still didn't explain what was wrong with me while I suffered suicidal burnout. I begged for help and nobody listened. #CAMHS #edusky #NHS

This "self work" process is worthless when the cause of suicidality is fundamental societal exclusion, I cannot recover from what is *still* being done to me; I am still the confused, alienated 14 year old with no answers for her disability, even though I am now 29. Where is my expert?

and what do you do when it's the education system bullying you? there's no escape from abusive adult systems except via mortality

CN: Suicide Common suicidal thoughts for autistic young people include: "I felt suicidal about masking, I'm going to have to do this until the end of my life... it's exhausting, it's soul crushing." #INSAR2026

I failed at being a teenager. Instead of "rebellious", I was cautious. Instead of "adaptive", I was blank or stuck. Instead of "social", I was withdrawn & had no friends. Instead of "academic", I was learning impaired. Instead of having common interests, I was niche & obsessive.

Logic trauma is a real thing. When something is illogical and doesn't make sense, and you're stuck in a loop trying to make sense of the nonsense, and nobody will give you closure on the illogical thing.

Nobody will explain why I'm different. Nobody will explain why this world doesn't fit me. Nobody will explain why secondary school was incompatible with me.

Seeing bourgeois Autistics get diagnosed is so upsetting. Stop aligning yourself with the genocidal erasure industry. Stop siding with the industry that abuses me. Stop showing off your class privileges. 😭 Why am I the most erased, persecuted Autistic on Earth?!

There's no such thing as "official diagnosis". It's bourgeois classist pseudo-science. It's Autphobic violence. It causes arbitrary division between documented and undocumented Autistics. Diagnosis is evil. #autism

Some people don’t really know about uneven cognitive abilities because yes I can write I express myself well but sometimes processing spoken language or responding in real time is a challenge

Diagnosis ideology creates a disadvantage gradient where the undiagnosed are automatically excluded from self-knowledge, healing, and access to Autistic spaces and resources. Diagnosis ideology is violence. #autism

Diagnosis is fundamentally bourgeois and I am tired of seeing it everywhere.

Diagnosis ideology is classist violence that creates an underclass of undocumented Autistics. It also creates an arbitrary division of Autistics into the diagnosed vs the undocumented. It is epistemic violence! #autism