5 minutes talking to someone who's a therapist irl and openly just wants to do fucked up stuff to me and jack off to it while pretending it's a therapy session & i feel more Treated than i ever did in real therapy they were getting paid for in money and not boners

femininity is a prison and by god she plays those bars like a xylophone

it's an electra heart kinda day

don't let any vet tell you that you can just give dental food and not brush your cat's teeth. dental food is great but it's not the same as brushing. and ESPECIALLY if you switch to a wet diet for kidney health, you HAVE to brush!!!

my cat had to have 7 teeth out and apparently had already lost 3 because of root resorption. poor baby!! she still has 20 little teeth left but she lost one of her big canines and a bunch of molars. she's recovering well but i'm still wrapping my head around it

why won't the nazi-funded institutions speak out about the nazi problem at the nazi party headquarters? it's a real head-scratcher, this one.

packing is so difficult when the only help you have is an idiot who dislikes you and can't follow simple instructions

a 19-year-old messaged me on sniffies with just "😫". are they in pain? do i need to call an ambulance

i need a massage so fucking bad but i can't get any physio covered by insurance

was at the weed store today and said something about there being so many chemicals (as in compounds) in weed, and the 20 year old behind the counter was like oh no bro there's no chemicals dude, it's all natural!!

made myself nauseous & sweaty hitting my stupid nicotine vape cause i don't have weed. this is the opposite of what i want!!

Physcia jackii and Teloschistes sieberianus #lichens growing in Australia; these are not my pics but of Stephen Axford, from the recently published book 'Planet Fungi' (by Australian mycologist Tom May). I assume it's mainly about 'fungi' and lichens pop-up only occasionally

using my bedside trauma shears to cut open a sauce packet #survivalskills

wish people could stop trying to have a moral justification for every negative gut feeling. imagine the world if anyone could ever just say "idk i guess i just have an irrational dislike for this person that is grounded in my own issues & fears"

company: We've made some changes to the app to serve you better! the changes: you must now provide age verification and proof of employment to buy groceries. if your phone is more than 6 months old someone comes to your house and slaps you in the face

fruit & nut bar out of stock. time to die...

going insane in the isolation chamber as usual

i've re-read this like 500 times and i still don't understand how claiming a sexual orientation other than bi or asexual is transphobic

my landlord thinks "stench" is a more polite word for "smell" because she's fucking stupid as hell

my fear and mistrust of twinks has never steered me wrong. amen

i can eat chocolate without having an asthma attack & hives now bc of my immunotherapy, which is dangerous since it still absolutely upsets my tummy especially when i eat mostly only chocolate in a day bc it's such a new experience for it not to fucking kill me instantly

i don't get the joyce references in infinite jest because i find joyce similarly unbearable and have never been able to get through any of his longform stuff. like yes ok great you're reveling in incomprehensibility and you're really racist and you hate women and you have trauma. why am i here

i've read like 800 pages of infinite jest and i would like nothing more to go back in time to 1986 and tell DFW to do something else instead

oh aren't we just a negative nancy today. a debbie downer. a susie no-smile. a real bitch

"it's ableist to hate smoking since smokers can have lung disease too!" mhm. just like it's ableist to hate people who shoot into crowds because some of them have self-inflicted bullet wounds. you can't blame those poor lambs fooled by the gun lobby as children

uuuaaaahhhhhh i can't do anything about the things that are making my life hell and i can't sleep from inertia despite being exhausted so i'm just chain vaping and staring into the misery cube forever

sorry if i dunk on a post you reposted i'm not dunking on you unless i repost it from you specifically. i just see things and crap out some words

my life is made very difficult by no one actually knowing what "brain damage" means & that's not at all unrelated to how readily people use it as a shorthand for like, any undesirable behaviour. why would you want to contribute to that?

sorry lol your shitty ableist jokes don't get less ableist or more funny just because you're also disabled

phhhllbbbttttt

i'd print enormous banners that say BRAIN DAMAGE ISN'T A FUCKING JOKE AND IT ISN'T CAUSED BY MONEY & DOESN'T TURN YOU INTO A FASCIST🤪 and hang them in every room you'll ever enter for the rest of your life. also they smell really, really bad (the banners)

uh oh i gotta kill myself again

me: if you eat right before bed you're gonna wake up feeling so sick. please also me : *falling asleep with chocolate in my mouth* shoundsh like a you problem

cadbury fruit & nut bar is a perfectly engineered food item. if you don't like cheap chocolate that's mostly milk solids don't even talk to me

Tag: Corruption, Mind control

i'm 32% through infinite jest and so far the main thing it's made me feel is god, this guy is such an asshole and he really thinks he's funny. also i guess he really liked joyce and nabokov, with the prose and the endnotes and everything.

Above 4,000 ft elevation, the late fall polypore (Ischnoderma resinosum) is just somehow way more impressive to me! #mushrooms

i don't really know who d*n & ph*l are but with everything i'm seeing in passing it kinda sounds like they sat down and went okay. big announcement everyone. we've finally decided to officially monetize our relationship 🏳️‍🌈🧑‍🤝‍🧑

this indian place near me does delivery until 4:20 am. real as fuck!!!

found an old ipad my ex gave me ages ago and finally figured out how to factory reset it and back it up from my ipad 2 :3 really excited to read & listen to music offline on a device that doesn't weigh 4 pounds

just slammed a bunch of lemon balm extract of unknown potency i found while beginning packing. ready to get so fucking calm

Cladonia #lichen (possibly Cladonia macilenta aka Lipstick Powderhorn Lichen)

reviews of this audiobook include people being really appreciative that the reader committed to the racist accent for the whole chapter 🙃

well i was almost getting into the swing of infinite jest before this very extremely interminably long section of the white audiobook reader doing DFW's butchered aave impression... christ

like yeah, my head hurts. that's definitely part of it (though you can have a migraine w/o headache). but also my senses are dialed up to a million in a very painful way so every sound is like a gunshot & every smell is nauseating & every light is way too bright

everyone should have a migraine at least once so they never think it's "just a headache"

social workers are a plague

oh so you think i'm a nobody? well i'll have you know several of the biggest communist posters on tumblr dot com have me blocked. i'm not anti-communist and we haven't interacted directly. they just find me annoying. so there

just blew my nose and got so dizzy i had to sit down bc of the pressure change in my ear. heard rushing like a jet engine for about 20 seconds & then it resolved with a super loud & painful squeak-pop. ear infections suck

well apparently it's been multiple unrelated fire calls and someone jumping off a bridge :/