actually got aftercare today from someone who genuinely understood what i wanted and wasn't just pretending. it may never happen again

idk what people don't understand about "my sexuality is about centering the other person's physical pleasure and never my own". like if that's fundamentally upsetting to you, don't fuck me! every day, many people successfully don't fuck me

i really genuinely don't want and can't tolerate a partner whose goal is to make me feel sexual pleasure. do i want them to be nice to me? yeah! do i want them to want to fuck me? yeah! do i want those things to ever intersect? jesus christ no

hammering a big sign into the ground that says NO ATTEMPTING TO MAKE ME CUM

i want to eat dinner but i keep crying which makes me feel sick and i've reheated my food like 3 times. ugh

i'll just rape myself if you're so damn complicated

i only want bad evil people who don't give a shit about my pleasure and disrespect my boundaries! which is very difficult to explain when someone is being sweet to me and trying to respect my boundaries and i'm crying and nauseated because it feels so bad.

sometimes i forget that not everyone has been raped

pain meds are so fucked up man. like i can still be at a solid 7 and in too much pain to do much of anything, but i don't notice when i fully run over my own toes with my wheelchair, because i'm on painkillers. how is that fair??

things that get me called aromantic by those without insight

i feel like most of what people describe as "having a crush" is just anxiety

why am i always so shocked and surprised when rape scenes in media upset and trigger me? you'd think i hadn't been living with this my whole life

Thinking about that really tall mushroom I photographed from beneath that one time.

idk what instant loss is because every time i look it up i get so bored i have amnesia. presumably it has something to do with ctrl+alt+del

remember when i thought it was possible for me to have a social life again? i don't

don't understand people who have fulfilling sex lives offline but still lurk around online where all the shut-in loveless perverts hang out. like please you're ruining it for the rest of us. go talk to your friends

the great thing about am*z*n is that they'll believe any bad thing about their sellers since they know they're all fucking evil so you can be like hi the package arrived but it was just goat blood and lint in there? and they're just like so sorry we'll process the full refund now. no photo needed

composing long rageposts in my head and then spitting them into my hands and crumpling them up in the wastepaper basket

why do people feel the need to message me just to say "omg i could never fuck you the way you want, i would feel so sad after :'(" like okay? then don't??

i'm so fucking bitter

really close to actually buying something to treat my AN when i have money because my doctors have either thrown up their hands & told me it's because i'm fat, or given me tiny free samples of crap full of fragrance they're paid to promote. just give me the unscented retinoids

i was minding my business, lifting some lead on the roof of the holy name church/ as rose collects the money in the canister, who comes sliding down the bannister...

listen, i'm not looking to blame, i just want an answer. WHO broke into my secured shipping container and let out my whole herd of 19-to-26 bi-for-fem-twinks-only suburban gamers? if they don't get their 5pm feeding and sfw tiktok goon session all hell will break loose

i was cooking with this. more is coming

it always sucks to lose a friend even if they weren't a very good one.

sorting by controversial on r/massivecock to see all the dick beef

well that's the way the pussy crumbles

just saw a redditor refer to breasts as "a set of spheres"

many species of plushies reproduce via traumatic insemination

call me AI college the way i'm generating degrees 🌡🥵🔥

jesus fucking christ can i get one (1) sadist dom who doesn't work themselves into a panic attack trying to do exactly what they've said over and over they want to do to me

one of my favorite death grips songs

i mean yeah sure janice shoots richie to death but we never get the impression that she wasn't enjoying the sex

you can tell some people on tumblr like 1:1 have replaced Problematic things they used to say with "this is some fae shit"

a cis woman messaged me on reddit to make sure i was over 25 before sexually harassing me, asked why i didn't use they or she pronouns, then got upset when i called her cis. women can perform just as well as men in any field

i thought i fucked up on getting my deposit back but apparently you can try for up to 2 years after. thank god bc that landlord was a scammer and a fucking sloppy one

i'm sorry i just don't like freefloating mustaches and never will. why have you cloven it from its companions? cruel...

someone on my dash mentioned a "cod lobby" and i was imagining some sort of fish lobbyist association before i realized they meant call of duty

wally paulnuts

the sopranos is more sex & kink-positive than anything recent i've watched in ages. casual gun play? no problem!

cleaned my entire room looking for my cat's brush and her favourite toy. didn't find either and am having a terrible reaction to the dust but it's so clean under my bed now

you: ooo i'm gonna fuck the shit out of y- me: CUT! what's your motivation? your dick is hard? talk about derivative! where's the life? where's the PLAY??

court psychiatrist: we've analyzed your "blog" and found you used the word "me" over forty million times, betraying a startling level of self-absorption. me: omg really?? that's sooo crazy. i love learning things about myself. can we do handwriting analysis next :3

new superpodcast Behind The Weird Little Guys Who Suck Led By Donkeys out now! it's 7 hours long with 96 ad breaks. and yes, they all have cliffhangers

"i've caught onto your pattern" but the pattern is literally just you being bad at replying to messages because you're suicidal and chronically ill

whenever anyone's like I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE! I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU!! i'm like well are you gonna share? because i would also like to know

and the sexy fanart, of course #myart

in an inexplicably good mood this morning despite getting 3 hours of sleep. unfortunately it's not giving me the energy to do the stuff i need to do

attaching this giant knockoff hello kitty waffle phone charm to my vape was the best decision i ever made. never losing this fucker again. everything should have a hole for a charm lanyard!!

every day i see people talking about their favourite complex and thoughtfully wrought and poignant character and then they post the official art and it's like