⠀It hurts... I can't breathe... I'm scared...

It was an accident. it was an accident. it was an accident. it was an accident. it was an accident. it was an accident. it was an accident. it was an accident. it was an accident.

"Ill be fine. Im tougher than I look." She laughed a bit. Her head lowered. "You didnt come looking for me did you?"

"What- no? Im fine. Very fine." She assured. Quinn is caring.. like Caitlyn is. She likes that. Vi is trying not to be too abrasive, she doesnt want to scare Quinn off or anything.

@demaciancorsair.bsky.social If Quinn is ever looking for her. Shes pretty easy to find. Right now, at the bar drinking.

Its her fight night in the pits. Vi felt like she was spiraling again. She cant keep her head straight.. fighting is what she does best so it is natural for her to fall into. The crowd cheers as the Dog of Zaun comes out of her corner. Her hands ready to start their work. However painful.

A wolf has no mercy.

"You can come. I just need to be outside, Cupcake." She was trying to be gentle. Vi wasnt sure what her issue is. She just felt stuck.

Vi nods. "Can we go /outside/ please.. for a little while." She looked to Caitlyn. Having difficult saying what she needs

"Right." Vi looked at it. The punching bag looked barely used. She could unleash her fury on it.. but she seemed unsure about it.

Vi nods..she will follow Caitlyn anywhere she wants. Anywhere.

THEY ARE TOO GAY FOR THEIR OWN GOOD .ᐟ

"Then-- what else is there? I got nothing else. At least- at least it feels that way."

"I just want to fight and drink all the time.. its all I want to do." She was shaking a little. Vi was fighting her emotions.

"Does it involve fighting?" Her voice sounded indifferent, but it was genuine. The fighting keeps her going. A punishment and an outlet all the same.

"If you did it would have just made things worse. Then you would have been hurt too." Vi still cared. That much is plain. "I cant keep going like this.. I dont know what to do." Without Caitlyn she felt like nothing.

"Your dad was Silco! He killed /Vander/.. half of Zaun! .. he is the reason I was there in the first place. He took my sister." Vi's anger died quickly and turned into depression again. "I need a drink.."

"Doesn't matter." She moved to hold Twyla's hand. "Everyone is changing. Even.. she did. I should just go back to Stillwater."

Its not that Vi has moved on. Its that she doesnt really know who or what she is anymore. Its not much of a secret shes been seen getting black out drunk almost daily. Her pit fighting career taking off with mixed results. She is a fan favourite.

"Its Vi." There's almost anger in her words. She growled a bit but showed no other signs of aggression.

Her eyes were dull and distant. Like she wasnt really there. Too much has happened. She cant cope with it.

Vi's eyes went back to staring ahead. "If I cant drink, can I go fight something?" Its a slippery slope. But Vi was hurting and its all she knew to do for those emotions.

She growled a bit. But once her eyes see Caitlyn she softens again. Her hand gives a little squeeze back. "Yeah.. I can."

Vi's eyes were dulled and sad. She stared after the bottle, wanting the temporary relief it offered. When Vi was present, she could acknowledge she had a problem and resist it. But when disassociating like this, she can't control it so much.

Depressed Vi noises. Shes reaching for the bottle but doesnt quite grab it.

Could a moron... PUNCH. YOU. INTO. THIS. PIT .ᐟ.ᐟ HUH .ᐣ.ᐟ.ᐣ COULD A MORON DO THAT .ᐣ.ᐟ

Forbidden fruits before my eyes and a taste that's so divine. My regrets rewriting history. I'm a sad 、pathetic girl.

Dear diary 、My teenage angst bullshit now has a body count.

Hickeys are not enough put your cigarette out on my skin.

⠀⠀ALL I WANTED WAS YOU.

Those sporadic fragments of memories keep scaring me awake at night.

Thinking about a certain Cupcake. Slow sip from the bottle. Shes just so.. pretty. Vi wants to snuggle up against her, use her chest for a pillow.

@notanalrightshot.bsky.social Vi spies Caitlyn. She is never sure if this is a hallucination or not anymore. Her head lowers away, back to the bottle to try and forget.

I imagine death so much 、it feels more like a memory. Is this where it gets me 、on my feet 、several feet ahead of me .ᐣ

Vi looked at her now. Those powder blues look just so sad. If she's been drowning herself in alcohol to forget.. how different would this be? She doesn't say anything to show interest, but the temptation is there. "And why offer to me?"

The cramps are great and only chocolate and snuggles may fix me.

Vi wasnt very proud of that. She looks away from Margot. Since her fight with Caitlyn in the pipes well. Vi has been on a downward spiral, very quickly.

"The chembarons and Silco have only ever ruined my life. I should punch your lights out now for it.." She growled. Her eyes are dull. It'll be more difficult than that to drug Vi up.

"Why would I want your pills? They'll probably turn me into a shimmer fiend like the ones Silco kept." Another bottle done. Her head rests on the bar.

"Why do you care?" She snarled. Having won her fights tonight, shes hitting the bottle hard. Several drinks in already.

In another universe 、I get to save you. You're still alive.

@goldandglory.bsky.social Vi is glaring at the chem baron. What interest does /she/ have with Vi's addiction?

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0 ——— fool.

Depressive mood swings has taken over. The bottle is.. tempting. It calls to her.