YCH ✿ Rioichi_TheAncient_Wolfheart ✿ #2 ◃🩷▹ ♡ + ↺ — #CommsOpen #art #commission #illustration #digitalart #art #furry #furryart

I also regret that I can't sell my apartment to donate to Infinity Nikki, because I don't have enough currency to get the whole fairy outfit. Or can I? :D I've collected 7/10 pieces of the outfit, and I don't think I'll be able to collect the whole thing without donating... T.T

I spent the last few months in bed. Now I'm jumping around like a little goat, and my only regret is that there are only 24 hours in a day and that I need sleep and food. I suspect that I do have bipolar disorder or something similar, but right now I plan to make the most of my condition. I'm alive!

For the past few months, thoughts about wanting to stop existing have been coming back. Not plans - just the wish to disappear, to rest, to not have to keep going. Most days I feel empty, exhausted, and overwhelmed by simply being alive.

I'm trying to catch up on all the debts I've accumulated over the past few months. It's very difficult to even force myself to get out of bed; it seems like I've used up all my strength this year... At least the medication I've been prescribed is helping with my anxiety

I increased my antidepressant dose and for the third day I've been shaking with anxiety and muscle tension and can't do anything. The doctor said to be patient and that it could last up to two weeks. It's exhausting T.T

Hello, dear ones I haven't written anything for a long time because something was going on inside me that I couldn't put into words. But now I can. I am completely exhausted. Emotionally, mentally, physically. My “battery” is below zero, my anxiety has reached a critical point, and I've broken down.

WIP 🩵✨

Just a small burnt bun in flour. My husband tried baking bread himself and spilled a bit of flour, huh Also, the streets are already covered in snow with knee-high drifts. It looks so beautiful, like a quiet winter dream

My husband is feeling a bit better now and needs fewer painkillers, which is good 💖 But my mental health has taken a hit - too much stress has worsened my anxiety disorder. I’m focusing on resting and taking care of myself. As soon as I can, I plan to see my therapist and get medication.

Today my husband had an MRI, and it showed that he has a large hernia in one place and a protrusion in another. The sciatic nerve is severely pinched, which is bad because it could die (I mean the nerve, yes)

I feel terrible asking for help again. I'm used to dealing with everything myself, but this year and its events have been just awful.

WIP 💖

But I negotiated with the bank about one of my loans and it seems that I am no longer facing legal action for late payment... Adult life is totally sucks. (Sorry if there are mistakes and inappropriate words in my posts, I don't have the energy to double-check my translator)

All these days I've been running around with my husband to doctors, with no time for anything else. They scared me that it could be venous thrombosis, so we spent even more money on an ultrasound scan of the veins to rule out this diagnosis.

My husband felt pain in his leg at the beginning of last month and went to the emergency room. He was prescribed injections and told to wait for an appointment with a therapist - his appointment was on the 28th.

To be honest, I feel very guilty about having to ask for help so often... But this dark period in my life is not ending.

Hungry VS ate dumplings :D

I'm trying to pay off all my debts for drawings as soon as possible, drawing 14 hours a day and drinking tons of cold coffee. I'm a little burnt out, but I feel really bad that I'm making my clients wait, so... work work work A piece of a sketch for a future full shading illustration 💖

Today, my husband and I went to the hospital, and it turned out that he has a severe sciatic nerve pinching... He will need three injections a day and it looks like long trips to the hospital, because the appointment with the therapist is only on the 28th...

WIP ^^

I'm resting today too, I think I'm going to spend a lot of time at Infinity Nikki and maybe some more sketching on paper. My hands are really shaky, need to get the skill back! ❤️

Had a weekend off yesterday and today, picked up some painting materials and tried them out, it's incredibly relaxing. I've missed it. Drawing still in progress, waiting for the glitter paints to arrive - my work just has to glitter ;3

I drew for 16 hours today I'm tired of being tired of being tired

Good morning ✿ Angelis ◃🌄▹ #CommsOpen #art #furry #illustration #furryart #digitalart #digital

Lately I've been worrying quite a bit about whether I'm drawing well and feeling guilty about doing it slowly. I feel like I'm not painting beautifully enough right now... Maybe I'm just really tired, but I still have a lot of work to do... meh.

I had a little treat today с; I got lucky and got the keychain I wanted 🥹💖

Today is two years since my mom died. To be honest, it's still very hard for me. But I hope she met my dad and she doesn't have any more pain and she is happy there and they are taking care of me from heaven. I love you, mom.

Today I ordered canvases and paints for myself to draw on. I haven't even picked up a pencil in almost 7 years, so I'm so excited! С;

WIP 🌻

IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL 😭💖

Oh I wish I could afford to get an all new outfit at infinity nikki... They also added a butterfly rerun, I'm crying 😭 But at least I was able to make my Nikki look beautiful!

I'm super lucky - decided to paint my nails for the first time in ages and got an allergic reaction 🫠 Now I'm treating my hands with ointment, they’re itchy and sore. But! I walked in the rain for the first time in a while and had a nice weekend overall ;3

Smokey got her stitches and vest removed - she's healed! She is finally free from the isolation in bedroom 🐱✨ Called the vet about tests too: everything is fine, and no more tons of meds. Yay! С; I'm so happy she's finally doing well 💖

We also reinstalled my computer system, so today will be a day of setting everything up. I don't like to do that, but it will make my work much easier - my computer has been so laggy lately. Also, we fixed the kitchen drain, I paid last month's loan payments and everything is good now 🥰💖

Yesterday we took Smokey for a checkup and they loosened her stitches and said everything is healing well. I'm so happy! 🥰

Our kitchen sink trap just broke off. I’m ready to cry. God, if you’re listening please, enough trials, I’m not your strongest warrior... T.T

Smokey felt strong enough yesterday to break out of her little enclosure - now the whole living room is hers! I was so stressed I slept the whole day, and she thanked me by flipping her litter box 😩 but I’m really glad she’s getting better! 🩷

Smokey update 💕 Her bronchitis is finally gone, and yesterday she had surgery to remove all her bladder stones. She woke up fine, is eating well, and seems okay! There's still inflammation where the biggest stone was, so we're monitoring closely. Hoping meds help! 🙏

I'm really tired, so I'll spell out the details tomorrow, but...Smokey had surgery! We'll go in for another checkup tomorrow and she'll be on an infusion. They removed all the stones from her bladder, but she still has inflammation and the treatment will take longer than we would like 🥹

This is just a fun trend my friends asked me to do, wanted to show you too 🩷

A very dangerous kind of piranha, first lures you in with its cute appearance, and then treacherously does a bite (well, or steals your socks while you can't see)

Summer is just starting and I'm already saving myself with lots of ice and banana milkshakes... Although it's not particularly hot here but I can't stand the heat at all =.= But the cats are happy, they have a new location - the balcony ^^

We were booked in for surgery on the 24th. I hope by then there will be no more reasons to postpone it, because we have been postponing it for several months now. I just want this to be over soon and for Smokey to feel good т.т

The fairy lantern light ✿ warrenwren ◃🩵▹ #CommsOpen #art #furry #illustration #furryart #digitalart #digital

One artist drew my Mintie! Look how funny it turned out, I really love it 🥹🩷

I promised to show the watermarks I'm making, here you go ;3 I actually originally just made a watermark for myself, and then a few people I know asked me to make them one too... So now it's my mini part-time job <:

On the 10th we will go to the vet clinic again for a checkup with Smokey. If all is well and the surgeons are free, then maybe she will have surgery on the same day. I'm worried, eh

WIP 🩷

And another interesting fact: I don't speak English, I use a translator and double-check everything I write 100 times, but I'm still afraid of making a mistake and that you'll think I'm a stupid bun ;"D