as it turns out, it's kind of difficult to apply gauze on your own. its a crappy job, but it'll have to do. またjisho.orgに言葉を勉強しに行く。 OK！「扱う」（一日に忘れると思うlol） 一人で自分を扱いにくい。 上手じゃないそう。

首は治ったみたいです。 よかった！！！！！ 自動車事故しながら、怖くてすぎた。 luckyだった！luckyすぎた。ugh. 私の傷の形はちょっと心みたいです。 きれいじゃないから、見せない。 早く治るといいんですが！ 自動車事故を長く思い出したら、大丈夫じゃないな気持ち。 でも忘れにくい。 (her sword is radioactive. she's immune to it's effects. i'm not sure how that works biologically...)

旅行の時、blueskyで一回のアムステルダムを話した。just once!!!!!!! (maybe twice.) 毎日「アムステルダムでおはよう」の新しいポストを見る！ハールレム はどうでもよくてすみません！（きれいな写真だった） 本当に大変じゃない。日本語で話したかった。

so i finished the model but the head is too low poly relative to the rest of the body... annoying. either way... it didn't exactly come out like draft i made. midway through making it i drew this character and then i wanted to model them instead. i was also playing ff8 so squall influenced it too.

just had the most chill deep of night 4 run which can best be surmised with this clip. recluse is so relaxing...

finally getting around to organizing one of my OC charts so they're not just living in my head and scattered around various drawings and idea texts i send myself also writing little bios! i haven't written in forever though, and it really shows...

illustrated: inorganic "inoculation"— i, introduced into imminent inertia—ignite internal indignation illy. that is to say. holy shit. whiplash sucks.

今朝は自動車事故だった。 「車の災」の言葉が知らない。いいよ 自転車に乗ってた！なんと？？？？ いたああああああい！！！ 私は英語で言ったくてたら、 「THIS FREAKING SUCKS!」って。 死なないから、嬉しいけど、肩は大丈夫じゃない。バイトは難しくなる。

眠い。バイト嫌い　:P 強くないん。(もっと寝なきゃ)。 けど、強くなりたくない。(姿好き) 今週は寒かった。0°くらいで自転車に乗ってる。たいていセーターを着るから、暖かい。 道じゃないから、車がない! 自転車を乗るながら車が大嫌い！ 近すぎて！あああ死なないで乗りたい！ 運転人が怖い。 写真！

when there are 8 hours left in the shift (plus a lunch) ((so i guess it's 8 hours and 30 minutes)) (((when there are 8 hours and 30 minutes left in the shift))) ((((oh my god))))

if i ever had to fight a dual-sword wielding quasi-legal municipal authority member established in the aftermath of a plot-inciting incident, i would use my favorite fire poker. i would also lose. handily! 絵は私が火ロッドで喧嘩している。 1分に負ける。その人は勝ちます。 絵は日本語で話しにくい！

BIOS colors... i was supposed to share commute photos. but i was too lazy.

ただいまあー。 星がない。雲んだ。 部屋が寒い。私の窓をまだこわれている。明日に直す。

ill miss having time to kill at the train stations. it was a good habit to just write about whatever random things came to my mind it’ll be harder to maintain that self discipline at home (especially when all my brain wants to do is easy things like games. or sleeping. or laying on the floor.)

国に帰った。まだ家でいない 何かを書きつもりだった。眠すぎて。 もっと2時間に続きなきゃ。

airplane time…!

doodles before boarding. i haven’t drawn in a while. i kind of forgot how to draw…

空港で待っている。今晩は帰国する、が、ごぜん1時に家に帰る。明日は6時に起きなきゃ。。。bleh！便がつまらない。もうつまらない。 私はもっと漢字を思い出しなければいけません。30くらい知る。

旅行するながら、いつ日寒いといいんだった。 今日は雨！風が寒い。大好きよ。 天気が悪いかあら、空はきれい。 雨の天気が大好きとくり返し言ったい。 今、森の中でみんなが忘れた水建物を見に行きって。

thinking about how fashionable some ppl were in germany…there were so many cool looking ppl who rocked the andro style i was so jealous. actually my outfits weren’t terrible myself but on account of having to pack i couldn’t bring as many cool outfits as i wouldve liked.

今日は電車がまた遅い。一時間遅いでもけっこうです。駅で見物できないからちょっと悪い。しょうがない！電車があります！2時間の間に電車を乗る。 兄はダイエットコカコーラを買いた。たくさんヨロプ国で買えないと言って。変ねー。ダイエット飲み物が悪いと思う。炭酸水が好き。 私のヘッドホンを壊れる。弟のを使いっているでも左ホンが右ホンより静かです。ちょっと便利じゃない。 (ホン？言葉生？知らないw) 日本語文法をくり返し忘れるから、難し文を書きつもり。いつか日本語は上手になるといいんです。

you can really tell when i get motivated to work on any given specific thing based on how much i post abt it here lol.

ドイツで、今日、11月11日はカーニバルです。あなたは知っていたか？私は知っていなかった！賑やかすぎてよ！さつは駅を閉めた。出にくかった、全部電車が遅い。今日はちょっと「クラスターファック」だったのに楽しいよ！ 昨日はデュッセルドルフで最後日です。街は好きになった！ ちょっと 自分日本語の話！時々、私は誰も日本語が話せるが知らないから、勉強しにくい。日本人はコネチカットで住まない！オンラインで新友達に会うのが難しすぎる。(social anxiety!!!) でも私は大丈夫と思う。友達にあっても私の日本語が足りない。じゃ！もっと勉強！勉強してから勉強してから勉強してから勉強。眠になる！

本屋に行きた。日本語を話したかったでも怖かった。何も言わない！ あ、兄は私に電車の砂を話すが欲しい。あのう。電車の下で砂がある。 やばい。(うそ) 街の中で神社です！きれいだった。どうしてあるでが分からない。lol。 次は、クルン。 私は何かに知っていた。英語で思うから、日本語の書きにくい。

弟は日本語を勉強の始めたから、私も日本語が続きます。弟に手伝ってあげたいんです。 ドイツに旅行した。デュッセルドルでいます。ドイツ語分からない。みんなは英語を話せるから、大丈夫。電車はいいよ！シュニッツェルを食べてみた。とんかつのようなと思う。 たくさん日本人はここに住んでいるのが知らない。昨夜、もちを食べてみた。本当に、ちょっと変！でも好きね。 今晩は、日本食べ物を食べつもり。おいしいといいんですよ！ (ヴッパータールの写真です) もっと日本語の書き込み(言葉は何？？？)を書きたい。便利じゃないでも勉強しなきゃ！ (that took a lot of effort…)

my hands aren't moving properly in my room. it's so cold in here, and i'm putting my fingers in a mostly dead candle to warm them up. running a heater would blow a fuse. i need another candle...

an ms paint sketch (if you could call it that) depicting an otherwise uninteresting personal chimera of banalities.

"there's work to do." i quote this ^ yunaka line (and fire emblem in general ig) a ridiculous amount. for all its flaws i still really like engage. i enjoy the gameplay so much more compared to 3h. i hope the new fe is something in between or they just. balance it better this time. maybe?

i never thought i would hear the words karl anthony towns and william afton in the same sentence. but then i listened to matpat utter such a thing i can’t imagine kat watching a fnaf lore video i just can’t

CONTENT TO BE SLIGHTLY FORLORN. i watch over the garden wall annually every fall... fall is hard for me, but this show makes it just a little easier.

mindless mundane musings. may my mopey minutiae make myself mere mockery. multiple misunderstood myopic moods mediate mania. might my malleable mindset mimic more meaningful media- metaphorically, mine mine mines 'medals' mercurial. haven't been drawing much- doing other stuff! scribbles:

this one crosswalk button sign might be the highlight of my trip to boston… while sure, the impressive scale, AMAZING (relatively) transportation and variety of kinds of people carry much more weight, i feel a stupid kinship in sentiment with the person who did this, and that makes it really cool.

the earth REALLY doesn't want to hear your 'saving the world' elevator pitch right now... so it sent a rather rattled replica resembling you to make you to get out of its room. you probably won't, though.

distance learning interaction dialogue 'looking back at the computer, it seems while you were gone, the teacher has lost connection. at least, all of the students are trying to convince her of such.'

acknowledgment: addressing ahistorical adjustments: artistic alterations and additions ahead!. aimless ambition akin agar apparent, an abysmally anxious academic, ambivalently audience amongst any affair antipathic- appointed attainment absent atop anatomic atlas, achievements' absence ails.

i found these wooden block guys i played with as a kid today. now they remind me of an enemy toby fox would make, or a deltarune ch 1 enemy so i gave them hypothetical inspect and flavor text they'd first be seen blocking nothing off to the side but they'd later block the way and start an encounter

people actually can't see my eyes now, apparently. good! everyone is telling me to cut my hair, or to grow it out, or to style it, or this and that. i wish i could keep it at this length indefinitely. hopefully it stays this length till halloween... then maybe ill TRIM it if its too long by then.

Deltarune Chapter 5 (Spoilers!!!): When the S'moreing Knight S'mores... All will fall into GRAHAM CRACKER.

Peanut Butter! (Employed)

{when} did you want to meet? {what} did you want to meet? {where} did you want to meet? [how] can it speak three words at once?

i havent drawn in over a week because im having too much fun playing nightreign. this might be bad

old drawing from like 3 years ago when i was in general chemistry. AgNO3 (l) + Pb (s) > something dangerous probably... but there's only one way to find out

えええ？？？アベック？何それ？？？？一つフランス語言葉思い出せた。かっこいそう思ったから書いた。well, it's a little inaccurate. i had a phase around 2020 so i know like ten words tops. 「only」の日本語言葉で知ってない。日本語で書きながら辞書見すぎるね。

farmers tan. it doesn't bother me, but sometimes i notice it and then think, 'oh'. this is the second time today ive noticed a mistake in my post immediately after posting it and then having to delete it and fix it

finally,「it is good to be go home」i say, staring at the clock i count each second. eventually,「i have to return to my terrible job」 i say, staring at the clock until the end of the shift. finally,「it is good to be go home」i say, staring at the clock i count each second. まあ、「いきじごくちゃんエスケープ」歌が大好き。

Il faut croire en son Kazket! intérieur. 26/06/2025

got last journey stuck in my head again. it’s so good. iyowa’s first album is still my favorite of them all, and i always feel bad about that but i just love the sounds and roughness of the album? his newer work is of better quality overall, but i just relate to sleeping pink noise so much more. idk

unfinished self portrait i was working on before i had to leave for vacation. i'll finish it when i get back home, hopefully.

i changed my mind. i might finish one of them

nothing i make is capturing how i feel right now and words never worked either. whatever seems to be all i can say ad nauseam all unfinished stuff i dislike. i wont finish any of them probably