you can’t care if people like you. you can’t care if people think you’re uninteresting. that’s not your business. (to myself)

I couldn't choose just one

ziyal always wants to be on my desk even though she's not allowed

I know lying in bed for an hour after I wake up isn’t good for my brain cause I ruminate on everything I can’t do anything about but I stg my body takes that long to boot up more often than not

craving emotional intimacy

not shaving my face for a few days to see what happens. it's been a good few years since I've done that. the sides are still definitely patchy, but how patchy? 🤔 17 years on t and the hair's still coming in more each year

yay I will be tabling (for the first time!) at a zine fair in raleigh, nc in late september 😎

maurice sketch

I was talking with my sister just last week about how knowing queer history (recent & otherwise) as a trans person today can provide a lot of perspective on our place within a fight that has always been fought by us & will continue to be fought by us. there is always hope but it’s within each other

I would still love to organize something some day. I have a few collaborative project/zine ideas written out in my notebook and feel some way when I stumble across them. I'm all too aware that I am in no mental state to be responsible for something that large any time soon. but I crave it 🤲

got some cheap mixed greens (mainly) for the rats and there were a lot of dandelion greens in it, and I know the rats tend to not go for things that bitter, so I picked them all out and sautéed them and they were very good! I also roasted acorn squash seeds which the rats go NUTS for

clean clothes, clean towels, clean sheets, clean room ✨😌

Velvet worm mug from last year!

I like growing my nails long but past a certain length I accidentally stab myself in the palm at least once an hour

thinking about this again. I love cinematography and fell off giving it time in my life, but I should again. I'm really interested in how understanding film informs static and sequential mediums like illustration & comics. I think about the art that is in me that is so different than what I've made

kissing sounds nice, I bet it's nice (if it's not, don't tell me)

so everyone else enjoys yearning for gay breastfeeding i see i see 🤔 i don’t often bother to specify anymore that most of my illustration (excluding my mini zines, which have more range) is of gay trans men but i figure there are typically enough context clues

suddenly had a vision when I was a barista several years ago of when a customer asked if we served spaghetti. she was genuinely confused that we didn't. shoutout to the person who insisted that it WAS a starbucks (it was not). also the person who said we had too many iced tea options and walked out

a couple graphite and charcoal drawings from 2022

my printer has stopped recognizing the toner (off brand) which is stupid. I guess there is potentially a fix, something to do with the chip in the toner cartridge, but I am annoyed

i love… hole…

excerpt two pages from my sketchbook in 2022 where I wrote something in an extremely horny haze then did some little drawings to go with it. I always liked these drawings even though to me the combined work is almost embarrassing in its earnestness. don't look inside my head like that lol

a couple graphite and charcoal drawings from 2022

I want to draw maurice getting fisted but I'm so sleepy

you can’t care if people like you. you can’t care if people think you’re uninteresting. that’s not your business. (to myself)

difficult to get this on video but ziyal does this every morning before breakfast <3

in bed this morning listening to ziyal sniffling. I feel bad cause she’s always drippy but she’s been to the vet several times and I’ve tried changing her bedding, etc but nothing seems to help :(

drawing from 2023

it's a miracle that anyone who's met me via social media has been like "I gotta hear more of what this guy's talking about" lol

I'm so bad at making long form stories cause when I draw something I want to show everyone RIGHT NOW. anyway I drew a good split open face today

recent used bookstore things :)

woke up feeling beat up and it’s a billion degrees out already and my leg is killing me but I’m gonna drag myself to the arboretum to roast in the sun and look for bugs anyway. then come home and die when I remember it’s rat cage cleaning day and I still have to do that

life is hard. some things in life are really hard

screaming I woke up sad and was like, I better find a good used cd today

what's wrong, maurice?

hairy trans guys are so hot

what's wrong, maurice?

it's been really good to get back into drawing on a regular basis. I've been doing at least an hour a day consistently, which isn't much, but is a lot more than I had been. the downside is my hand pain ramped back up again immediately. it's frustrating that I can't throw myself into it like I want

bought chocolate chips today so I could make cookies tonight but I also cooked a bunch earlier and am tired so can someone transform this into cookies please? thanks

stressed out

it's disgusting that actually drawing comics makes you better at it. who decided that

got sweaty. saw bugs.

it's supposed to be a little cooler tomorrow so I've gotta make myself get up early so I can do the arboretum. summer here sucks

so, if they successfully used jughead to keep the plane from crashing, they wouldn't be landing in LAX, they would be landing in Fiji, since the reason the plane was flying over the island was because it had turned back. I mean the whole concept is preposterous anyway. (midnight LOST thoughts)

why have I never drawn fisting and/or prolapse? what am I waiting for

looking through all the nudes I’ve taken to find the nail polish looks I want to recreate. i’m faggot (doing dark olive green with gold tips again)

btw if any artists I’ve been friendly with have a (small) discord server they’re looking to add someone to, I really miss talking to more people and am wanting to socialize. I kind of isolated myself the past year+ for necessary personal reasons but I need to get back out there in the real world.

someone remind me to apply to the local zine fest tomorrow before applications close

flat

some initial sketches of Luis and Maurice from the still unnamed comic I’m working on