It's weird reading back on old chat logs and being like "huh, I used to not be completely dead inside". No wonder nobody wants to talk to me anymore. Being damaged goods really sucks.

Was in terrible mental health a few days ago, took a couple of days away from messengers and social media, felt better, came back, and now immediately feeling worse again. Maybe I should finally pull the trigger on completely ceasing to exist online. Nothing I do or say matters. I get virtually […]

Just made a big mug of industrial strength hot chocolate from pure chocolate liquor wafers, and uh whew it's kinda doing things to me :blobfoxsweating: 💦 Basically strong caffeine buzz but also horny

This whole one medical thing after another BS has got to stop. There's things I want to be working on but I feel like trash every day and have no energy to even do anything. Starting to feel really depressed and like giving up on everything again.

Sometimes I wonder if I'd have more friends and people who actually want to talk to me if my fursona was still a hyena. I'm not going to revert because I'm a lot happier in foxmode, but yeah it does make me wonder.

Maxed out my 401k as far as possible while still being able to afford rent + bills + groceries. (I thought I already had, but somehow it was waaaay lower than I remember setting it to?) Definitely not inspired by my tax dollars being used to fund the terrorism and murder being committed against […]

This has always been a stone cold classic but it's never felt as relevant as it does now. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWoNSADanoA

I'm so mad I only discovered the band Chrome in the past month or so, like how did I miss out on this stuff for all these years? They're from my old stomping grounds of San Francisco too! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6MqV-1oVRgo

Kryptonite for perfectionist paralysis: If I don't nail game mechanics in the project I want to work on, I can just make a sequel that's better after getting feedback from actual people, instead of all these imaginary flaws and design pitfalls I'm scared of falling into

[vore (-)] In my head: vore is awesome, I love it After seeing 90+% of vore artwork where it's just mindlessly cruel murder-cannibalism: vore is stupid, I hate it

Hack 'n slosh: Combat oriented action game where you are also a huge, ponderous, sloshing balloon

Realizing at 10:10pm that today was not in fact a Wednesday

Just a little something from 35 years ago: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XWso2Kx4-KE

[uspol] The question everyone should actually be asking after the illegal invasion of a sovereign nation: "Okay cool, but where's the rest of the unredacted files you violated the law by not releasing?" ...like you know this is only being done to bury the Epstein files in the news cycle right?

"We're just... we're just hollow men" "...what do you mean, 'hollow men'?" "We're just stuffed men!"

After deciding to give up on drawing at the beginning of this year, I have to admit it hasn't really done anything for me except show me what I'm going to be doing for the rest of my life if I let myself off the hook for putting the work into creative endeavors just because I don't like the […]

🎶Some velvet morning when I'm GAY I'm gonna open up your GAYte And maybe tell you 'bout GAYdra And how she GAYve me life And how she made it GAY🎶

Sure is great to be guilt-tripped for not choosing to make my sciatica pain infinitely worse by doing two 4+ hour drives during two consecutive atmospheric rivers while I'm on prescription meds. And I'm the one who's spending the holiday alone.

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The meds I'm taking for the sciatica pain are not conducive to getting any sort of writing or other creative work done. Getting bored and frustrated.

Setting up Waterfox to avoid the impending sloppification of Firefox, main pain point is that favicons in the new tab/homepage screen just refuse to update or download properly a lot of the time. Also having to find and reinstall every extension...

Back pain was doing better over the past several days, then last night just instantly got worse than ever while leaning over to use the sink. Couldn't sleep. Got an appointment finally but now I'm nervous about driving on no sleep.

A single speck of breadcrumb touching the heating element of your toaster for less than a half minute inexplicably results in your entire apartment smelling like burnt awfulness for hours.

When you get the premise and setup of a kink story out of the way and can finally get to the part you *actually* wanted to write

Would like to see some -WIS -WIS -WIS (or -PIE -PIE -PIE if you like Wizardry) or -CHA -CHA -CHA in kink art instead of just -INT -INT -INT

bradley.

Bored. Want to write. Sitting hurts. This sucks.

[kind of a shitpost, but only kind of] What leaving a reply on a non-mutual's post and it gets zero interaction feels like when you have RSD

Really cool that as soon as I resolved to start cleaning up and posting my writing, back pain decided to get worse enough that I can't really focus on it anymore, and the pain just keeps getting worse somehow. Ugh.

Being slubbed by a big drooly over-affectionate balloon 'possum, totally coated in latex slobber to the point you get turned into a balloon yourself

Fun fact: if you hold a wolf's muzzle closed just as it starts howling, it will fwoomp into a big fuzzy balloon. Try it sometime!

Is there a furry website that's better than Furaffinity for posting stories? The microscopic thumbnail image resolution and clunky upload interface are really putting me off.

Thought about a latex TF/inflation kink scenario I wrote out several years ago, dug up the rough draft and re-read it, and dang I think it's a few fixed typos away from being postable. Much hotter than I remember. It's weird how I'll assume my slightly older writing will be really bad and need […]

Tyger Tyger, burning bright, Won't you guide my sleigh tonight?

When you plan ahead by pre-mixing pancake ingredients the night before? Plancakes.

On the more positive side, I made an apple crisp and it smells REALLY good.

OK, finally turning the text/ringtone audio back on after turning it off some years ago. Missed a call about helping out with a day late Thanksgiving dinner and didn't see it until over an hour later. I've been dreading this though. Even the vibration and screen turning on is a PTSD trigger […]

Oogh, as much of a waffle fiend as I am, I really love french toast. Ever since I learned about the trick where you sprinkle sugar on it before flipping it to cook on the second side and make a crunchy caramelized crust, there's no going back. This is just the only correct way to make french […]

Spotted skunks are so dang cute. I'm willing to bet the reason you almost never see spotted skunk fursonas is because their fur pattern would be a nightmare to draw accurately for most artists.

When you pet a cat:

Came to the tinfoil hat realization that the FM Towns CD logo is almost definitely taken from the 1986 Macintosh game Puppy Love.

[mh-] Feel like I've been fending it off as long as possible this year, but time to admit I'm officially Depressed. No energy to do anything besides play videogames, zero creative output, food doesn't taste as good, apartment is a mess that I don't feel like dealing with, everything just feels […]

[uspol] TIL donkey is the only species of mammal that's also an invertebrate.

What a good morning looks like: making banana bread waffles and listening to Boards Of Canada Also this has to be every inflatable fur's favorite BOC track: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yKSJUG5cjRo

So what's the context for the latest bluesite kerfuffle? I've been seeing a lot of people alluding to something that happened but no links to anything.

[uspol] Just a reminder that executive orders are not laws, have no real weight to them, and the entire intention of the latest one is empty threats and intimidation. Don't flinch. They're weak.

Should learn to play a cover of this on hammered dulcimer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwcKwGS7OSQ

Looking forward to having weather that lets me sleep normally again so I can work on some stuff I've been putting off. Chronic sleep deprivation from heat wave after heat wave is seriously messing me up.

Fatfur/latex idea: balloon fur with a dense inner layer of heavy, squishy, jiggly latex foam. Perfect for hugs, or smooshings...

I thought I was going to hate Elminage Gothic, but it's one of the most deliciously sadistic and bonkers games I've played in a long time