spaghetti is a fucking banger

how tf did you miss me when I am home all day bc i‘m sick? liars 🤧

tucked him in as joke, didn‘t expect to find him still like this when coming back bc he usually never stays under blankets 😭

started korean lessons on preply and my teacher is really nice but also i feel like there’s smoke coming out of my ears rn afterwards bc she’s talking so fast and there’s so much korean and no subtitles help (but i think it’s gonna be really effective in helping to learn)

made it through a hellish week at work, hit all my deadlines, was looking forward to the weekend since Tuesday, ONLY TO GET HIT WITH THE FLU ON FRIDAY AFTERNOON ARE YOU KIDDING ME-

i really really don’t want to go to treatment today. since they changed the pre-meds it takes a full 5 hours and time just doesn’t pass at all, although i have a book, phone, laptop, etc. 😖

it took me longer to edit the new ‘there’s bones in my closet’ chapter than to write it 😮‍💨

✨ there‘s bones in my closet (but you hang stuff anyway) - skz ot8 - a/b/o - pack dynamics - hurt/comfort chapter 26 now on ao3: archiveofourown.org/works/488821...

the most gorgeous autumn day, perfect for reading in the park 🍂

i had such a nice day but everything hurts and honestly all i want now is a hot bath and my bed, i‘m so tired 😴

secured my friends tickets for twice in paris. good opportunity to practice for the great bts ticket war of 2026, although it wasn’t that bad. the adrenaline rush tho is real

got a sneak peak of the exhibitions our museums are hosting in 2028 and they’re sooooo exciting like the artist are amazing and i’m not allowed to share anything about it to anyone for like at least another year i suppose omg 😔

me at my coworkers (but not in a positive way)

why yes, being blonde again after 8 yrs was fun for a bit, but really i’m a red head at heart.

having a sleepover at my friends to finally watch the boys 2 planet finale together ✨

me when my husband is on my side of the bed: 😤😩💢⛓️🧨🗡️🪦 me when our dog takes up my side of the bed: 🥰✨💞🌸🌈

twice in europe in may, getting tickets for them soon is going to be great practice for the great bloody ticket war of bts yet to come 🫡

I AM SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP WHAT THE FUCK OMFG

hyunjin x jeongin 2kr pls they are such an overlooked pairing i love their chemistry so much (as if that’s not the case with literally all the 2kr but shhhh)

no clue why but i suddenly gpt hit with such a bad skz post concert depression out of nowhere. it’s been 2 months, wtf 😪

autumn is layover season, i didn’t make the rules

omw to the airport now, will arrive in cold and rainy Vienna in the evening. which i’m not mad about, autumn is my favorite season and i’m ready to embrace it after a final week in the sun 🍂

Oh god, it's so much worse from this angle *faceplants into a puddle of tears*

fell in love with the quaintest little village called Laguardia in northern Spain.

bye bye Spain. finishing the trip with two more days in Portugal before going home. (hopefully they speak more English than ppl in Northern Spain. had to fight for our lives with my 5 yrs of high school Spanish bc so many of them couldn’t or didn’t want to speak English 😶‍🌫️)

view so beautiful i fell to my knees. (literally bc i tripped over the stairs omw up to the view point)

writing a hyunbin fic with mage!hyunjin as the owner of a magical shop and human!changbin who has no clue that supernatural beings are real a cute and cozy fic to fit the autumn vibes. it’s been living in my head rent free for weeks now.

I cannot with them 💀

blood levels are starting to normalize again, got the ok from the doctor to fly to spain tomorrow ✨✨✨✨✨

been teaching literature at university the past few years during winter term next to my full-time job and i love it. hurts my heart but i just had to cancel this year’s seminar bc with all the cancer stuff going on i fear i wouldn’t be able to pull through. The topic would have been so good 😭

fall friends 🍂

ok ct scan back and no changes in the metastases so that is niiiice 🥰

patiently waiting for my season

they have fancy new posters on the mri door… i need someone to explain to me why there’s a fork and knife on that poster tho? Like who’s bringing those to a scan lmao

visual representation of how i’m feeling today

blood work for my liver so whack i get no therapy today and emergency mri and ct tomorrow to figure out if it’s the metastasis growing again 1 1/2 months earlier than planned or if my body has other problems so that’s ✨fun✨

anxiety meds really are life-changing, i only need to contemplate phone calls for a minute now and then i actually make them instead of pushing it away for days (weeks) or never doing it at all. makes life so much easier. like damn, it’s that easy to make a call?

chan posting pictures of rome pls i wanna turn time back and do it again and go back to rome and relive the concert 😭😭😭😭😭

also this lee know is doing things to me that i can’t explain omfg STUNNING

Seungmin being in his feelings on bubble at 3 am now has me in my feelings 😭😭😭

had a v productive 2 1/2 hr meeting for work and now it’s time to take my son for a walk before the rain begins. my son is not amused. look how sulky he looks omg.

gained some weight after the cancer came back (and that is okay) but now that summer is almost over and i can’t only wear skirts/dresses anymore i should start losing those extra kilograms again bc i fit in none of my pants comfortably anymore and i hate shopping so i don’t wanna buy new ones 🧎‍♀️

we’ve entered the -ember months, i’m ready for the ghost of fall to possess me 🍂🍁🍄‍🟫 and we’re kicking it off with - you guessed it, another round of cancer treatment today. spooooooky. 👻

Lee know with that glitter in Bleep let a girl live omfg i love the look 🧎‍♀️

LIKE LOOK AT HIM

matched my outfit with my van gogh miffy today 🩵🤍

summer nights. 💛

husband is coming to the rescue and picking me up bc i’ll miss my connecting train ✨ also he keeps sending me lizard lizard lizard reels on insta and i don’t get it 😭

i’m too tipsy to deal with train delays omg pls have mercy with me 😭