Lily Allen’s “West End Girl” just goes to show scorched-earth albums are the best kind of albums. It almost makes me wish I had a horrible relationship and a messy divorce of my own lmao

I’ll never get Europe. If the daylights saving time lasts for seven months, why not make it the permanent time zone? Or call the other five months the new daylights saving time?

Decided to read here for how long I have been feeling bad about my new job and apparently it’s been from week 2 onwards lmao. Clear sign I should go

32 days for my probatory period to end at work. I’m so done already I’m honestly praying to be let go. Every day I’m counting the seconds.

Thinking about how I ruined my career by being greedy and wanting to be paid a better salary. Now I’m well paid but unhappy and every day I wonder how things could have been if I had accepted my lifeline outside marketing back in 2023.

My favourite thing about the recent big layoff in Estonia (iykyk) is watching people that haven’t given a crap to me in ages (colleagues, acquaintances and “friends” alike) suddenly remember that I exist and try to ask me for help with job recommendations or CVs lmao. Good riddance

The toilet in my office stays inside another closed room and there’s a delay on the light switch. Every time I go pee, I turn on the lights outside, enter, close the door and stay under perfect darkness for like 5 seconds. No light leaks inside. It’s amazing.

Tough week losing my pet and then having a medical emergency. Life do be like that

Welp, no Steam Silksong for me. Thankfully there’s still the Switch 2!

Prayer chain for Steam to let us buy Silksong today

My Steam backlog just gets bigger and bigger. 187 unplayed games. Almost 300 games in total. I desperately need a millionaire sugar daddy to pay my bills. The 10 hours away from home are eating precious gaming time 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

I had my access card hanging in a neck lanyard at the bus, secured and safe. By the time I arrive at work, I have neither my lanyard nor my access card anywhere. Is that a) normal? b) inattentive ADHD? c) an evil spirit making me lose things? d) all of the above?

The most remarkable thing about Bluesky is how little it offers in terms of negativity. Recommended posts are never inflammatory or with horrible takes

I’ve been playing Date Everything, OBSESSIVELY I won’t rest until all the NSFW fanart of Dorian make way into my phone

Serving European realness today (I forgot to use deodorant when leaving home)

Pretty Soldier Sailor Moon: CD-ROM Genga-shuu (Kodansha, Mac, 1994)

Spent the day playing Dream Daddy and I can’t believe I’m into the dating sim genre again

Every time I read Chinese news in English about internet and culture, they’re always using the word “netizens” and I feel like I’m reading some boomer talking about “surfing the web” in the early 2000s

Rindo um pouca

My grandma used to make a soup for us with whatever veggie was in season, as well as legumes and leaves. She called it “trash soup”. Today I went to an Italian cafe, ordered minestrone (which I have never had). And to my surprise, it was the same soup from my grandma. Trash Soup is minestrone.

Mantra for the week: I am not responsible for the things I have no control over. It’s fine to stay in my boundaries.

I walk up 27 stair flights and roughly 15000 steps per day. I take thyroid medication religiously. I have a very plant-based, high-fiber, low-fat, low-salt diet. I do intermittent fasting from 18:00 to 08:00. And yet I only lost weight while on an extreme diet. Sigh. I wish I could do Ozempic.

Working in English, having meetings in Estonian and French, writing emails in Spanish and checking Polish and German text. God, I love multicultural companies!

Burning bridges keeps the heart warm.

It’s so weird when you’re in a loving relationship with a nice guy and you have flashbacks of your previous life, pining for really handsome but emotionally sterile and mentally impoverished guys whose only merit in life is being hot. Like… What did those people even have to offer?

Had a stellar first week at my new job followed by a fumble today. Of course my brain decided that this makes me A Failure™️

After 2 years of therapy, I’m on remission from health anxiety and have been formally discharged today! To everyone who struggles with mental health issues: you can and WILL get better. And remember therapy also happen in between sessions: workbooks, videos, education, practicing skills.

Just realizing that statistically speaking I am closer to death than to being born. How is that even possible? I still feel like I’m starting to figure life. This can’t be the 50% of my adventure.

I’m in a (mostly) vegetarian streak these days and I discovered the tastiest frozen falafel ever. It’s from a brand called Salomon and the name is Funky Falafel. In Estonia it’s sold in KariaMarket. It has beetroot crust and filled with edamame and herbs. Simply amazing!

Porcupine Tree sang in 2002, in “The Sound of Muzak”, about the dangers of leaving art to marketers, grifters, machines. It feels so prescient: “One of the wonders of the world Is going down It’s going down, I know It’s one of the blunders of the world And no one cares No one cares enough”

A dream is coming true - I’m leaving the igaming industry today. Good riddance! Ever since moving to Europe I was dead set on the goal to never work with igaming companies ever again, from day one of working in the industry. Fintech, here I go!

Regretting my bad life choices (doing the laundry late evening and having to hang the clothes to dry at bedtime)

I’m still 100% Laulupilled and all I can think of is entering a 5 year coma to wake up to the next Laulupidu.

Last week working in the igaming industry. Good riddance. Two more weeks to a new beginning in fintech!

The AI booth with rahvarõivad (traditional clothes) was pretty cool! My heart belongs to Mulgimaa but the shirt from Setomaa did it for me. Really cool initiative, Postimees! #laulupidu

That’s it, Estonia. I’m 100% Laulupilled.

And now a small thread of observations from #Laulapidu #Iseoma from the perspective of a foreigner who has been in Estonia for some time.

I’m on the verge of complete physical exhaustion and shut down post-Laulupidu but it was SO worth it. I felt elation and joy for almost 10 uninterrupted hours. Especially when Mari Kalkun’s “Elukoor” debuted in choir form in the festival. Laulupidu, suur tänu!

Väga ilusad rahvarõivad see mees kandis laulupeol. Kust saaksin samasugused leida/osta? 🫨 #laulupidu

I moved to Estonia a couple months after the last Laulupidu. Can’t believe that not only I’m still here, but also I’m going to witness the biggest cultural event of the nation from the VIP area during the closing ceremony. Counting the seconds to Sunday!

Getting three injections inside my rectum were not in my 2025 bingo but here I am. Worst pain of my entire life.

Life as a human has been fun but next time I wanna give it a go at existence as a queer couple’s dog

Prayer chain for my salary to arrive in my bank account today

Landed a job outside the gambling industry and in the finance sector. Got approved in the Estonian B1 certification. It feels like everything I have fought for is finally bearing fruit and I can’t feel prouder than I do now.

The last days of working in a place and industry you really don’t vibe with really feels like heaven. No longer stress from 9 to 5, just a gentle brain massage and counting the days to working in an actual legit industry/workplace

Been on the countryside for a couple of days. No water in the house. It’s been somewhat freeing to just be whip it out and pee in the grass. (Except for this pervert cat that stares at my junk every morning)

People hold Shift to do capital letters when typing. I press Caps Lock, press a letter, then Caps Lock again. Fight me

Had a dream fully in Japanese in which I went to a mall in Japan where there was a bookstore where they only sold editions of Yoshikawa Eiji’s “Musashi”

futurism.com/chatgpt-poll... We finally reached a point where all data on the internet is subject to AI contamination. Every model is now fed AI-generated content to generate in turn even more AI-content.

I prepared a rice so bad, I can feel my entire ancestral bloodline laughing at me from the beyond