Had a big day today, lots going on, praying real hard for peace for my family and especially healing for my mom. I'm trying to trust whatever is happening, it's just very difficult.

My mom is in the hospital again, and its worse than it has been before. Any thoughts/prayers/etc would be greatly appreciated. I need her to get through this, she deserves to live the best life she can.

Lots of stress, lots of things happening, but theres always a sliver of hope if you look for it. Today, I choose joy.

Good news from the doctor appointment today, on a "wait and monitor" situation since one of my issues continues to get better. \o/ Have an appointment with a different doctor in 2 weeks, got a lot to do in the next bit before then tho. Wish me luck!

Packing up my office today and it's making me feel a lot of feelings. I've streamed/recorded from this office for the past 4 years. I built so much of my streaming life and community within these 4 walls. There's been so much sorrow and so much fun in this room.

Current mood. Life is kicking into overdrive this week, but I'm gonna kick back harder. Wish me luck to not go crazy!

Starting new meds today, feel ok so far but still need to see how things go long-term. Please send good vibes/prayers for minimal side effects with good outcomes. 🙏

when life feels out of control, buy a plant. i bought new roses today.

Hope everyone is doing well; Things have been progressing ok in the CheeseCat household. Have some doctor appointments coming up, consults for some diagnostic procedures, and moving soon. Wish me luck for good news and painless procedures! 💖

I have discovered the perfect late breakfast/early lunch. Slice of whole wheat toast with chicken salad on top, a sprinkle of celery salt, a small side of cottage cheese and a handful of strawberries. I've been eating this for a week straight and I don't think I will stop.

Slow but steady progress is key. Taking things day by day, moment by moment, remembering to breathe. That is how I will get through this.

Saw a Corner Community member bought some of my merch from UwU Market and I nearly broke down crying. This year has been so hard for me, but seeing that reminded me people still believe in me. I hope I'll be back to streaming sooner rather than later.

Courage isn't the absence of fear. Courage is being scared and doing it anyway. I'm doing my best to be courageous.

Things are hard but I'm doing my best to out my best foot forward and take another step. Please wait for this silly cat. I will come back stronger than ever.

I'm going on hiatus effective immediately. I dont know when I'll be back. Life has taken a turn for the worse and I cant have any of my focus on streaming right now. Im sorry, I love you guys, I hope I'll be back in the nearer future instead of the far future.

Me: Wow, this has been a hell of a year. Everyone: Martyr, it's only the end of January. Me:

It's so weird to see when random people block me. How did you see me? What did I do? Is it because I'm an anime girl? It's confusing af.

Got an ultrasound done today to make sure parts of my health are good. My follow up to go over the results is in a month. 🧍‍♀️... Now to try to not drive myself crazy with anxiety waiting.

Just when one health thing seems to be wrapping up/getting taken care of, another one comes up to take its place. I'm so fucking tired, y'all.

With any luck, mom will be leaving the hospital in the next few days. Thank you for all of your love and support, it's been immensely helpful to me and my family. I've been terrified of losing my mom the same way I lost my dad. Please keep us in your thoughts/prayers still. ♡

Bad news: My mom is in the hospital. Good news: She sounds a lot better today than she did when she first got there. My test results from Wednesday came back and everything was normal. Trying to stay grateful for the good and hopeful that the bad will get better. ♡

Lesson from my doctor appointment that had nothing to do with the appointment - Softness, gentleness, and delicacy are just as important as strength. Being gentle with yourself is just as important as being tough with yourself. Find balance.

Trying not to have a panic attack before a doctor appointment is the worst lol. Please send good vibes/prayers, I need all the strength I can get today.

Have been able to sit at my computer more again recently! I wasn't able to sit at my PC for the first week and a half of January due to medical reasons, but I've been able to enjoy my PC again in small bursts and I'm so happy! Hoping this improvement continues!

Stream Update: Until further notice, I will only be scheduling one stream a week due to health reasons. It will be on Fridays and it will be Expedition 33. I will try to get more streams on the books as I feel better/figure things out. Sorry for the inconvenience. ♡

Making a joke about ICE on stream is a choice. Not a choice I would have made but definitely a choice.

Thank you for hanging out tonight! My health may be a shit rn, but hanging out with you all always makes me feel better at heart. ♡ Big thanks to @4buttonsoul.bsky.social for the raid! We went to see @elliecartoonzz.art after we finished up!

Hi, I've been more or less absent due to medical stuff. Thank you for your patience, I am awful at remembering this site exists. ;w; Playing some Expedition 33, come hang out. <3

Thank you for hanging out tonight! ARC Raiders is inordinately fun~ We went to see @vtuberkadi.bsky.social afterwards with RE8!!

THIS WOULD BE THE FUNNIEST THING EVER, PLEASE LET THIS HAPPEN

Hello @martyrscorner.bsky.social and the Nekolyte community in 2026 please let this become the era of the air fryer art

YAY ARC RAIDERS! Thank you for hanging out, big thanks to @lordnach0.bsky.social and TTV/Denziel_Jones for joining me! We went to hang out with @eriabeillevt.bsky.social after we wrapped up!

Thank you for hanging out, CLAIR OBSCUR IS SO GOOOOOD!!! We went to watch more of it with ttv/bloomiho after we wrapped up!

i slept but i did not rest, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, the worst kind of sleep.

Thank you to everyone who came to see me at the Meet & Greet! It was so much fun, I can't put into words how much it means to me! ;w;

S O O N (tm)

TODAY~ If you're going to AWA, make sure to come say hi at the Virtual Meet & Greets! Mine starts at 7:15pm! Finish Day 1 with some love from your Cat Mom! ♡

Thank you for hanging out, everyone!!! Big thanks to @drexnorplays.bsky.social , ttv/TiredWMemes, and @brickmuppet.bsky.social for the raids! We went to see @kankurokingch.bsky.social for some Monday Night Magic after beating Remnant!!

Thank you for hanging out tonight everyone! Big thanks to ttv/CoachDorn for the raid! We went to see @spicyspykstr.bsky.social for some fun PEAK nonsense!

Playing #PokemonUnite with @lordnach0.bsky.social later today, I WANNA MAKE IT TO MASTER THIS SEASON RAAAAAAAAHHHHH twitch.tv/martyrscorner youtube.com/martyrscorner

Thank you for hanging out tonight! Havendock was a lot of fun! We went to see @eriabeillevt.bsky.social afterwards for FF Tactics!

Thank you guys for hanging out! We got the "bad end" in Hollow Knight! lmfao. Big thanks to ttv/AmemoriAid and @4buttonsoul.bsky.social for the raids! We went to watch Dispatch with @korioujo.com afterwards! <3

Thank you for hanging out tonight! Big thanks to @4buttonsoul.bsky.social for joining me as usual, we went to see @vtuberkadi.bsky.social for some Alien: Isolation!

Playing Remnant: From the Ashes with @4buttonsoul in an hour, come listen to my congested ass try to shoot shit. twitch.tv/martyrscorner youtube.com/martyrscorner

Time for #TwitchRecap! Thank you for all of the love and support this year, you make this worth doing! Here's to making next year even better with more chaos, silliness, and fun! 💖

you'd think I'd learn to not speedrun models an hour before stream, but no. I'm speedrunning TWO models. ha.

POV: you're 5'10".

Thank you for hanging out today, Hollow Knight is LEGIT so fun aaaaa. We went to spend some time with @vampirateodessa.bsky.social afterwars for some vibe times!

Will be streaming today, just a little later! Will be playing Hollow Knight around 3pm PT! <3 twitch.tv/martyrscorner youtube.com/martyrscorner

IT'S FUCKING CHRISTMAS TIME. GET THE LIGHTS UP, GET YOUR TREE OUT, GET YOUR SANTA HAT ON. LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOO. youtu.be/oDuUE89UgYM