Tommorrow is ash wednesday, the beginning of lent. As well as fasting, skipping lunch & refraining from treats & alcohol I shall be giving up all social media for 40 days so this is my last post until the end of lent. Peace be with you & see you on the other side! 🤍🤍🕊️🕊️❤️

Even in the darkness there is light... Goodnight 🖤

Starry starry night......🖤🖤✨✨

I decided to finally embrace my englishness!🙂Church every Sunday morning followed by a Sunday roast on my nans old vintage plates that I still use daily. I love rountines & rituals & I have found peace in honouring the sabbath. Sunday=no work,no distractions,no social media,a day of rest & peace 🕊️🕊️

I made calamari with organic sweet potatoes fried & organic greek salad

I bought myself some flowers for valentines day as nobody else will 🤣🤣 🪻🪻🌷🌷

Goodnight. Let the night bring rest & peace 🤍🤍

We have everything to live with & nothing to live for ~ This is the cost of believing you are a mistake. The moment you abandon the truth that you are created with intention you untether everything else, moral truth disintegrates. Hope becomes sentiment, not substance. C Kirk 2025

"It is one of the great ironies of our age that we are wealthier, more technologically advanced and more medically capable than any generation in human history—yet our children are sicker in mind and soul than ever before.... C Kirk

I have travelled many paths through many years to finally begin to find peace.For the first time I have a guided light in my heart.For the first time I really feel there is hope for the future.I took many wrong paths & was many times very lost in the darkness but I am no longer alone.Peace to all 🤍🕊️

Its very easy to slip back into negative thoughts. Its something Im working on....and Im getting there....the world is still beautiful....and the good still exists💙💙

I do not need anybody.I am born to walk alone & alone I shall stay.I have no interest anymore in relationships. People only let you down...again & again & again..I am content in my solidarity...I will build my walls higher & nobody but god & my dogs will reach me..its my destiny. Its better this way

I made a harrissa with hot honey sauce ❤️

Good morning. Let the day bring happiness to everyone. Best wishes for the start of a new week. Lets see what the working week brings.....❤️

My brain is wired to be all or nothing. I have obsessions that are intense & long lasting. I have become absorbed & obsessed with Van Gogh, christianity & philosopy, particularly Nietzsche & as always Germany. The most beautiful minds are those that were born to suffer 💙💙

Today was my dads 87th birthday. We had a bowl of chips in the pub & then I went to the evening service as usual on a Saturday at Rochester Cathedral followed by a stroll along the high street

I made an organic tomato & garlic pasta with salmon & organic broccoli ❤️❤️💚💚

If I write a post on FB about anti-hate spreading & nobody at all likes the post I see that as a good thing,it means you have reached an audience that doesnt agree with you. And when nobody comments it means maybe they have nothing to say or maybe they have respect for you & may think on your words🤍

I love this photo of my babies, my best friends. From a road trip last summer....

I made a mostly organic chilli con carne on an organic baked purple sweet potato. I found I can get by spending on £15 on my weekly organic order which includes my milk butter cheese & veg then £15 a week on everything else & reduced fish for 2 of us proving you can eat healthy on a budget

2 gardens down, 1 to go & my mood has lifted. I must remember to stay with the light. How can we help others if we ourselves walk in the darkness. Making other peoples gardens nice brings me great satisfaction. I wish everyone a peaceful & prosperous day ❤️❤️

Today I feel the darkness descending upon me A deep saddness within my soul.I work on one of my gardens,its cold & a little wet but the sun is shining. Such a sunny day....

My light went out & I was completely alone in the darkness. For many days, for many months, I was so sad, afraid & lost. Then I saw a light in the darkness & I followed it......it lead me back to the sinless innocent child I once was. And I finally began to understand....TJ- 2026

My campervan sits & waits patiently for summer. I long to travel again. Hopefully I get enough work once more this year to be able to fund my trips. I stay in cheap places, the roadside is too dangerous here for women alone. I will work hard in the gardens & make it happen, the time will come...❤️🏕️🚍

John 12:35 - Walk while you have the light, lest darkness overtake you; he who walks in the darkness does not know where he is going 🖤🤍

Today Im working in the rain. I don't mind so much - it's honest work. I like to be digging the land.... it brings me peace...💙🤍

Candlemass at the beautiful Rochester Cathedral. I no longer live here but I grew up & worked in Medway & spent much time here. I have started regularly going here again in between attending my local abbey for services after work when I can. Its worth the 44 mile round trip ❤️🙏

Gorgeous ❤️❤️

A beautiful sitting cat in the antique shop window display today. Unfortunately not for sale 😆❤️

Candlemass in the church today then off to Rochester cathedral for evensong and spontainiously stopped off in a pub in Rochester where a band were playing. Was a nice Sunday ❤️

Oh wow - just came across some old photos. Me on the left in yellow as a 17 year old, with my sister no longer with us, on the right. At my nans house christmas 1987. 💙

youtube.com/watch?v=5bt7... 💙💙

youtube.com/watch?v=BP4v... One of my favourite songs. A song about mental illness & abuse. No matter what path I take heavy metal music will always stay with me. It was & still is a big part of my life & its what got me through my lonely teenage years. 💙💙

Lovely service at Rochester cathedral today. Coral evensong. ❤️

Waterfalls in Wales last summer. Precious memories travelling the uk between working. I hope to see more of the Uk this year if I can get enough work to enable some more camping trips. I will work all the hours under the sun for these brief moments of exploration & happiness 💚🍀

Last summer after a year of pretty bad depression I went a bit manic & decided in between work to travel around England with my daughter & the dogs fitting as much into the day as we could. We raced around everywhere in the campervan fitting in 5 or 6 destinations a day until it was midnight! ❤️❤️💙

This was Gloucester city centre with my daughter back in July 2025 on our summer roadtrip. We had such a wonderful time & felt so alive & happy even though I couldnt really afford it. You ll never regret the adventures you make, you ll only regret the opportunities you don't take. Life is short💙

A child that is subject to intense mental abuse daily for years by others will never be a normal adult. My heart is heavy my heart is still good. The child from before this is still alive. And the teenager that stood on the bridge is also still with me. I do my best Often sad but happy to be alive❤️

Last job of the day.My customers fertilizer label made me laugh.😂On the downside I forgot my mask so I hope Im not ill breathing in the poop dust.Used my jumper as a makeshift filter.Although I worked with actual chickens & their poop for 3 years never wearing a mask & was always ok. Live in hope 🤞🏻🍀

Another day, another dollar. One of my regular jobs, twice weekly clearing this garden. And its started to rain .....

Its very easy for those with plenty,to sit in judgement of those with very little,being angry about those with even less.Its up to those of us who dont have that much to show compassion.Because if we cannot show it then we are not worthy to call ourselves human or to receive compassion ourselves🕊️🙏

Today I am so so tired. I can barely stay awake. Im going to have a little sleep....Tomorrow will be better.....💙🙏

I am watching the world around me fall apart........and the world around me.....fall apart 💔🖤🕊️

Returning from this morning's communion at my beautiful ancient abbey, this week we had Bishop Rose. A very powerful & nice service 🙏❤️

My heart is like a hole in space, dark but not empty. Within it shines a billion stars, each burning bright as tiny suns. But still its empty.... Teresa J - Jan 2026

3 years ago my daughter & I rescued this very sick gull,nursed him back to health & released him.I was sure he would die as he couldnt stand or eat for the first week.We even had him in our bathtub.To see him fly away was one of my proudest monents. I hope you became a fine bird Orion.Stay healthy ❤️

Over oceans of time the right thing will come. At the right time. All that should be will find its way. And all that should not be will be lost.... I wait, patiently. Across the oceans of time.... Teresa J 2026

I feel the darkness descending upon me once more. Like shackles around my ankles it pulls me down. I try to ride through it. I try to focus on the light....

Its funny how I write my most beautiful lines in moments of intense pain but in the brief moments for what may pass as happiness I have absolutely no inspiration at all. Perhaps this means I am doomed to pain in the hope that one day, many years from now, people may one day read my words.....