Today my faith returned due to a very moving service from an anglican priest I'd never heard preach before. Strange,as a person who never shows emotion in public I actually fought back tears.The sermon struck a very personal note & touched me deeply. I feel once more at peace & with great strength🙏✝️

English and French players praying & hugging together on the pitch after the match. Beautiful moment in football ❤️❤️

Amazing. Proud as always of England ❤️🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿❤️🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

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On the sunniest days when I see only dark skies and the promise of endless meaninless tomorrows. Procrastination returns in the midst of a deep fog & its all I can do to keep my faith. But that I will do in the knowledge that the fog will once again lift. In its own time. Its all about waiting.....💙

Evensong again at Rochester Cathedral. And a sit in the castle gardens on a rare afternoon off work

Saw a simple lone man today on a bench playing a guitar to nobody & people think hes a madman? The same people walking around with cosmetic fake body parts that we are brainwashed to believe are the normal ones? Who really are the insanes ones here? The whole concept is crazy🤯

😭💔😭🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 Still proud of England to get to the semis. No point in being negative. Its done. 😭

Isnt it strange how one small action or comment from another can affect your entire mood & bring your whole day down....😞💙 Or is it just me with my over sensitivity? I dont know.....

I dont believe in filters or superficiallity. Be who you are. This is a windswept and tired working me in one of my gardens on a wednesday morninig 😂 I wish everyone a pleasant and productive day! I will keep on doing my best 🕊️🥰

Im experiencing an immense burst of creative energy the likes ive not experienced since childhood.The down side is im having hardly any sleep as i stay awake until 4.30 am jotting down my thoughts.For a book that as a procrastinator will never be finished & if it was is unlikely ever to be read 😂🙂

The problem is straight people prefer straight fiction to my ramblings about the complexities of conciousness and And most people are straight people. My drawback is that I don't have a normal mind. I need more intricacy than that. So as a writer I doubt I'd ever be a success.

If you are standing in a church & you can no longer feel anything, it doesnt mean it isnt there. It just means you are in the wrong church ✝️🙏🕊️

I live in monotones but I dream in colour....and in the place between wake & sleep I find an immense peace. Drifting in a strange monologue of the paired opposites that merge into an indescribable paradise which words alone cannot expain.

Decided to come back to continue posting my deepest thoughts in continued forms of poetry and imagery. My photos & words you see are all my own. I will no longer be looking at any political or hateful posts. Instead, I wish to focus solely on my writings & innermost thoughts. This is my desire

I cant stand the hatred on these social media platforms right now. Im leaving for awhile. Taking a break. I cant be around it. Be back hopefully when I feel more at peace. Until then may peace be with you. 🕊️

Whitby Abbey ruin

youtube.com/watch?v=SkMN... Don't waste your time always searching for those wasted years And realize you're living in the golden years... This version is one of my favourite songs, the realisation we are living in the here and now...poignant

Little flower amongst the weeds, who gets to chose if you live or die. Just because you are not prettier than your neighbour you don'tget to stay in my garden? Oh the shallowness of mankind....

Working outside 6 hours in temperatures of 35 degrees is not the best. On the plus side living near the water means I can take a 2 hour break & cool off in the sea with the dogs midday then carry on...🥵😓

Amazing!! 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿❤️

Sunday. Rest day. Communion & church service (not in this church. This was a walk with the dogs afterwards) Then a trip to the dairy & the farmshops in the english countryside. Later watch the football - England v Mexico 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

The illusion of colours is simply that. An illusion.Wishful thinking.The iceburg is the reality.Anyway I continue to try my best to keep going. These 2 are my only true friends,who love and accompomany me through life without judgement,malice or selfish reasons.This is why animals are purer than us

It is finished.The birds sing their dawn chorus & I am free from all irrelevant thoughts.The past is a distant memory & the future is with myself & god.I feel the colours begin to return.A new future begins & I pray one day I will do enough to walk in eternal paradise. May peace be with us all 🕊️

To live on an iceburg.Aone in the coldest ocean.The sun cannot touch me.And if it did it would be my enemy. Let me be.I cannot tolerate the incomplexities of normal mortals.I have no wish to do so.Nor have I anyone with which to understand the complexities of my thoughts & mind. Im happy this way.

When the sun shines black in a bottomless void & the soul feels empty as a summers day without light or birdsong to fill such a desolate space.Such is the mundanity of life.Where every breath seeps sorrow & each blink of an eye reflects a sadness colder than the iciest sea in which I wish to drown.💙

Sometimes I feel so deeply sad.Like a dead star in a black sky in the midst of eternity,that stretches on & on without end or hope.Only faint memories,trapped in a timeless time remain,a vague imprint of light & impression in a never ending pointless dark emptiness... And other days I feel fine 💙😞

Isnt this just beautiful 🥰🥰

Evensong at the very beautiful Ely Cathedral today. Although the building was indeed wonderful it somehow didnt have the warm, welcoming feeling of Rochester Cathedral where I feel at home. On the plus side the dogs were allowed in.

Goodnight 😴😴

My beautiful England. My homeland. I will always be proud of it. I hope we never completey lose our countryside and our country ways of life to urbanisation and development. I pray for our countryside & the animals & people who inhabit it 💚

Dinner

Sometimes doesnt everything just feel like a complete waste of time... I will continue to do my best.... The wheels keep turning & the world keeps spinning & my body feels like its breaking & my heart is heavy as a stone. But I will do my best.....🪻

Wild horse on the moors. Where I live. on the way to church today

It is a beauteous evening, calm and free, The holy time is quiet as a Nun, Breathless with adoration; the broad sun Is sinking down in its tranquility William Wordsworth 🤍

youtube.com/watch?v=j1yV... 💙

Corpus Christi. A beautiful service at the cathedral today which always brings me peace followed a relaxing dog walk after a stressful day 🤍

My beautiful babies. They love each other so much ❤️❤️

I decided to go for a spontanious night swim tonight. Started as a paddle then decided to go all the way in in my clothes for a proper swim. I😅unfortunately the phone died but the best menories are recorded in the mind, not on camera 💙💙

Pentecost

Sunday in the beautiful Kent english countryside. Theres nothing like it. Its the most beautiful place to be. England.

To all the people who used me & abused me,hurt me,lied to me, manipulated me & broke me,I would like to say thank you. You made me who I am today. Im still strong, still proud & dignified. Although often depressed I hold no malice & one day I will walk in paradise.

I try so hard to lift myself from the dark times. But there are things in life that we are helpless to resolve. I pray for help to lift us from this darkness and keep it evermore at bay & I remember the words that we must have patience. We must have patience...it will be ok...💙

Night walk