I’m just sort of coming to a realization that even attempting to draw now is hard. It’s hard to start. It’s hard to want to. It’s hard to want to do anything. I don’t feel depressed? I’ve been depressed but is this it again? I don’t know why, it’s like I’m just stuck.

Arctic base mini diorama is done! All set pieces here that aren’t the HyGogg were modeled and 3D printed by myself.

it’s getting exhausting. Past exhausting. Feeling broken. -watching the people who run this country actively ruin it for its own people. And those same people not caring enough or being so dumb and ignorant to it. Fuck this country. Fuck this government. Fuck everyone who allowed this.

2018-2026

2018-2026

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Printed the GM for the mini HyGogg but I’m torn on what size to use. The larger one boats background size, but isn’t as “true” to the SD scale. But the Smaller one while being more true, feels lacking? Idk what do you guys think?

VHS rip of the Heavy Cream OVA now considered lost media

I FORGOT TO POST HERE 4x New sticker designs are up in my shop! Link below! (Limited stock left! If these sell out I’ll make more!)

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… need him to just fall down the stairs and break his entire spine on camera already.

twitter desperately needs a no quote tweet option I just do not care about people’s opinions anymore about anything lmao

VNDL

VNDL

convinced Wick to try on one of those internet fits.

convinced Wick to try on one of those internet fits.

I fuckin hate old people dude.

Patrons got several alts of this btw ;)

I’m dubbing ‘Marathon Derangement Syndrome’ a real thing we need medication for atp. It’s ok not to like something but when you’re going through the Marathon keyword tag just to spew negativity at people enjoying something, you have a problem my dude. It’s not healthy to be this mad at a game.

Also thank you all for your kind comments. I didn’t respond to everyone and sort of just hopped off and played games with friends last night. Thank you.

gonna draw the bnnuy tonight to break back into art cuz fuck it I want to draw her. uncensored ref cuz I’m feelin generous today idk

The feeling of “I want to draw more things I think are cool but my mind can’t bring itself to actually focus on it” is like living in hell. I don’t want to just do pinup work/suggestive/nsfw. I genuinely, genuinely wish I could pivot but I can’t.

Like my last art post was 5 days ago and seeing that made me feel so bad like I was a failure. I wish my brain was normal. I wish I had properly regulated emotions. You don’t get it it’s like a prison im trying to break out of. I’m watching the world turn and I’m fighting my own hands just to move

I’m sorry also for the lack of art. I have been so depressed that I have had trouble waking up/doing most anything this month. I don’t want to feel this way because it compounds and snowballs so badly because I value my productivity. And when I’m not it makes me feel like I’m a waste of air.

twitter has become so hostile that I’m being told to die for wanting a Motorstorm port to PC, and that I’m dumb for noticing little details of a retro obscure rock paper scissors arcade game from Japan. I don’t get it. Like people just go insane on the dumbest shit now.

Blackbird

Leiana has a letter for you 🎊💝

Cleaned the whole setup and dusted the PC. Feels much brighter and cleaner to work at now.

Having too much fun with the new board. Never had one with a screen before!

Currently drawing more Nora from the prior suggestions but uh. Gimme some guys/guy ideas to sketch out? I’m curious what you guys would want to see

This would actually help a lot for rent this month… so if you want a little merc companion and to help out an artist, that would be much appreciated ;-; I don’t usually like making posts like this but I gotta be real about life rn. Thank you ❤️

Nora Acrylic Keychains are now available to PREORDER!! albaworks.bigcartel.com/product/nora...

A small character intro cuz some people may not know Leiana. She’s an Elf (but can change her ears to blend in as human w/magic) who lives as a Botanist. Shes my only real “fantasy” character who I’d like to do more with in the future. Cozy & friendly are basically her main design idea.

extra outfit reference. Going to whip up a few more for her soon hopefully

good boy (rare male nudity post hi)

Leiana SFWイラスト

honestly don’t intend on posting much more stuff like this, but I want to post this one cuz it’s one of the cutest picture of her I’ve ever drawn. (exhibitionist AU basically)

Nora Acrylic Keychains are now available to PREORDER!! albaworks.bigcartel.com/product/nora...

Honestly idk why I’ve been having a lot of fun with nsfw lately. I’m sorry if it’s not your cup of tea! It won’t be the norm by a long shot here for long.

good boy (rare male nudity post hi)

Leiana SFWイラスト

lmao

New patches for the edc bag \o/

Leiana has a letter for you 🎊💝

@albaworks.bsky.social Another awesome surprise in the mail today! 🤯

geopolitics nerds on Twitter are the biggest fucking babies jesus fucking christ go cry directly into your favorite weird East Asian carbine or something