I Did recently get to Hoenn in PokeSpe tho! so that's something. it is interesting so far

haven't really been drawing or posting the drawings i Have been making recently sooo sorry aboutt that I'll try to get more done

I won't post a ton of panels for actual cuz I don't wanna clog up my media tab but If U Really Like Pokemon reading Pokespe is Not a bad idea i feel like there's alot to get out of it

I've been reading the Pokémon Adventures manga for the past while whenever Im bored or sad or I've got nothing else to do and it's really quite fun... Im gonna start taking pics of panels I particularly like I think from but there's sooo many ...

Realized very quickly the reason I don't say much on these accounts (it would all be negative things that I do not need to say publicly)

lifespan increase from the cuphead announcement because there's another Fuck I Gotta See That

i hate dooming the entiiire time at work man at least let us use earbuds so i can get some noise in my ears to distract me

i really dunno anything about anything thats the messed up stuff ...

also idk anything abt bocchi the rock but that drink bassist girl is hot as fuck

Also i was thinking about it it's crazy that my sense of time is so warped and bad i feel like I've lived an eternity in like 5 or 6 years and it's fucking crazy

feeling pretty okay today but one thing that I always dwell on alot of the time is my (seeming) inability to verbalize "higher level thoughts"(??) that (it feels like at least) I have in my brain it's really horrid and makes me feel stupid and unable to engage in conversations i really wanna have

am I kinda crazy for thinking this place is As Bad As Twitter just for like slightly different reasons lol

sorry I've been venting so much on here im on the brink of breaking completely and it's just thoughts slipping through the cracks as I try to keep it in lol i apologize if anyone ever sees them before i delete them

i wish I wasn't so scared of EVERYTHING i actually cannot verbalize any of my thoughts or the universe is actually gonna strike me down and force choke me even if they're the most positive thoughts anyone could ever have

it really sucks I'll never be ready for hrt or diy or anything and i just gotta lie down and take it all til i die

i will talk about hrt til the day I die and do nothing about it probably...

it just occured to me again im the most scared cowardly afraid person of everything to ever exist and I don't wanna invite conversation about myself in any way so im deleting it all now actually sorry haha

sorry for the lack of art my brain fucking hates me it's Jealous of How Well Im Doing

started trying to draw in a little sketchbook i got and tried lining n its rough

I need to start diy before i die lol

I always forget my summer depressive swings and then im like fucking I've been feeling like absolute total fucking garbage about everything lately i wonder whats up ohhhhhh

this website fucking sucks too and the people behind it there's not really anywhere good to go though which is the shit part lmfao whatever I shouldn't complain so much here

i could never meet new people again and probably be content everyone else fucking sucks anyways I can't even find shit in communities because it's either fandom and I don't wanna deal with it or the queer ppl i interact with somehow always end up being the worst most noxious type of ppl to exist

i don't even like this platform i just can't tweet on my priv rn and everything fucking sucks and I've never been at a point in my life where i feel more contempt for everyone that isn't my friend and want every freak in a ten mile radius eviscerated also I did not sleep last night ate once yestrday

The 2pm -11pm schedule i have is OK but very very not conducive to doing Anything with Anyone most of the time

also i have no horse in this race but I like how Falco looks the most i think

i do wish I wasn't do absolutely horrible at interacting with even people I consider super duper close lol it feels like every single sentence i speak has a 50/50 chance of going catastriphically wrong

these are all like a week or two old or whatever but I've been playing aloot of tomodachi recently its so super good

fun Maki Harukawa Doodle (+ref)

doodles

Highkey Rotting In This Body

Something / Nothing

Toko Fukawa in the Tomodachi Life Demo...

absolute fucking woolrrst kind of day where it just blurs by as im sleeping and waking and nauseous with my head spinning oh my GOODNESS

i wonder who it could possibly be

realizing i wasted so much time not taking any steps to further my transition, no coming out no hrt no appointments id need for anything anywhere no voice training I've wasted all my time up til now waiting for nothing and i feel like im rotting in this body

my unpolished bullshit

When you feel like your time is #RunningOut

i need to start DIY or something right fucking now oh my god

been feeling absolutely terrible lately idk how to get out of it

Do nott tell me how you were Going To say something and NOT say it that will ruin my day (I'll think about it alot and wonder and the curioisty will eat away at me and it won't be that bad actually)

WHY THE FUCKK AM I SIX FOOT TWOOO UGHHHH

i should stop smoking

it's really hard to have the confidence in myself I probably should have lol

if i could percectly replicate any art style it'd have to be that of sugimori's watercolor art from the beginning of Pokemon like that art is so fucking tasty

apologies if im miserable or anything of the sort when im tweeting or interacting with anyone im trying super duper fucking hard not to be the worlds biggest debbie downing doomer about literally everything rn

my friends have convinced me to install deadlock (we'll see if it even runs well for me) and it's scary this game does not look like my kinda thing at all