i get the desire to draw TADC as humans, and i think its cool, but i also extremely dont care much for it. im not all that interested in what they looked like as humans and i feel that it doesnt really fit the concept of the story. i would be surprised if we saw any humans in the entire show tbh.

ragatha and pomni holding me down and kissing me would not only cure me, it would heal the world

grandpa fell twice this week, this time we called the ambulance because he was wailing too much. idk if anything is wrong since he has a pretty low pain tolerance now but we'll have to see.

mattresses came in a day early too. gotta buy sheets sooner than i thought

i think the bad part about not having a partner is not having someone i get to experience life with. i dont really care to experience it by myself.

i need TADC yuri or else i will die

i am listening to amazing digital music

malcomhol

i think im going to get off wellbutrin, the side effects for me are too much

my daybed frame came in early, so i built it today. just waiting on the mattresses for it.

i dont care for Jax as a character, but I still like him. I dont get why people act like he gets "too much" screen time, considering he's basically a foil of Pomni.

this is me

someone i used to be mutuals with unfollowed me a while ago and then i found out so i unfollowed back, but then some time later followed me again so i followed back but they just did the same shit lol!! who are you! make up your mind!

i think i figured out TADC, i think its gonna be about dopamine cycles kinda. like caine is built to entertain, and constantly. it wears down the cast and they cant escape it. when people abstract they turn into a mass of eyes that are only calmed down in the dark (i.e. no display)

ive felt depressed and anxious all of a sudden. idk what it is, probably that i had to lower my dose of welbutrin cuz it was giving me migraines

ngl im so fucking stressed out about Amazing Digital Circus

this is silly but i just caught up with The Amazing Digital Circus episodes because last night i had several nightmares about it and i figured catching up on the series would ease my anxiety about it lol

im actually screaming in my head right now, im extremely disappointed in my family. i understand them, but i feel theyre being selfish with their emotions.

ive been playing Thief Simulator and i kinda was not liking it but i played the demo for the sequel and it seems much more fleshed out there. the first one is very clunky in comparison.

i would really like to be able to rest my head on someone's lap

just finished assembling two standing heaters and a host of other chores, im tired. pretty sure we've more to do.

Not entirely clean. Its mostly just wall stuff I changed. New shelf, new plushie jail, new whiteboard. Ignore the really messy nightstand in the middle.

this post was funny yall just dont know art when you see it

its definitely one of my medications but i randomly feel happyish(?) which is interesting

my parents deciding to have a big drunken fight on the night my brain is all loopy off medication

shadowheart is real and she loves me btw

my head feels weird but im mostly fine

taking a new medication tonight so i might freak out and die

need to be held and kissed

my arm hurts a lot actually lol its all bruised and shit im just now feeling it

im not very good with photomode but i tried

bro refused to die lying down

dog bit me cuz i had to give him medicine

i dont feel good this morning. dont know why i feel so tired and crying. i feel like if someone touched me right now i would lash out instinctively. i should try to go back to sleep.

I know theres pretty much zero consequences to becoming half-illithid in BG3, but every character I've role played has had zero reason to do it. There's not much in-universe reason to be putting worms in your brain that hurt you and also kill you while changing you into another creature.

this is how i designed my guardian. i kinda usually use the default one because who cares lol but i figured since the emperor is trying to manipulate me, it would make sense if he looked like a selunite solar, as my character was raised a selunite and is also currently a solar

i kinda make the same character every time i play, but i think i like this iteration the most. i got the Solar race mod, so she's a celestial. i have a neat backstory for her

I wish, if its possible, that an advanced skeleton for BG3 characters was available, so that theres more slots for character editing. Half the time stuff you have to choose between conflicting accessories.

I hate when mod makers dont make their stuff open source or whatever. as hopeful as you are, you are almost certainly going to abandon this. fuck off man, now we have to deal with permissions on mod nobody is able to contact the author on.

One of the things about Astarion's story is that I feel like he doesnt have an early enough moment that puts him on his "good" path. Shadowheart has the moment where she denied killing the Nightsong, but Astarion has until the his battle with Cazador.

love this song

i want to see all the BG3 companions doing normal stuff, no battles and world ending events. i want a post game DLC where we all just relax and have dinners and help rebuild the city and try on clothes

i need lae'zel to playfully gnaw on me with her pointy gith teeth

i always didnt like Rolan because he was just a little prick, Act 2 he's still annoying but at least he shows heart. but Act 3 after you save him from Lorroakan? he's quite charming

I just had a convo with Minthara after killing Orin and its such a great moment where she talks about how she would have been a forgotten nobody if I had not saved her, and swears against Bhaal, Lolth, and the Absolute. I just wish that it would be a moment for her to change as a person.

fuck me this canker sore is like on a nerve or something this SUCKS

i just got the scene where you see the sunrise with Lae'zel and i got chills, she's so adorable. great scene

I get she's not as fleshed out as some of the characters, but its just weird to be in a relationship as good-aligned with her with some of her responses.

just got a free (supposedly non-functional) PS5