Our long weekend was SO GOOD and now it’s only four days until one of my favorite regular private parties. I even bought a special outfit for it. 😈

I own a set of professional-level dumbbells and today was the first time I progressed past the halfway point of getting to the heaviest pair of them (if I ever do because that’s A LOT lol). Past the HALFWAY POINT!!! 💪

In the last 10 days, I’ve been warned about very serious situations at three different venues. The local kink scene is so deeply broken that I won’t get involved in any of it or even tell friends who go to those locations because I won’t risk the repercussions of any of it. Insanity.

I’m physically stronger now than I have been in at least 25 years and I feel amazing. Physically amazing, sure. But I feel mentally *empowered.*

I heard an ad today that had a Christmas carol in it.

Wow. This, unsolicited, from a well known person in my area. 😲

Headed into a three-day weekend that will involve meeting new people (and cats!) and a whole lot of down time. Next week things are gonna get really busy for a long while but I’m not complaining because it feels good to be included in so many things. ❤️

When people repeatedly ask for money and promise repeatedly to be transparent and repeatedly claim to have gotten help but never follow through on the transparency part, they are rightfully suggested to be liars. This is where we are now and I hate this for this community. It deserves better.

People talking on one of my husband's FL posts about how the community seems so uptight and mentions they've noticed it in the last year or two. You mean openly divisive people bring an entire community down? Who knew? lol

Omg my legs hurt though lol

This is just in the last hour but it’s been this way for two days. I guess people are trying to get with me before the smoke on the horizon turns into four-alarm fires but there is nooooo way I’m getting involved in any of these situations bye 😂😂

A 1K may not seem like much but today is a recovery day and the speed at which I unintentionally did this has completely blown my mind. No, seriously, my easy days are breaking my past records and I’m not even focusing on cardio atm because I have a different goal for now. Go me! 💪

My house is amazing. Not from a size or luxury standpoint but from a comfort and safety perspective. It’s a beautiful little privately-fenced oasis that’s perfect for parties or just us canoodling alone. I feel physically and psychologically safer here than anywhere else on earth, I love it so much.

Aaaaaahahahahaha! The people suddenly appearing in my DMs today wanting to “reconnect” or “see how I’m doing these days” is fucking hilarious. I wasn’t born yesterday but I’m okay with pretending not to see it for what it is so people can save face lol

lol the prevailing theory is the owner will take whatever money they can finagle and scurry back across state lines to escape accountability

I think it says a lot that the two posts written by locals who think they’re helping are mostly getting attention from middle aged white men. That squares with its rep for being a place to find young and/or new women.

I thank my lucky stars that we figured out what a circus anything this owner touches becomes and got tf away before it splashed us. I take no joy in people asking me if this is why we’ve always stayed away because it makes people feel silly for not figuring it out sooner and I won’t make anyone feel

People are feeling used and manipulated and are trying to make sense of it all. These aren’t anywhere near the worst things people are saying to me, unasked, and they show how woefully people feel about having their sympathy played by someone who refuses to be accountable or transparent.

It’s not lost on people that this plea for help comes with yet another promise to be transparent about where the money goes. Those promises were made with previous pleas for money and never happened so, sure Jan. I love watching people connect dots lol

I apologize for any small sliver of joy that’s leaking through this morning. After watching someone destroy a place and wreck people for more than a year, I’m a little joyful that it might finally be coming to an end. The way the person is being spoken of now that no one has to be nice for

The latest community saga was so predictable there was practically a betting pool lol It says a lot that so few people even seem to care and the ones that do aren’t exactly helping the cause 😂😂 The narrative is so full of holes that no one believes it but there’s a fair

There haven't been a lot of social opportunities around me in recent years specifically for people in power exchange dynamics but it came up yet again this weekend with another returning old-timer. We've officially left the talking stage and have moved into the planning stage. I am ecstatic.

Last night a group of people with a thing in common met up at the munch to have a social-within-a-social and get to know each other better. A person who was so terrified they couldn’t speak the first time they came to the munch did karaoke last night. I got a message in the middle of the night from

I feel like things turned a corner in the last couple weeks. I watched a horrible situation play out that hurt people and horrible people continue to do horrible things. But I also spent about 12 hours in the past week hosting two busy socials listening to people rail against horrible

There’s a video of a child being passed around my local scene without either parent’s consent and I’ve been offered it five times now. I’ve been asking around and paying attention to who’s sharing it and, whaddya know, it’s local “leaders” and their friends. Noted.

Another packed munch that went into overtime and there were still people there when we left. Another million little things that made me smile for a million different reasons.

“I want to show you…” “Do want to see the screenshots of…” “Can I have a minute to tell you…” The social hasn’t even started yet and the tattletales are circling. 🤦🏻‍♀️ (Answer: no, no, and no.)

Between a local party trying to do damage control from ending up on the news and another getting slagged for using women as bait again, I'm so glad we are staying out of public stuff this weekend. What a fucked up mess.😂 (I literally got a DM from a person I met at a social asking if I would

A known consent violator moved here to escape their past elsewhere in the state & is banned from most regional stuff but strongly affiliated with a local venue who is vocal about another consent violator in the area. Guess what I just stumbled on? A website showing the two CVers are still tight. 😂😂📸

I was asked by someone rather VIPish for recs on locals who can do certain things so I gave a list of people I believe are best suited to the opportunities. A couple of them have hurt me deeply but I still added their names because I want what's best for this scene. I'm such a fucking patsy.

lol I never noticed the Rocky/crab similarities. Posting those images back to back was unintentional but maybe my subconscious was screaming at me just now 😂😂😂🪨🦀

The Artemis mission and Project Hail Mary came along just when I needed them. I will fight to the death to preserve the sciences and the arts.

Still sad but will not dwell on shit that doesn’t involve me. We’ve got a great weekend ahead and I can’t wait to get to it.

Men have a (deserved) bad rep for not taking “no” very well but when are we going to start talking about women who come on like a Mack truck and won’t back down. Jesus, the amount of women I’m beginning to flinch at being around is wild.

I’ve spent days alternating between crying over & being angry at some shitty scene behavior that doesn’t even have anything to do with me but is so awful I’m having trouble dealing with it anyway. I’ll be okay, mostly because my husband has the patience of a saint, but I won’t forget what they did.

I don't drink, use drugs, and haven't so much as smoked a cigarette in probably 10 years. However. I live in a legal state and am so unable to process one more second of emotional distress brought on by other people's pain that I'm about to meal prep dinner and then get high as balls. Deuces. ✌️

My superpower is keeping a straight face.

I got a lot more than I bargained for or wanted in the last 10 days or so but all of it solidified that I definitely made the right choice to distance myself from certain people and things. I hurt with and for my impacted scene members but my sleep remains undisturbed.

Speaking of hosting socials, my job is to stay out of it when people ask each other for advice on venues and kink parties. I learn so many fascinating things about spaces that way but what’s always the most interesting is listening to people compare notes on what a local owner says/does, including

It tears strips off my heart to see people we care about choosing to chase fame in this tiny spot we occupy on the planet and be crushed by loneliness when fame doesn’t arrive rather than spend time with people who would have continued love and cherish them. Kink ruins lives in weird ways.

I hosted a throwaway social/munch yesterday morning just ‘cause it’s something I do occasionally. I wasn’t expecting it to amount to anything but it went so well that people want it on the regular. Idk if I will or not but it’s hard for me to say no to creating social events people want.

I’m expected to believe that someone whose entire profile is AI pictures, music, and content has come up with over 170 classes well-researched and produced classes since X date. When accounting for another post that says “I left the scene for X years,” the math works out to creating

I am so grateful for the love I have. That autocorrected from “the life I have” but both are true so I left it. ❤️

I don’t know what is so hard for people around here to understand. Actions have consequences and I will not throw myself over a hand grenade to protect the person who pulled the pin. I’m sure my next few days will involve people apologizing and trying to fix everything, which is

This is the floor of the waiting room I’m currently in while my husband is having a medical test. When people find my lack of tolerance for anyone who is chaotic, angry, intense, divisive, or unpleasant, this is the exact type of flooring I hope they fall face first into.

I’ve been pulled into three different kink scene issues in the last week. They range in intensity from “this will divide the scene if it explodes” to “thanks for the info.” They all suck, there will be metaphorical casualties if any of the issues blow up, and… none of it is my problem. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I love it when this happens to ANYONE who is shitty to other people. Fortunately, it happens a lot.

I was foam rolling after my workout today and just couldn’t figure out what the issue was with how it felt on my ass. Then I realized it’s because those damn squats are paying off and that’s actual muscle, BAYBEE✌️💪🍑

It didn’t cross my mind until someone said something today: imagine attending a venue you’re too embarrassed to rsvp to and imagine watching people RSVPing to everything but the venue you run. And people wonder why the places people go are part of vetting theses days. Hiding your attendance

I’ve got the service sub itch SO BAD right now (which, oddly, is making my top headspace that much stronger). I switch with my husband/submissive for scenes but not service or power exchange so I need a consenting person to dump all this excess on lol.