Well gang, I have finally made it through the *required* reading for my computer architecture course. Holy fuck. It’s been honestly an incredibly interesting class, and I seriously wish I had more time to actually read the full textbook, but I only have til the end of the month to pass the class 😭

Gang, it’s Friday. You know what that means

Sometimes, I’ll go for a walk, put on my noise cancelling earbuds, unfocus my eyes, and just lose touch with all external stimuli. Just disassociate, loose myself in my thoughts, and let my feet take me where I’m supposed to go. Makes the walk to McDonald’s feel surprisingly shorter

Drunk I may be a little chat

When I get choice paralysis from not knowing what tf I want to listen to, I like that I can just sneakily listen along to bestie’s Spotify cause she always picks bangers 😌

I know I’ll keep on holding you in arms so tight, they’ll never let you go

Smear this man across the walls like strawberries and cream, it’s the only way to be

Fill me with the hope to wish impossible things

Pull up dude

Take that, nerd 😏

Despite the temptation, I did not do the stupid thing, @outsidetherain.bsky.social be proud of me 😌

The temptation to do something really stupid

I've become ever increasingly disillusioned with relationships (romantic, friends, family). I'm not one to "test" people, but it's incredibly telling when you decide one day to stop being the one to reach out, stop being the one to put in all of the effort into the relationship, and it's just...

Why is TikTok just recommending me kissing tutorial videos now? Wtf 😭

Now that I think about it, I should probably eat today

Update: after some very cathartic and loud singing, my vocal chords are now dying and I’m gonna lay here on the floor and cry for a while

Have I been to sleep? Nope. Is it 9am? Yes. Do I have the house I’m sitting at to myself and realized the tv here can connect to Spotify and so Ive got Stevie Nicks/FM/The Cure playing through the sound system and I’m singing and dancing around the living room? Also yes. Free will is wild guys

It’s been too long since I got to go to the gym, and I dunno when I’ll be able to get back in, so I’m filling a backpack with heavy shit and imma just lift that. Will it rip and fuck me up? Maybe. Will it help me with my depression that’s been exacerbated by inactivity? Let’s goddamn see

I’ve been up for like an hour (it’s like 4:43 here), that’s long enough to go back to sleep right?

Mentally and emotionally stable? Nah. Financially secure? In this economy? Romantically involved? Not that lucky. But I smell like blood, licorice, and roses; my lipstick tastes like vanilla; and I’m listening to The Cure. That’s all I really need right now 😌 (Pictured: Me writing this/coping)

So Saturn has been fucking with me for ~13 years (came into conjunction with my moon in Nov 2012 and left a year later, late 2014 through most of 2015 conjuncted my Pluto, then in 2017 started its long trek through my Capricorn stellium, Aquarius stellium, and *then* my Pisces Saturn return…)…

Realized I’ve been out of the gym for a month now. My biceps are not happy with me 😔

Did a deep dive and realized Saturn’s been fucking up my relationships for the past like 5 years 😐 between transiting my Mercury/Mars (5H), *and* Venus (6H), and then traversing my 7th house, *and then* conjuncting my natal Saturn (just finished my 29 year return back in March), and 5 retrogrades…

Crazy how like, perspectives can shift so quickly. Like you get absorbed in an idea, a potential life path, and then you take a step back to think, and you’re like “…do I actually want that though?” And so you start weighing everything and hyper analyzing, and you end up at “maybe I don’t after all”

9 o’clock, time to stop being distracted and actually do the schoolwork I’ve been meaning to do all day. Also my quarterly selfie I guess

Just cooked and ate like a pound of frozen bagged French fries and now im gonna go cry for an hour before bed

-Literally just adding something to a meaningless conversation- “Hey you know that meme of the annoying ‘um akshually’ person? Yeah you do that a lot, can you not?” Cool I’ll just never speak again 🙂

Wild pulls

I love you too @outsidetherain.bsky.social and I hope that your day gets better and better 😌🖤

Easy answer, the Data Over Dogma podcast with Dr. Dan McClellan and Dan Beecher. The academic study of the Bible is right in my area of interest, and I love the way they’re able to dive into some fascinating ideas and explanations for the biblical text, while remaining in the realm of scholarship

Aww thank you, that’s very sweet of you to say 🖤

NGL is kinda annoying. I’ll randomly get notifications like “someone’s looking at your profile”, and then I’ll look and it’s literally not the case. Just out here lying for no reason. Anyways, ngl.link/anddieofplea...

Genuinely mind boggling to hear a person who regularly goes on Kiwi Farms call Reddit a “gross terrible place that only wants to destroy people”. Like don’t get me wrong, parts of Reddit are definitely awful, toxic hell holes. But saying it’s worse than *Kiwi Farms*? Of all places. Really??

I should start a cult. The tenets would be very simple (basically “Thou shalt not be a dick to other people”), and we’d just get together every Sunday (to eat pizza and play D&D). Personally I think that’d be pretty chill

If you see this, you’re legally obligated to do it 😌 •name: Aria (Rebecca) •pronouns: She/Her •height: Between 5’9 and 5’10 •sexuality: 🧡🤍🩷 •sign: Cap ☀️, Scorpio 🌙, Virgo ⬆️ •piercings: 0 •tattoos: 0 •fav drink: Coffee •fav food: Butter Chicken •pets: None 😔 •mbti: ENFP-T •relationship: Single

15 movies to know AriaVaria The Big Lebowski Kiki’s Delivery Service Practical Magic Scream Hocus Pocus Nightmare on Elm Street Rocky Horror Picture Show Lisa Frankenstein Mulholland Drive Wild at Heart What We Do in the Shadows Silence of the Lambs Nosferatu Elvira, Mistress of the Dark The Craft

Just a girlkisser with no girl to kiss 😔

It’s been literally like 2 months since I did this. Go on, do it. Send me a message/ask me stuff. Unless you’re chicken 😏 ngl.link/anddieofplea...

Who’s up les’ing their bians?

Wait…I didn’t want to be called out like this 😭

I don’t make the rules 🤷‍♀️

Introduce yourself with the last 5 concerts you saw I’ve never been to A concert before. Please don’t judge me. In fact, you should Take me to one instead 😏

Either way they’ll be on a leash