got a face palette its sooo cute

i literally need to shut my fucking mouth and stop eating omg

society if i could just ask my boyfriend how fat i can get before he hates me without consequences:

might be getting gel nail stuff for christmas which is yaay yippee bc i can finally start doing cute nails and art. and dont worry itll be good quality stuff not generic amäzòn kits

despite eating and drinking stuff today i weigh less at the end after using the bathroom wowza crisis averted

tummy ache right as my shift starts auugghhhhh

do we think if i truly lock in that i can lose 15lbs by chrǐstmãs

studying is so boringgggg

ugh ok i dont work for like 3 more hours but im gonna go get food and study and then buy the retinol because everything is closed basically when im off

up an entire bmi point since last weigj in…. fuck my baka life

gonna buy some retinol today

my wrapped

had a nightmare i was shoveling down bread and cookies, plus in a different scene i made a fool of myself playing ddr and ended up being super broke

at least theres enough sunlight today i can do makeup before i leave, otherwise id just do it at tims lmfao

anyways house has no power bc its being worked on finally so i wanna go out but it means i have to brave bľǎck friďãý crowds at the mall…. but damn i want hot food for bfast + i need to do shopping + i wanna go to the arcade

ugh i slept so bad last night i went to bed early at like 10pm and then i woke up at 2 and literally couldnt go back to bed, i had to swap pillows, kick off a blanket, and turn on a livestream and even then it took agessss

getting into fashion again of course means im back on my bullshit

i got to make out with my boyfriend for the first time recently and omg im like. i cant stop thinking about it. next time i see him i wanna do it again im just ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

teach prolly thinks im skipping but i just have tummy issues :(

i keep almost crying because me and my boyfriend finally progressed to saying “i love you” waaahhhhhh i love him so much im so happy

hey gang im not spiralling anymore :3

buying these pants

almost removed my plugs today then i remembered i can get tunnels and keep wearing multiple earrings so i ordered some. i really like how steel tunnels + danglies looks

i cant deal with class today omg im hiding in the bathroom not even 10 minutes into starting

i got a budgeting app so hopefully i get my spending in check… ive literally already spent 1.4k this month somehow

ive bottled up enough to where its spilling out at random i cried myself to sleep last night and i wasnt even feeling particularly horrid

had to pay $50 in customs…. damn

that was a fun day of fish and shopping and i dont actually feel *too* guilty this time because i never go to the big city to shop like last time was at least 1.5 years ago so like. yeah

im going to the aquarium!!

i wanna paint my nails….

mornin!!

does anyone else here have a shopping addiction cause like ugghhhh

love retail “therapy” 3 fucking seconds of happy then guilt for buying and wasting and spending then excited for package then guilt and hiding and shame

i just feel like crying all the time lately

cant wait for my clothes ughhhh i waannnma dress jirai more than ever lately

i hate my job like dont get me wrong i love it so much but i just dread working in general rn and i wish i were still at tims so my days would at least blur by in a haze and i miss knowing everything being the guy who’s one of the best

new mawnster haigh doll has been revealed and omgggg i cant NOT get her wtf??

my package is supposed to arrive by tuesday 👀 i will take a pic for you guys btw

damn im getting kinda hungry…. i still have 1h left of my shift tho

having it too fast nd now i have a mild tummyache aaaauuuugghhhhbbbbbhh i work in 10

was talking abt wl with two coworkers last week (both are overweight and have lost a decent bit) and im chatting like “haha yeah i just wanna lose a little yk” acting like im super healthy abt it. ugh

AND my makeup looks fire

protein shake omad 😋 this ones actually so good wtf

so i weighed in today at nearly 140. what the fuck is wrong with me.

the way this immediately triggered me the most out of anything oml

yk what i forgot i had a 6 day tracker thingy so ill follow that

i also think i should eat before my shift instead of after? then i can omad tomorrow and also not risk feeling ill on the floor

i also finally bought foundation so i think i have everything i need irt mǎkěup? and then i also gotta buy bleach too before work

bought some clothes online and i am FIENDING for their arrival but i literally put in the order yesterday lmfao so no way theyre coming soon. i just want them for my concert at the minimum

fasting until 9pm tomorrow 26h